according to
a psychologist
i spoke with,
it isn't uncommon
for people
with chronic pain
to,
at times,
think
"what's the point?"
because
we wake up
exhausted
and
in pain,
go about our day
exhausted
and
in pain,
then go to sleep
exhausted
and
in pain.
it is a
relentless
frustrating
hollowing
cycle.
i too,
at times,
think
"what's the point?"
but
i am still here.
because
i promised
to be a constant
in the life
of one of my friends.
because
of everyone
i could never
leave behind.
because
of breathless moments
after breaking from a kiss.
because
of awe-spiring sunrises
i could not bear
to never see again.
because
of the smell
of warm cookies,
one of
my favorite things.
you see,
there are
too many people
too many moments
that i would miss.
so when i find
myself thinking
"what's the point?"
i remind myself of
those people
those moments.
they are
the point.
and so
i remain.
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the color orange, and other things twisted by chronic illness
Poetryone person's reflection on living with fibromyalgia