"Yoongi."
Mm?
"Yoongi Oppa."
Yoongi's eyes bolted open as his body jolted awake. Just a quiet studio, void of any sounds,
Void of Hana.
He sighed deeply and pulled himself up from the couch. It was uncomfortable and made his back and neck ache as re rubbed the soreness of it.
Yoongi had stayed in his studio since. None of the members or staff or anyone were allowed in. He'd occasionally leave to collect food he ordered but he was never hungry anymore. Though Yoongi drank.
He had bottles of unopened and opened wine bottles at the ready, he knew he couldn't write songs when he drank but he tried anyway but it made him more frustrated. It was the only way he was able to get her out of his head.
"Fuck.." he rubbed his pounding forehead, his elbows rested on his knees as he sat forward in his seat. A hangover evident. He tried to stray away from as much sleep as he could because she was always there haunting his dreams.
However last night, was the first night she ever called his name like how she used to. His dreams warped the reality of his memories, he dreamed she hated him for not saving her, he dreamed about the times they shared were only a mistake and it tore him apart.
He hated that he loved her.
He groggily got up, god knows what time it was out there, he didn't care. Slumping back into his studio chair he swiveled back to his desk and computer. There were piles and piles of papers, crumpled and new, numerous broken pens and pencils. Yoongi's life was a mess.
He looked at everything overall, and clicked his tongue. He couldn't work like this, so he started to clean up a little; binning all the empty bottles, crumpled paper and empty take out boxes but while doing so he knocked over his mug of cold unfinished coffee.
"Shit!—" he frantically looked for tissues to wipe it before it came in contact with his expensive equipment but in the process he opened something on his computer accidentally while he wiped the keyboard clean.
The familiar chords of a piano played, he froze. He had forgotten he played and recorded this. He included their verses and while listening his eyes teared up, shaking his head in disbelief.
They had composed this song two years back but it was as if it was made just for her. The lyrics alone, captured all their thoughts and emotions of how they felt right now, it was uncanny and unreal.
He keeled forward, and cried, cried like he did on that day, cried like he did during the funeral. The heart wrenching sobs echoed in his room while the song continued.
He will never see Spring day the same again.
( Alright you have to play Spring Day here. You have no choice )
[Verse 1: RM, J-Hope]
Miss you
Saying this makes me miss you even more
Miss you
Even though I'm looking at your photo
Time's so cruel, I hate us
Seeing each other for once is now so hard between us
[Verse 2: RM]
It's all winter here, even in August
My heart is running on the time
Alone on the Snowpiercer
Wanna get to the other side of the earth, holding your hand
Wanna put an end to this winter
How much longing should we see snowing down
To have the days of spring, Friend
[Verse 3: Jimin, V]
Like the tiny dust, tiny dust floating in the air
Will I get to you a little faster
If I was the snow in the air
[Pre-Chorus 1: Jungkook, V]
Snowflakes fall down
And get farther away little by little
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How long do I have to wait
And how many sleepless nights do I have to spend
To see you (to see you)
To meet you (to meet you)
[Chorus: Jungkook, Jin, J-Hope]
Passing by the edge of the cold winter
Until the days of spring
Until the days of flower blossoms
Please stay, please stay there a little longer
[Verse 4: Suga, Jimin]
Is it you who changed (Is it you who changed)
Or is it me (Or is it me)
I hate this moment, this time flowing by
We are changed you know
Just like everyone you know
[Verse 5: Suga, Jimin]
Yes I hate you, you left me
But I never stopped thinking about you, not even a day
Honestly I miss you, but I'll erase you
'Cause it hurts less than to blame you
[Verse 6: Jin, Jimin]
I try to exhale you in pain
Like smoke, like white smoke
I say that I'll erase you
But I can't really let you go yet
[Pre-Chorus 1: Jungkook, V]
Snowflakes fall down
And get farther away little by little
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How long do I have to wait
And how many sleepless nights do I have to spend
To see you (to see you)
To meet you (to meet you)
[Bridge: V, Jungkook]
You know it all
You're my best friend
The morning will come again
No darkness, no season is eternal
[Pre-Chorus 2: Jimin, Jungkook, V]
Maybe it's cherry blossoms
And this winter will be over
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
Wait a little bit, just a few more nights
I'll be there to see you (I'll go there to meet you)
I'll come for you (I'll come for you)
[Chorus: Jungkook, J-Hope, Jin ]
Passing by the edge of the cold winter
Until the days of spring
Until the days of flower blossoms
Please stay, please stay there a little longer
Yoongi exhaled a deep breath once the song ended, wiping the tears from his eyes, he finally left the room.
—
"I love you Yoongi"
"I love all of you."