The Indian Fan

Falling Apart

I woke up from my deep sleep when I heard someone whispering in my ears while a warm  hand stroke my hair. I shifted a bit as I change my side my head clashed softly with a hard  chest. I opened my one eye as yet I was not able to open another. I looked up and saw Harry smiling at me warmly. I jerked up as Harry frowned I saw the time in my clock as I sighed with a breath of relief. Actually I thought I had slept for very long like I usually do on a Sunday.  It was my first day at Harry's house and that was the last thing I wanted to happen. I spoke to Harry i sign language of my hands. I basically wanted to brush my teeth and then do any thing further. So guided me to the washroom and handed me a new toothbrush. 

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I was all freshen up ready to go. I wore my clothes from yesterday even though Gemma insisted on borrowing hers. But I just wanted to go home and take a shower and freshen up. Today is Sunday so It's my day to watch some Bollywood movie and enjoy a bowl of popcorn. "Bye Shanaya. We'll see you again soon." Anne said hugging me tight as I did the same. "I will miss you so much Anne. Thank you for everything." I said as I kissed her left cheek and met Gemma for 100th time and then Harry's dad and Michael. Harry opened the door of the as I settled in. I waved everyone as I left. "You had fun didn't you?" Harry asked while putting his hand on my thigh. "More than ever. I mean I love you and Your family. Thank you for such an amazing time Harry." I said putting my hand on his hand that rested on my thigh. He looked at me and gave me a genuine smile. We drove with some random song playing in the background as we further talked about our plan of visiting Holmes Chapel. Once we reached my apartment I gave Harry a quick kiss inside the car because during day time people were around and maybe paps also. I hugged him once more and kissed him twice before leaving. Honestly I would have told him stay with me all day but paps would have crowded outside my apartment plus Anne was leaving tomorrow so he had to spend time with them. Harry waited until I reached my apartment upstairs and Waved him from my window. He drove away and I was already missing him.  I looked at the notification & saw my moms message. But first i texted Harry :

TO: Mr.Styles

I Miss You Already :*

I had kind of forgotten about my Mom Dad leaving for Singapore for celebrating their anniversary. It was just a five day tour so she wanted to Skype. I decided to wish them a happy journey and talk to them before I go to take a shower. I took out my Laptop and started talking to them and time passed by. Soon when I was done I first started cleaning the house and then went to take a shower. When I came back I saw Harry's message 

FROM: Mr.Styles

Miss You More. 

Right now I was cooking while face timing with Niall. Actually it was long time I had talked to him or seen him the boys had been son busy with their individual projects that I didn't get that much time to bond with them. "Where are you?" I asked him. "I am coming to London next week." He said "And right now in L.A." he said huffing. "We'll hangout somewhere when you come here." I told him as i added the ingredients. "Of course.  Anyways break is gonna be over anytime soon." Niall said looking at me. 1 year ago I never imagined talking to my boys like this. I mean I was having every girls dream and was living it for real. "Your done?" He asked. "Yup. Look my rice and dal (pulses) is ready." I said showing him my plate. "I wanna have some Indian food cooked by you." Niall said. "Your coming right I will plan out a nice dinner for you." I told him. "Then I can't wait for coming to London." he said and I giggled. Soon Harry joined the face time and I talked to both of them while eating my lunch

When evening came I went y  the supermarket to buy a few things. I met few girls mostly a fan of Harry yet wanted a picture with me. I wonder how do they do this. At times I feel I am taking Harry's fame even though he doesn't like that word. But this is all Harry earned. But again Who doesn't like to be a attraction. My bitch side thought. Once I got home I had dinner until I started watching One of the latest Bollywood movie 'Dear Zindigi'. Everyone loves Sharukh Khan isn't it?

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Morning arrived soon as I woke ready for work. It was just beginning of July So i wore a black halter neck shirt dress with my converse shoes. My hair in bun as I picked up my sun glasses as the sun shined bright today. I reached my office in time as i started doing the daily procedures. Actually the work for few weeks is not much hectic. So we arranged things for this new upcoming concert of a local Indian band. It wasn't much hectic as they were just arranging a small concert. And with Indians London felt a bit of mine. 

