A/N So, I found out Iza-chan's voice actor in English sings a song that I could connect to a fanfic, so I decided to write one connected to it. And, after forever, got around to it.
I pulled my signature jacket tighter around myself, trying to block out the biting cold that was currently turning my snow white cheeks red.
Hot tears that were sliding down said cheeks caused the pain to grow in intensity, but I was completely numb on the outside of my body.
On the inside? I wish.
My tired feet found their way to the ocean, a secluded little beach where Shizu-chan and I had our first date.
I walked along the water's edge, coming across the small wall where we ate lunch. I sat down, admitting the full moon and recalling that day.
I had eaten half of my sandwich before calling it quits on eating and turning my attention to the blond next to me, he was looking behind him, messing with rocks and stones.
"What are you doing, Shizu-chan?" I asked.
He turned to me, a smile on his face and a stone in each hand.
"You know, there's a story about this wall."
I rolled my eyes, a small amused smile playing at my lips. "There are stories about everything, Shizuo."
"But I like this one!" He chuckled, handing me a stone. "People do this in southern America all the time!" ((Well, where the author grew up))
I sighed, taking the stone mostly to see the smile on his face.
"Okay, Shizuo, what do I do?"
"Well, you make a wish on the stone and then throw it as far as you can, the closer it is to the horizon, the more likely it'll come true!"
I sighed. "That sounds more like a silly game than a superstition, Shizu-chan."
"C'mon! Try it! It'll be fun!"
"Okay..."
I closed my eyes, feeling silly for wishing into a rock, and then throwing the stone as far as I possibly could. Which wasn't very far.
Shizuo's obviously went seemingly past the horizon though. You can't beat him at games involving strength, as he's my monster.
He wrapped his arm around me, kissing my head. "What'd you wish for, Love?"
"But if I tell, won't it not come true?"
"That's birthday candles, Love."
"Oh, well I'm not good at superstitions!"
"It's okay. What'd you wish for?"
"I uh..." My face lit up red.
"What?" He smiled, pulling me closer.
"I wished that we'll last forever," I buried my face into his shirt.
"Awww, well at least I'm not the only one of us who wished that..."
Tears filled my eyes at the memory.
I guess neither of us threw hard enough...
Because a few hours ago, he ended it. For good.
We fight more than most couples, I'd admit, but I never thought of us as 'unhappy'. That is, until Shizuo told me that we were.
"We don't know how to love," he said. I slipped off one of my dress shoes.
"We weren't in love in the first place, just confused." He may have been, but I've always known my heart was his. I slid off the other shoe.
"We aren't meant for each other." I took off a sock.
"We can't be happy together." My feet were bare, exposed to the relentless elements that were the cold. I was always happy.
"We need to go back to hate, back to what we know." Tears slid down my face.
"Oh, Shizu-chan..." I whispered to myself, "all I know, is being alone..."
And I jumped in.
A/N Gods I hope this doesn't suck as much as I think it does! Also, I put in the removal of sites because I read somewhere that in Japan is traditional to remove your shoes before committing suicide. And the stone thing was a tradition thingy my twin and I used to do when we were little, though it may have like, only been my small town. The deal was to get the rock as close to the Sun as possible to get him to grant your wishes. And it doesn't have to be with water and a wall, it could just be on a hill, or in our case, the park bathroom building. So yeah. Finally finished it!
