Courage

Chapter 17. Move on

[A week later]

Jen's POV

There are three things I'm sure of:
1- I'm in love with Colin and I think I always will.
2- There is no chance that I can be with him.
3- I'm ready to move on.

In a few days I'll be back in New York, so I'll have the chance to go back to Eric. Yeah, Eric ... I don't know, we haven't talked in days, maybe he doesn't want to see me again.

Has it ever happened that you think of someone and suddenly that person appears in your life out of nowhere?

Because I thought about Eric.

And Eric called me at that moment.

My jaw dropped when my phone started ringing and I saw his name on the screen.

My heart raced.

"Hey", I said a little surprised, because I really was.

"Hey", Eric sounded a bit high-spirited. I imagined his face right then and I smiled. "Are you busy?"

I guess from the tone of my voice Eric thought I was busy, or maybe he thought I was with someone else, I don't know.

"No, no, It's just...I'm glad you're calling," I said with complete sincerity. I was with a big smile on my face.

"Well, if I had known I would have called you before."

"And... Why did not you?"

"I ... I don't know, I guess I was afraid that you would not answer my calls."

"Oh, come on! That's the idea that you've got me?"

"I suppose I'm still surprised that someone like you wants to date someone like me."

"So you're asking me for a date?"

"Yes"
I could tell that Eric was smiling at that moment.
"Miss Morrison, I'm asking if you want to go out to dinner with me."

"A dinner..."

"A special dinner," he said remarking the word 'special'.

"Yes, I would like that," I said after a few seconds of suspense. I could hear Eric sigh on the other end of the phone. He was lovely to me.

Our little but nice chat ends and I was still smiling.
Of all the men I have met, he has been the one who has captivated me since the first date.

New York is always interesting, but now it is even more interesting.

For the first time in a long time I feel that somebody is waiting there, and that he has told me that he wants to see me.

Maybe this is the way to fall in love again, to be happy.

But I can not deny that I'm scared.

I feel an inexplicable attraction for Eric, this is totally new to me.

Suddenly I felt the need to talk to someone about it. God, I had not yet dared tell Jamie, nor did I tell Rose.

I wish I had my best friends right now.

I shook my head to avoid breaking into tears at that very moment. My sensibility had increased considerably in recent days.

I think there have been many emotions this week.

I need to rest.

I even need to rest from my family. I need some time just for me.

That's it.

I'm going back to New York to see a man I really like.

I will return to my old life, without schedules or conventions, or long hours on set.

I will go out again with my friends.

I will see my family as many times as I want.

I need to find myself again.