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Even angels have their wicked
schemes but you take that to new extremes

Even angels have their wicked schemes but you take that to new extremes

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Three years ago

I remembered the first time that I lost my virginity as if it happened just yesterday. Back then it was something that I believed to be beautiful and something that I cherished.

How naive and pathetic I use to be

I was only fourteen at the time when my mom dropped the exciting news that she was taking me to a carnival.

It was my very first one to attend so of course I was ecstatic. I also remembered thinking that it was only going to be the two of us until she decided to bring along her boyfriend.

She had been dating James for a couple of months and I could tell that truly cared for him. If only she could've opened her eyes to what was happening right in front of her. He didn't feel the same for her, maybe he did in the beginning but I couldn't say that it stayed that way.

And it was all because of me. All the late night rendezvous things we did. He would kiss my mother goodnight only to escape to me in the shadows.

How could I not remember any of those things that happened to me?

How could I not remember him standing beside my window telling how much of a good girl I was for wearing the lingere that he bought me?

How could I not remember the way he drew circles into my thighs making me feel this unexplainable desire?

He made me feel like I was someone, a woman.

Having relations with a twenty-seven year old man was every teenage girls dream. It wasn't about his age or the fact that he was my mother's boyfriend. It was about how he made me feel at the end of the day no matter what anyone said.

That was something that I told myself constantly during our affair.

It happened so fast my mother left to use the bathroom which had a long line, leaving James and I together. It was almost like the universe allowed this to happen or maybe he actually did plan it.

I was going to tell him how much I loved him and how sorry I was for catching feelings for him. It was never apart of our agreement and yet still I fell for him anyway. He brought a single finger to my lip shushing me before I could even confess my feelings for him.

He grabbed my hand leading me into an abandon barn that was full of haystacks. I looked around suspicious and scared at first until the lights drew me in. There were lights all around hanging from the top. I could feel the rose petals crush underneath my feet as he lead me to the bed in the middle.

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