It was last document I had to read before I shut down the file as I packed my bag and my phone rang and I knew it was Harry he would always call at this time to ask  whether I had left or not.

"Yes Harry I am leaving." I told him as I smiled. "Ya I'll call you." I told him as I picked my purse. "Bye Luv yaa" I told him happily as I soon left got a cab and I reached home faster and early than usual. I called Harry and started doing my daily procedures. I couldn't meet him today but anyways we started face timing  while I cooked my food as usual. "How was Work ?"he asked. "It's going on good. Wasn't much of work today so yeah it was quite lazy day." I said while taking out something from the refrigerator. I was just in my pajama shorts and a loose t-shirt with my hair in a braid and Harry said I look beautiful. But I consider the fact I do as honestly I was not tired and stressed out as I always be. I had my dinner while I watched TV and then went to sleep. 

I was far in some dream when my phone rang loud making me groan as I peeked who it was The ID said 'Rohan' my brother. I quickly answered the call as it made me curious why is he calling at this time. "Hello" I said. "HUH? No I mean..." It was Like my world was falling apart the all at once. I talked to him for few more seconds and threw me phone on my bed it was then I burst into tears loud. What happens when you loose your parents? Who gave you everything you needed in life. Who made everything easy for you and so much more. I couldn't even meet them for almost a year. So my parents were coming back from Singapore and there was a plane crash no one even knows whether their body has been found. I cried for I don't know how much time. I kept reminiscing all the good times making myself cry more. I now sat on the edge of my bed having no idea what to do I have to go to India, I have to leave tomorrow itself. I washed my face as I took out my laptop searching for tickets. None were available until tomorrow evening. I will have to leave tomorrow right I need to start packing. I had this panic like I Dumped few clothes i my bag and put the basic necessities. I reached for the drawer in the closet to count the money I had. It had been good I had been saving money to go back to India but I never this soon and for something like this. I needed few days off I had to go and ask for a 3 day leave in the office. Till date i had missed the office only twice and thrice. It had already been 1 year in London and my job was surely secured and I would be getting a promotion anytime soon. I unlocked my phone and my wallpaper reminded me of Harry. Harry.  I need to call him now. 

I dialed his number quick and steady. Three rings and he picked "Hello" his sleepy voice was enough to tell he was pissed for someone calling at this time. "Harry it's me." I said softly. "Yes what's wrong love? You sound down?" He asked as concern wrapped around his voice. That question was enough for me to break down once again. I sniffled and hiccuped. "Harry I really need you." I said. That was how vulnerable I felt no one was there except Harry in this new place for me. Though 1 year passed but when I needed someone I felt strange. "I'm Coming." He said as he hung up. I bought my knees to my chest as I cried hard. 

Few minutes passed as I heard as loud knock I knew it was Harry and for the first time i didn't even bother to check my appearance before opening the door. I just ran for  and opened it wide I looked at his eyes they had that worry in them that my dad used to have whenever I was coming home from somewhere late. That thought made me cry again as I threw myself at Harry as his hands rubbed my back, stroked my hair and kissed my temples. He closed the door behind him with his leg as he walked with me in the bedroom where he sat on the edge with me beside him. I told him everything as he paid all attention. He pulled me to his lap and spoke soothing words. "Everything will be alright" he said as he kissed my forehead. "Book the flights I'll take you to the airport tomorrow he said. I nodded silently as he still had my hand in his hand he kissed them twice. "You'll have a long day tomorrow freshen up and then sleep I'm here I won't leave you." he said while pulling my head to his chest. I got up as once again washed my face. My eyes were blood shot I walked as I saw Harry arranging the bed I stood there silently Until he motioned the place beside him for me. I laid down beside him as he supporting his head with his hand and elbow while he stroke my hair and help me fall asleep. As once again I felt light headed as sleep eloped me as did his scent.