Survivor

Chapter 10 : Pills and Potions

August p.o.v

I caught a ride home with Usher and Jordan and started looking for Nicki. I looked all around the house, down the streets and i was about to call the cops b/c that's my baybeh and if she get hurt it's in my hands. Dialing the number i was interrupted by a text from Karruche.

Go fix whateva u messed up lil boy she at the studio and u didn hear it from me. GN!!!! :-)~6:45 p.m

I replied: Thanks soooo much i was worried. GN!!!!~ 6:50 p.m.

Instead of callin the po po i called a cab and rushed to the studio hoping she'll hear me out. Once i got there i walked into the recording room listening to her rap.

" Pills and Potions were overdosing
im angry but i still love you.
Pills and Potions were overdosing
can't stand it but i still love you.

(I still love)x20

They could never make me hate you
Even tho what you was doing wasn't tasteful
Even tho you out there looking so ungrateful
Imma keep it moving being classy and graceful
I told you theirs no friends in the game
You ain't learn that yet
All the bitches that came ova ain't burn that yet
Niggas want respect but ain't earn that yet
self righteous and entitled but they're swearing on the Bible
That they love you when really they're no different from all your rivals,
but i still don't wish death on them
I just reflect on them
Pills and Potions were overdosing
Im angry but i still love you
Pills and Potions were overdosing
can't stand it but i still love you
I still love x20
People will love you and support you when its beneficial
Imma forgive i won't forget, but imma dead the issue
Soon as you out the niggas lives is when they start to miss you
They see you doin good now its kinda hard to diss you
Niggas be sick when they remember all the bad they wished you
Niggas be mad cuz they can't come and live lavish with you
But i sped off in a Benzy
I the envy when im causing a frenzy
So i pop pills for them
Cop cribs in the hills on em.
Pills and Potions were overdosing
Im angry but i still love you
Pills and Potions were overdosing
Can't stand it but i still love you.

I still love x20

I get high off your memory x3

In due time we'll be fine x2

I still love x20"

I was crying my heart out i didn't know she saw me that way a careless, ungrateful, son of a bitch who she just so happens to love but i don't see it.She walked out the booth, burned out her cigarette and cried on the couch which made me feel even worse. I quietly walked ova to the couch sitting down pulling her on my lap while she started to calm down in my arms.

"Why would you do this to me Alsina" she said grabbing my shirt making me look in her red puffy eyes.

" Im sorry i wasn't trying to hurt u and it wasn't even my fault. I got a txt saying go behind the nearest tent so i did and was pulled into a kiss. I didn't even know who it was until u threaten to break ha" i explained chuckling on the last part.

She chuckled in ma chest, " Baby im not mad im just disappointed"

"Come hea baby girl imma make ya feel betta" i said picking her up driving us home in my car.

*After 4 hours*

We just finished making love and Nicki went straight to sleep. I dozed off knowing that this isn't the end of this.