And Then I changed.

Four

We went back to my house, my father is away at a work business so it´s just me home. We walk up to my room and sits down on my bed in silence

“Are you going to break up with me now?” Nikita broke the silence with the question, catching me completely off guard.

“No, why would I?” I asked her as I stroked her cheek with my hand, remembering every time I did exactly like this to Tris

“Cuz Tris is back”

“So?”

“You guys were always so happy… I thought… maybe you still loved her” Nita said

“Yeah… well she broke up with me and I wouldn’t leave you just like that” I said. It was a lie. I would leave her if it meant me and Tris had a chance. But I didn’t know if we had that for sure, me and Nita was good.

She turned to me and kissed me softly on my lips. My hands found her hips and I straddled her in my lap while I kissed her neck. It felt wrong, like I was cheating but I knew I wasn’t the one who had done it. The kisses were more passionately and our clothes was spread across the room and just like that it was over and we lay breathless on my bed that was a mess. It was late so Nita fell asleep immediately. I walked up, got dressed in my pajamas pants and a T-shirt and walked out at the balcony from my father’s study, I sat down in some tree chair and pulled my phone up. 23.46 In the evening. I dialed Tris number and I heard it ring, one time, two time, three time and then she picked up

“Tobias?” she asked. Worried and sadness clear in her voice. I loved hear my name on her lips again, it had been so long I didn´t even get to hear her voice at all

“Hi Tris”

“Are you alright?” she asked

“No…”

“What happened?”

“I did a bad thing… a really bad thing”

“What did you do?”

“I slept with Nita…” I confessed and I heard how she went silent. Oh boy… she will hate me

“oh” she finally said and the phone call ended. I sat there with the phone at my ear and was just hoping to hear her voice there again. When I realized it wasn’t going to happened I walked back to my room and fell asleep, with only one thought in head. Why did I sleep with Nita? Sure I like her, but I don´t love her like Tris.