Mission: Do Not Fall in Love [ONGOING]

Chapter 69: Slut

A short update.

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(Sandra’s POV)

“Open this door Sandra! You well know that I will break this door and I will not think twice about it!”

At sinong tinakot nia? At talagang may gana pa syang takutin ako ngaun ah? Aba eh astig ka pala eh! Lokohin mo lelang mo!

Hindi parin sya natigil sa padabog niang katok sa pintuan ko. Hahayaan ko na lang syang kumatok dyan. Hala magsawa sya! Titigil din yan pag sumakit na kamay nian. Pustahan tayo

Tumigil naman na sya sa pagsira, este pagkatok na padabog sa pinto ko. Sabi senyu eh!

“Sandra, please, let me in! I need to talk to you damn it!” ngaun sumisigaw na sya na para bang nawawalan na sya ng pasensya

Sinimulan na naman niang sirain ung pinto ko. Ano ba yan!

“Please, Sandra, I know you don’t wanna talk to me. I know that. But can you please just hear me out first?” eh loko pala ‘to eh. Alam nia palang ayaw ko syang kausapin ngaun, eh bakit pa sya nangungulit? May pagka slow din pala ‘tong taong ‘to eh

Nung hindi parin ako sumagot sakanya, narinig ko naman na parang umalis na sya at wala na ring banging sa pinto ko

Sabi sa inyo eh, hindi rin yan magtatagal. Aalis at aalis din yan. Oh eh diba tama ako? Ang galing ko lang talaga. Magsasawa rin naman pala sya eh, sana inagahan nia na lang. Hindi ung naggawa pa sya ng scene sa labas ng kwarto ko. Hassle pa un. Sayang effort. Napunta din lang naman pala saw ala. Diba?

Humiga na lang ako. Si Bambi naman eh tumigil na sa pagtahol at naglaro na nung mga toys nia, na majority eh si Flynn ang nagbigay. Iilan lang ung nabili ko sa mga laruan nia actually. Halos lahat ng gamit ni Bambi, nanggaling lahat kay Flynn

Napaisip naman ako. Nakakainis! As in naiinis ako. Ganun na lang pala sya kadali sumuko? Kung tutuusin nga sya ang puno’t dulo kung bakit kami ganito ngaun! Tapos susuko sya agad?

Walangya! Anong gusto nia, ako pa gumawa ng way para iclear lahat ng gulo na ‘to? Eh kung nagiging honest lang kasi sya sakin right from the start, edi sana walang ganito ngaun?

Nagulat naman ako at napa-upo sa kama ko ng biglang na lang nagbukas ung pinto at pumasok si Flynn

WHAT THE HELLL!

Napatingin ako sa duplicate key na hawak nia at nanlaki ang mata

NAKO MANANG MALALAGOT KA SAKIN! HOW CAN YOU BETRAY ME THIS WAY?!

“Anong ginaga-...”

Napatigil naman ako ng biglang sinara nia ung pinto at nilock un. Nakatingin lang sya sakin the whole time

O.O

Napalunok ako. Nakatayo sya sa tabi ng pintuan ko habang nakatingin lang sya sakin. Nakita ko sa mata nia uli ung dating Flynn. Ung walang emosyon. Ung hindi ko mabasa ung iniisip nia. Cold. Distant

Nilakasan ko ung loob ko. Ayokong ipakita sakanya na takot ako ngaun. At tsaka bakit ba ko matatakot? Eh sya ‘tong may nagawang kasalanan at gulo dito. Hindi ako. Dapat sya ang matakot. Hindi ako

I crossed my arms and looked away from him

“Ano bang kelangan mo?” tanong ko sakanya ng hindi nakatingin. Ayokong tumingin sa mga mata nia. Kase wala dun ung Flynn na kilala ko. Ibang Flynn sya ngaun. At ayokong makita un

“We need to talk” malamig nia na sabi sakin

“Then talk” tumingin na ko sakanya this time. I can’t believe na sya pa ang galit sakin ngaun. Ako nga dapat ang nagagalit sakanya ngaun! Ayokong umiyak. Nagpromise ako sa sarili ko na hinding-hindi na ko iiyak. Kung kelangan kong pigilan, gagawin ko

For some reason eh napapikit sya at nahilamos nia ung palad nia sa mukha nia na para bang problemado at hindi alam kung san magsisimula. I looked away from him again. Narinig ko naman na nagbuntong hininga sya

“When I went there to the salon, I assumed you and Kate were already finished for the day and we can head on and have our dinner. I was so looking forward to it. I thought it would be nice to take you to dinner and just spend some time with each other. You know how much I love being with you. Hell, if only it’s possible to be with you 24 hours a day, the better. It enlightens me, just the mere thought of it” I bit my lower lip at hindi parin tumitingin sakanya

“In the contrary of my thoughts though, when I got there, I saw Kate. Without you. She told me everything that happened back there. I couldn’t quite get my shit together. All I thought about that time was you. I’m afraid of what you’re capable of doing. Afraid of losing you”

Napatingin ako sakanya and saw mixed emotions in his eyes. Wala na ung dating Flynn. The coldness in his eyes are now gone. Lumapit naman sya sakin and knelt beside my bed and held my hands. I looked in his eyes

“Whatever you think that something’s going on between me and Sugar, then you’re thinking it wrong” hindi ako makasalita. Hahayaan ko na muna syang mag-explain this time. Hear him out

“But I can’t deny the fact that something DID HAPPEN between us. But that was before. Way before I got close to you” hindi ako makapaniwala sa sinabi nia

“What?” mahina kong tanong sakanya. Confusion in my eyes

“Sandra, before I met you, I wasn’t the man you thought I was. Who I am now is way different than who I was. Back from U.S.”

“What are you talking about?” hindi ko maprocess ung sinabi nia. Iba? Panong iba? He sighed deeply

“You see, Sugar is a fling. One of my flings back from U.S.” nanlaki ung mata ko

“One of your flings?” hindi ko makapaniwala na tanong sakanya. I thought?

“Yes. But that was it. Nothing more. Sugar was nothing to me. Maybe she assumed she was more than that, but not to me Sandra. I told her way before we started it that I have clearly no plans on getting serious with her. I thought she got where I was coming from. I thought she understood. Turns out she didn’t” he clenched his jaws. I can’t belive what I’m hearing right now

“Flynn, can you explain clearly? Hindi ko kase magets. Flings? What do you mean by that?” napapikit naman sya na para bang hirap na hirap syang bitawan ung mga susunod na sasabihin nia

“Flings, short-term. Nothing serious. Not a girlfriend material. No strings attached” lalong nanlaki ung mata ko sa huling sinabi nia

“You mean to tell me,” napalunok naman ako “You sleep with girls without having any relationship with them?” napatigil naman sya

“If you put it that way, then yes” straight-forward nia na sabi sakin

Natigilan ako. Si Flynn? Ganon before? Is this for real? Nananaginip ba ko? Totoo ba talaga ‘tong lahat na naririnig ko?

“Y-you were a slut before?”