Why him? Why can't I just get him out of my head instead of constantly thinking about what could have happened when society wouldn't be fucked. If he didn't care so much about what other people could think about him or that this"isn't supposed to happen". I know it's not and still I want him and not some random girl, but he doesn't understand that, and he would never even think about giving me a chance, because he is afraid of what the people would think about him. Okay I'm honest, I can't really blame him, his parents are really homophobic, and he needs them on his side at least until war's over, but he wouldn't even think about giving me.. no us a chance. He liked it, he liked the kisses, I know it, we've been friends for forever, he can't lie to me....