Midnight Lips | Ghost

𝐂𝐇. 67

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     He was ignoring me.

Ghost was ignoring and I knew damn well it was because of what I said this morning, even though all I wanted was to pretend that it wasn't. But it was, and it cut deep. I tried to say something to him just now before he walked out of the meeting room, and all he did was shake his head, brush my lips in a promise of a kiss, and then leave me standing alone. The only thing that let me know we were okay was his kiss on my lips, but everything else? It screamed, "I can't stand being near you anymore and I hope you don't notice that I don't want to see you anymore because you scared me the fuck off so now I'll just start drifting away slowly."

I bit my lip, but my head decided it was not enough, so I was back to biting my nails. I threw my head back and looked up at the ceiling, feeling my eyes sting with unshed tears of frustration. I wanted to scream too, something like, "I'm sorry, I take it back, I just thought you felt the same way. Please, stop ignoring me, it's tearing my heart apart." The ghost was literally ghosting me, can you believe that? I guess he took his name a little too far.

I cried out, a single tear fell and I quickly and harshly wiped it away. What was I going to do now?

"Are you okay?" A voice startled me in Spanish, and I jumped around. Manuel was standing at the door, my old friend. Suddenly, I really wanted to start crying right there and then and let his arms embrace me the way he used to do back in high school. But I stayed with my feet rooted to the ground.

"He is ignoring me."

"Who?"

I bit the inside of my cheek, not sure if I would be able to handle saying it. "Ghost." My voice broke and I sighed, throwing myself down onto the chair and burying my face in my arms. "I told him I was falling in love with him."

"What? I couldn't hear you."

I looked up. "This morning, I told Ghost that I was falling in love with him."

Manu's jaw fell to the ground. "What?"

I groaned out loud. "I am in no way repeating myself, Manuel."

"I-I know, I heard you, I just—wow, what the fuck? What did I miss? How did I miss that?" He was babbling now. "My God, wow."

"The thing is, he is ignoring me, and I don't know why. I tried to speak to him but he shook his head and left." I buried my face in my hands again, not handling the embarrassment that I was starting to feel. "Ghost has never done that before, he is always giving me his attention. He's had no reason to stop before unless what I told him today scared him off."

"Valentina..."

"It definitely did, right? Oh my God, how am I such an idiot?" I met his eyes and suddenly everything started spilling out of my mouth and I couldn't stop myself. It was as if a switch was turned. "Like, there was no fucking reason for me to say something like that in a place like this knowing he still hasn't changed his mind about meeting outside. I just... I felt like he did, you know? He opened up to me a lot and said he has never done anything like that before, and he is... beautiful, in every way."

Manuel was never good at judging people, he always gave everyone a chance, but right now I could feel him doubting me. "But isn't he fucked up?"