Lost in Love.

Chapter 15.

15.

I already cleared things out with Conney, it turned out well. Nothing to worry. I saved his number, he stopped texting me shitty messages but instead he's texting me on how should he change himself again. He's asking for my help though, but I told him that he'll eventually find it out by himself.

"Maggie!" I saw Julianne called me. I smiled at her. "Yow." I said saka ako lumapit sakanya. Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang akong yakapin and she keeps on whispering 'thank you' to me.

I caressed her back. "Oh bakit?" I asked her, she looked at me with a big smile flashed on her face. "Conney..Uhh." She said. Napataas ang kilay ko, not because I'm worried about what Conney did this time because Julianne won't be thanking me if it's a bad thing, right?

"Ano meron kay Conney?" Tanong ko. "Well, we started getting out." She said while biting her lower lip. Napangiti ako bigla ng malaman ko iyon. At the same time, kinakabahan. Baka kasi paglaruan lang ni Conney si Julianne, hays. I'll ask him later just to make sure.

I was about to say something when she spoke. "Oh, Did Drake sent you a message?" She asked. Doon pumasok sa isip ko. Oo nga noh, wala pa si Drake. "Oo, na hindi niya ako masusundo." I said. Umiling naman siya. Ano yun?

"Noo, na hindi siya papasok?" She asked. Nagulat ako. Wala siyang sinasabi saakin. Hindi ako nakatanggap ng text. "Hindi eh." I said. Tumango naman si Julianne. "Ah baka ako tinext kasi alam niyang madaldal ako at masasabi ko narin sayo yon." Sabi niya sabay tawa.

Natawa narin ako pero hindi, kahit pa yun ang rason. Hindi ba dapat itetext niya din ako? I shouldn't be angry dahil lang sa hindi niya ako tinext, maybe later on he'll tell me.

Umalis na si Julianne. At nagsimula na ang mga klase, ito akong maghapon na bagot pero sige dahil kailangan. Nakikinig parin ako at nagtetake ng lectures. Even though may boyfriend na ako, dapat steady parin ang focus ko sa pagaaral. Naniniwala kasi ako na hindi porket may boyfriend ka, masisira na pagaaral mo. Depende nalang sa tao yan kung sisirain ba niya. Learn to balance your life.

"Benitez." Napatingin ako sa pagtawag ng aming Values teacher saakin. Tumayo naman ako. "Yes, Ma'am?" I asked. "Is your life complicated?" Tanong ni Ma'am saakin. Agad akong umiling.

"No Ma'am. Because I do believe that life is not complicated, it's the person who makes it complicated. And also, with God. Life will never be complicated." I answered. Tumango naman si Ma'am. "How about Love? Is love complicated?" Muling tanong ni Ma'am.

"No, but I think love is complicated to those who wait." I simply answered, tumango si Ma'am. "Is having a strict parent...complicated?" Hindi strict sila Mama, kaya di ko alam isasagot ko. Bahala na.

"Yes, having a strict parents would limit you to the things you want to do. But having a strict parent doesn't mean you'll go through hell, It's just that they are the kind of parents who are afraid to lose their children and their way of keeping them is limiting them to the things they really want to do." Again, this is just my opinion. I don't even know how parents think, that's why sometimes nagpapasensya nalang ako sa mga magulang ko. I believe, kapag naging magulang na ako malalaman ko din kung ano ba talaga ang nasa isip ng isang magulang.

The day ended. Wala akong text na natanggap kay Drake. This is a bit frustrating. He is the kind of boyfriend na minu-minuto kang itetext kapag hindi kayo magkasama, napaisip ako bigla. Hindi naman kami nagaway, wala kaming pinagawayan. For sure hindi siya naubusan ng load, eh naka-postpaid yung lalaking yon eh.

As soon as I left the school, I dialed his number. Nakaupo ako sa bench sa labas ng school, I always wait for him here kapag sinasabi niyang ihahatid niya ako sa bahay. His phone is on, ringing eh. Hindi lang niya sinasagot.

I waited for 5 minutes then I dialed his number again. Baka may ginawa lang siya kanina kaya hindi niya nasagot ang tawag. Unfortunately, busy na ang number niya. Maybe may tumawag sakaniya. I sighed. I looked at my wristwatch, malapit ng mag-4. I waited another 5 minutes, then I dialed his number this time cannot be reached na.

Ganito ba talaga yung feeling kapag may mga bagay na nangyayari na hindi mo nakasanayan, tas hindi mo pa alam bakit yun nangyayari?

Nakakabaliw, swear.

All I think right now is what have I done para mangyari to. I am so clueless, I don't know what's happening. It feels like he is shutting me from his life. Kung may problema man siya, may karapatan akong malaman yon diba?

This "not-telling-me-what-is-happening" game is strong as fck. How could I help him fix the problem if I don't even know what is the problem. It's a bit unfair if he would tell me that he doesn't want to stress me or he doesn't want me to get involved that's why he chose not to tell me.

That's too selfish. He always ask me what's my problem and stuff, I always tell it to him. And this time, he has a problem I have to be there for him.