[disclaimer] this is only a reflection of how i feel and what i am struggling with. TRIGGER WARNINGS sh ed: an*rexia, b*limia, binge eating depression s*icidal thoughts/actions? they say being an idol is the easiest thing. they never notice the magazines full of underweight men and women, they never notice the eyebags under our eyes nor see us collapsing backstage. little did felix know, this was only the start of everything going downhill.