And Then I changed.

Tris

I sit in my hospital bed, my feet dangling off the bed and my phone in hand, silent tears run down my cheek as Caleb is fast asleep in the chair beside my bed. My head is spinning. He cheated on me, but there is that small voice inside my head hat tells me that we had broken up, the problem is that I can´t remember our breakup. I can´t remember anything since that party at Uriah and Zeke´s. some moments flash across my eyes sometimes but never long enough for me to actually remember where they come from. I´m just sure about one thing, we will never be together again. He has Nita now, he is happy and that’s has always been what I wanted most for him, no matter how hard this is for me, I will never do anything to harm his new relationship, even if he should be with me. I see movements in the chair and then Caleb is standing in front of me

“Bea, what´s wrong?” he asked me

“Four…” I sniffle and he nods his head

“I know” he tells me

“He slept with Nita..” I whisper as Caleb sits down on the bed beside me

“How do you know?” Caleb asked, anger clear

“He called me…”

“Don´t bother about him…”

“I´m not bothering about him, he is happy and I´m glad for him, it´s just that…”

“Just what?”

“Why can´t I remember breaking up with him, Caleb? Why can´t I remember anything from that night at the party?” Caleb sighed and looked away

“You know something I don´t… spill it” I said harsly

“Father is going to kill me…”

“I will protect you big brother” I said in a baby voice and Caleb smiled towards me

“Bea, you were raped, that night of the party some guys at the school raped you and some week after that you left and was gone for five months, Four and the gang found you at a party and brought you back… you weren´t home a day before you left again and wasn’t brought back before the police got a call about you being  at some hospital in a coma…” Caleb told me. Coma? Raped? By who?

“W-who…?” I asked as more tears fell down my eyes

“We don´t know”

“Oh…” I said as I tried to pull me together before I fell apart totally. Caleb hugged me and whispered soothingly words at me but neither did work, I was a mess, the door suddenly open and a nurse was standing there with a sympathic smile on her voice

“I was just going to check on you, but I see you brother is here… do you need anything?” she asked me and I shook my head as a no as more tears flooded out my eyes

“Okay then” she said and smiled

“Wait!” I called out

“Yes dear?”

“Can you call Four and ask him to be here?”

“No, sorry dear, it´s three in the morning, no visitors aloud”

“Oh… But I need him” I said as I felt a little bit more of myself break. Suddenly everything came back at me at once, all the memory’s, all the faces, the parties, Eric, the night of the rape and all the drugs, the dirty hotel. I screamed as I fell down on the floor and hit my head really hard, I could here y brother scream my name and the nurse calling for back up. darkness was dancing infront of me and I welcomed it happily.