the color orange, and other things twisted by chronic illness

the tunnel

getting 

better

is

hard.

i was told

by my doctors

that

it will be 

a process.

an uphill battle.

they

were 

not

kidding.

turns out

getting better is 

exercising

with screaming muscles.

it is

reading textbooks

with a pounding headache.

it is

desensitization

with burning skin.

it is

moving through

the pain

when all 

i want to do

is give up

and rest.

it is

going to bed 

at the end 

of the day

with a body

that feels 

more broken

than usual.

but hopefully

this is

the dark

before

the light

at the end

of the tunnel.