i am
stubborn.
it took me
a while
to accept
my situation.
there would be
days where
i would
push myself
beyond
what was doable
because
that is what
i used to
be able to do.
my joints
would sob.
i would keep walking.
my head
would scream.
i would keep reading.
too stubborn
to admit defeat.
until i couldn't
ignore it
anymore.
i wasn't
being a hero.
i wasn't
being #inspirational,
"pushing in spite
of the odds."
i was
being too stubborn
for my own good.
i was
hurting myself.
when i finally
accepted things,
and begrudgingly
slowed down,
i learned that
i could persist
in my own ways
without causing harm
to my health.
maybe that
can be
inspirational.
YOU ARE READING
the color orange, and other things twisted by chronic illness
Poetryone person's reflection on living with fibromyalgia