your blood through my veins - vinnie hacker

seven

no one every really told me about how bad the back pain would be, or how much my body would feel weird in certain places. and it'd only been 3 weeks, i dont really see a bump, i look like i ate a bit, but i could wear crop tops, i could do everything i wanted to do. i couldn't drink or anything but that was fine.

i was reading maternity books trying to get to know my body. i told my best friend of course, but she knew since and hour before i found out. my small friend group knew, i hadn't been in much contact with vinnie. small conversations of him asking how i was feeling or if i needed anything. i always responded dry, he texted me that in a week we had out first trimester check up but honestly, does he even wanna be there?

"hi momma!" smiled elisa opening my apartment door, no question even asked. "so when are we going apartment hunting?"

elisa had been my best friend since i could ever remember. we grew up and out together, she was with me in every moment. she was my blood at this point. i didn't know much about family but i had an amazing friend group.

"apartment? im thinking house! nothing huge. but a little house, with a cute backyard, gated community maybe?" explained johnny coming in. i knew him since i was in highschool, there was a lot a platonic friendships in our group. him and vinnie became great friends, almost best friends, but he knew i didn't want him to talk to be about vinnie.

"im not opposed." i shrugged. "i kind of like the idea of a house. i mean i am going to be raising a whole life there. two, max 3 bedrooms are enough. my room, a nursery, and a guest room. i want enough room for a nice backyard. i want a clean house. i want my house to be my home, and soon my daughter or sons home too."

"perfect! i know where we can look." said elisa.

we looked at multiple houses, some bigger than others. but there was one house that caught my eye. it was a white exterior with wood accents, kind of looked a little spanish or greek styled, and some flowers growing on the side. this had to be the one. i loved everything about it, i just knew i needed it.

i got home tonight to start filling out the papers. i wasnt gonna rent it i wanted to buy the house. i didn't mind paying the money, most of it was money i had saved up from when my parents owed child support or a government checks. plus, a house is an investment. i had a lot of money put aside just for when i decided to actually put my home-needs first. plus, social media was making great money and modeling gigs paid even better. sadly though, i dont know how many of those modeling gigs ill be getting again.

i already see changes in my body, i feel like i'm definitely looking like a bit bloated, like I could wear a tight dress and no one would assume im pregnant but wouldn't be surprised either. if i ate a big meal, i'd definitely look pregnant.

***

how does my body change so much in a week? suddenly i do have a slight baby bump, even more when i eat a big meal? certain foods i love are now foods i hate. the perfume i used to wear from time to time is now poison, it's disgusting. happily, the doctor's appointment wasn't in the am, it was at 2 pm.

vinnie hacker
omw

me
wdym
i thought i was going alone

vinnie hacker
nope
ill be there
hungry?

me
maybe

vinnie hacker
what are your cravings rn?

me
anything with raspberries
no smoothie

vinnie hacker
what about like a smoothie bowl

me
no the texture is nasty
i'll make myself something dw

vinnie hacker
no i want my girl eating good

me
i dont fall in the category of your girl hacker

vinnie hacker
im talking about my daughter inside you

me
i dont think its a girl

vinnie hacker
ik its a girl

me
whatever
get here soon

vinnie hacker
5 mins away sweetheart

i rolled my eyes, i was going down the stairs and realized i made the stupid mistake of wearing a dress. i wore a loose dress because i didn't like the bump enough, it didn't look like cute yet.

"hey mama." he laughed. is he just gonna act like nothing happened?

"hi." i said putting on my seat belt.

"here." he handed me a raspberry lemonade. lord knows how he got this, this lemonade is from a city 40 minutes out of la.

"thank you." i nodded, he knew how much i loved this.

"im sorry you know? i want to be part of this. im ready isa." he said putting the music down as he drove. "i love you, even if things weren't the way we thought they would be, i love you and i love the life inside you. ill do whatever it is for you two, youre family."

"thank you vin." it made me relieved. not because of me, because of the kid inside me, the fact that it was safe and would have a dad made me happy.

"you're glowing." he said peeping at me for a second. "like babygirl is making you glow,"

"its definitely a boy, i feel it."

"a boy? i dont care what it is as long as it's healthy. if hes a boy he better come out being 6'4 and ready." we both laughed at his comment.  maybe now wasn't a time to talk about it, it was a big day for us.

why wouldn't we do a gender reveal? his family doesnt know, neither do a good amount of our followers. ive seen twitter, and somehow its a rumor that were back together waiting for a baby.

"how are the cramps? back pain?"

"horrible." i groaned. "its like in my spine too."

"aww honey ill send you a good lotion for that, it'll numb the pain." she smiled at us. "look at this healthy baby."

i couldn't help but always feel so complete anytime i saw the growing ultra sound.

"do you wanna hear the heartbeat?" asked the doctor.

"s-sure." said vinnie, i looked over at him. he did look nervous. i pulled my phone out to record his reaction to it, it was a special moment.

the thumping noise began and his eyes lit up, a smile grew on his face. he looked amazed. i knew the feeling. it was one of a kind.

"vinnie, are you crying?" i laughed looking at his face.

"im so in love." he smiled and wiped his eyes. "im sorry, that was so—wow."

"no sorries." i laughed.

"your baby girl has a beautiful heartbeat." smiled the doctor