My Love, Please Kill Me

[pt.15] The Unspoken and The Departure

‘Please forgive me for everything I left unsaid..I’d like to rectify that if I could..And if I had the chance to make you believe, for you I would erase the dark side in me..’ ~Andra and the Backbone~

Quick recap: Raphael revealed the fact that Lunalea’s a half-demon and that the demon blood in her was getting active. Mikael saw them talking and somehow felt jealous.

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Part 15

[Lunalea POV]

“Underworld?” Lord Raphael frowned. “You need to go to the underworld?” He looked at me attentively, as if trying to figure out how in the world I could come up with such a crazy idea. I didn’t tell him about Lord Uriel’s prophecy because I didn’t want to have to explain to him how I could end up in the mysterious great general’s chamber in the first place.

I nodded slowly. “Yes, My Lord..now that I know I am—half demon…” I grimaced when I stated the last part, “perhaps I can find out the truth about my past in the underworld..”

For a good five minutes he looked thoughtful, then he said slowly, “Yes, that makes sense..but are you aware of the risk? Do you know how dangerous that place is?”

I gulped. Of course I knew. “I will take the risk, My Lord.. I just can’t stay here and become.. a threat.” Either way I might get killed anyway. I hadn’t told him that I already had black-out twice, and I doubted that Lord Raphael would stay nice to me after he knew that I was seriously a threat and therefore needed to be eliminated..

“Then I will go with you.”

“No.” I said hastily, making Lord Raphael kind of startled that I declined his offer so quickly, so I added, “My Lord don’t have to..risk your life for me..” in fact, I was afraid that during the journey to the underworld I would have a black-out and try to kill him.

“Why not..?” he muttered to himself, seemed rather amused for reasons I couldn’t see. “So,” he went back to me, “What kind of help I can give you then?”

“Ah..I was hoping you could tell me..the location of the gate to the underworld..and help me with the means to get there..” red tainted my cheeks for I felt somehow ashamed.

“Yes, I can do that. When do you plan to leave?”

I thought for a moment before answering, “The sooner the better, My Lord..I think of tonight, if it’s possible..” I didn’t know how much longer I had before the demon blood’s completely active.

“I see. But are you sure about this?” he asked once again. I nodded in determination and Lord Raphael stated grimly, “Very well. You have already made up your mind. Now..how are you going to tell your husband?”

At once I remembered that Lord Mikael had told him about our marriage the previous day, and I felt awkward because I didn’t know how Lord Raphael react to that. He looked impartial, but who knew what’s in his heart, and I must admit I didn’t like the thought that I had upset him. “I..I don’t think..I can tell him..” I stuttered, referring to Lord Mikael.

“I understand..” Lord Raphael nodded with concern, “But you know then, how angry he will be if you leave him without explanation?”

I looked down and said weakly, “That is..also a risk I have to take..” My heart ached at the thought of leaving Lord Mikael. I couldn’t imagine how painful it would be for him..everyone he loved left him.. I hoped he wouldn’t think that I betrayed him.

“Lunalea..” Lord Raphael addressed me softly. I looked up and, realizing he had got up from his chair, I got up also. “I have another appointment..with the King.” He told me.