OCEAN EYES

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Long story short..

I was upset the whole weekend and i tried my best not to show it. I also refused to have dinner with them because i didn't want to see him or even sit next to him.

Let's just say i wasn't that happy because when i overthought the whole situation, i felt like William rejected me all over again. For the freaking second time

I went to meet Lee the day after. We agreed to meet at Robbin's and ordered food. We both ate while i whined about the whole thing. Lee was bit amused and shocked when i told him about me not wanting to date Brandon. I didn't know what he was expecting when he knew i liked William so much. But his facial expression changed when i told him about the kiss. He literally chocked on his own drink and spit half of it in my direction. I gave him a death glare because of what he did and he threw me an apologetic smile and mouthed 'I'm sorry'

" i feel so stupid right now. Why do you think he's doing this Lee?" i asked him, feeling a thousand times worse than before.

" I don't know. Maybe he's afraid"

His answer didn't make any sense so i just stared at him for a moment. I'm pretty sure my face did the whole job for me because he kept talking

" I'm just saying. Plus i was terrified when i wanted to ask Kim-Mina out, let alone the terror i felt before telling her that i liked her in non-friendly way... The thing is people tend to be afraid when they have strong feelings for another person"

Afraid...

Was he really afraid? I didn't know. I did want to know for the first time in a while. I thought about it for a second. I didn't know William good enough to know whether it was true or not. But i knew that he was cold and the kiss he gave me the night before was everything but cold. It had every kind of emotions and feelings in it. The hug he gave me after that held some sort of fear i must say. He hugged me like it was the last hug ever

Me and Lee finished our evening with face timing his girlfriend. I was slightly surprised by the fact that she called him that time. Because of the time difference, he said that they rarely get to talk and video chat with each other, and to my surprise she happened to call him when we were still at Robbin's.

Lee asked her why was she awake so early and she told him that she was heading with her family to some place or at least that what i understood because eighty percent of what she was saying was in Japanese. She used words in English i got the chance to catch. I spoke with her a little, her broken English mixed with few Japanese words that Lee had explained was the cutest thing ever.

All i could think of after the call was over was how Lee liked that girl. I mean i could see it in his eyes. I had so many questions on my mind. Sure I've never been in a relationship before, but i knew that they weren't an easy thing to keep. They required so many things. They required trust and respect so i can't imagine how he's dealing with the whole long distance relationship or how they're both feeling

I bet they miss each other

Lee headed back to his house after receiving a text from his sister saying that his mom and dad wanted them all to have dinner together. Even though we both had eaten, he said that he had to go and be there just in case they wanted to say something. I on the other hand went to the graveyard to see Tyler. Sure he wasn't exactly there, but that doesn't necessarily means that he wouldn't listen to me

Sometimes i just wish he was still here so he could punch William in his pretty face. But i also think about doing it myself

I stopped by the old Italian florist and picked up some lilies for my brother - and a rose for William's mom. Even though i wasn't sure if she was really his mom, yet i decided to visit her anyway. I'm sure she'd be happy when people visit her even if she's not his mom. I said my goodbyes to the nice lady and walked to meet my brother.