"In order to do the unthinkable, do not think about it."
un·think·a·ble
/ˌənˈTHiNGkəb(ə)l/
adjective
(of a situation or event) too unlikely or undesirable to be considered a possibility.
Jaleesa POV
Jasmine Home|January 15th 2017|
"Honestly Jasmine I don't think we will ever have the bond we used to have."I say as I took a scoop of cookies and cream ice cream out of the container
"That's your sister. I'm pretty sure she will come around eventually. But how would you feel if she went out, and got with Jersey?
"I would be pissed, and honestly hurt!"I say as my face frowned and I slammed the spoon "because that means she-"
"Wanted to be with him the whole time while y'all were together. Jaleesa I'm gonna be honest with you because you're my best friend. You always think about Jaleesa, and not others around you.What makes you think this man will treat you any better. You saw how he did Monica!"
"I'm not Monica!"
"That's the problem there! You will not admit your jealousy towards your little sister. For what I don't know! If anything I saw how she admired you. When you both were going through the rough time with your parents she went to you for comfort. Because she felt safe with you. It's not right she lost her connection with her brother, but her sister too? You have to do better Leesa." Jasmine says to me as I deeply sighed
"Okay I'll admit it. I'm jealous. My little sister is doing the damn thing. She has used her talents and made them into something big. Meanwhile I'm stuck on what I really want to do in life."
"Have you not seen what you can do? You're an amazing hairstylist, and makeup artist. If you stop focusing on your sister blessings then maybe you can see you have a blessing waiting for you in your face. Monica,Lucas, and you all have different things that was meant for you all." Jasmine says as she grabbed my face "Take that jealousy, and put it into some action. Hold yourself accountable when you know you're wrong. We're not children anymore!"
"So what should I do first?" I asked as I wiped a single tear
"First start by finding a school that's for cosmetology, or provides it."
"You know Dallas does not want me going to school."
"Girl fuck Houston,Austin,San Antonio, Dallas whatever his name is. I'm sorry when did we let niggas start controlling our lives? This is not you Leesa!"
Buzz buzz
Hubs💕
You need to come home. You been out to long. And pick me some food up while you're out.
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"Leesa...you have to start making better choices in life. Hating on others success will not allow your blessings to come in. Do you hear me?" Jasmine says and I nodded
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Jaleesa and Dallas Home | 4:23 P.M
"Baby I'm home." I say as I walked into Dallas and I home
"Bruh come on! Why would you let him take the ball from you!" I heard him yelling to one of his friends while playing 2k17
"Hey baby." I say as I walked into where he was and tried giving him a kiss
"Not now Lessa I'm trying to focus." He says as he moved his face from me and continued to play the game
"Oh...okay. Your food is on the counter." I say as I walked away to my office
When I entered I sat down at my desk and turned my computer on so I can start looking for schools
"Okay Industry of Makeup got some good reviews. Let's see some of their work." I say to myself as I started going through some pictures clients or students themselves have posted
"Okay most definitely writing that one down." I say I wrote Industry of Makeup down
"Okay next one. This one provides all of them." I say to myself as I wrote that one down as well "but the reviews aren't good."
"Baby what are you doing? I've been calling you for the past 10 minutes." Dallas says as he walked over to where I was and looked at my screen
"Jaleesa what are you doing looking up schools for? I told you if you with me you're not doing that shit!" He says with an upset face
"Dallas I want to do something in life! I'm not gonna sit around the house all day doing nothing. I have skills for this and I don't want them to go waste!" I say as I raised my voice
"You better lower your fucking tone, and watch who you talking to! You're not going to school and it's as simple as that. When I got with you I told you I'm gonna take care of you. I don't like that independent shit."
"And it plenty of shit to do around here. Cook,clean or something!"
"Dallas that gets boring after awhile! I wanna do something that excites me. And sitting around the house doesn't. You don't have to accept it but at least be supportive baby."
"I already told you. I can take care of you. Fuck a dream or fantasy you trying to bring to life." He says while making a disgusting face
"Fuck you Dallas I'm grown and do what the fuck I wanna do. If this is something that I know is gonna better me in life then I'm gonna do it." I say as I continued to look up schools
"Oh really? Try looking some up after this." He says as he grabbed my computer and threw it against the wall and it shattered
"Have you lost your fucking Dallas!" I say as tears begin to form in my eyes
"You're fucking right I have! You feel like you always wanna do what Jaleesa wanna do. You always wanna do shit and not run it by me. I'm gonna have to you show better than I can tell you bitch!" He says as he balled up his fist and walked up on me
"You what Dallas I think it's best I leave for tonight because I just need to be alone right now." I say as I tried to walk past him but he grabbed me by my arm
"So now you wanna leave me?! Is that what you wanna do? You must not know. To leave me you have two choices. You leave in a body bag or I'll make sure that every job you try to get you won't be able to because of the power I hold."he says as his gripped tighten on my arm and he looked me in the eyes "Now what will you choose?"
"Neither." I say in a whisper and looking down
"Speak the fuck up!"he says as I jumped a little
"Neither."
"That a girl. Now go get the broom and clean this shit up!"
"Oh and Jaleesa if I ever hear you talk about some school shit again it's not gonna be pretty." He says as he walked out
Yeah that's him. Abusive and manipulative. Believe it or not I've tried to leave so many times I promise. But I know Dallas. What he says he will do....he will do it. My first attempt was after Monica caught us together in Miami, and that's when he said what we had between us was nothing
Summer 2016|Miami,Florida|Dallas and Jaleesa rental beach home
"So it's not like that huh!? Dallas are you serious? When you know there has been something going on between us for months!" I say in an upset tone as we entered into our rental home
"What Jaleesa?! What do you want me to say? Monica the truth is your sister and I have been messing around for 3 years now. And the love we have for one another is stronger than we thought!" He says as he raised his voice and threw his hands hands up
"That's exactly what you say Dallas! Be honest tell the truth! Hell she already caught us why not just tell the truth!" I yell as I rolled my eyes
"I didn't want to hurt her again Jaleesa! You saw the hurt look she had on her face. You're a bitter and selfish bitch that's why you wanted her to know so bad so that could be something you throw in her face."
"A bittter and selfish bitch Dallas? I would never do something to hurt my sister then brag about to her face. Yeah I know this takes the icing off the cake but to do this to her and then brag about it! Tuh you can kiss my ass and go to hell."
"You're dumber than I thought. You don't think you bragged about how we're getting married? When that's the biggest thing she wanted between us and I denied that and all of a sudden I'm getting married but to her sister!?"
"You're right....maybe we shouldn't get married. Actually we should just end this Dallas. I wish you well in life." I say as I made my way into our bedroom and pulled out my suitcase and started to pack
"Jaleesa put your ring back on I'm not playing with you." He says as he stood in the door frame holding the ring with one hand and the other rubbing across his forehead
I ignored him and continued to pack my things. As soon as I was about to zip my bag I felt a rough tug on my hair and my body flew to the ground causing my head to bump into the wall
"Baby I'm sorry. I didn't mean it." He says as he tried to touch me but I moved away from him
"It's just you know I love you Leesa! I'll be damned if I let you walk out of my life. We have shared so many good times together and you make happy. You give me reasons to wake up in the morning, and go and do something good with my life."
"Baby I promise I never hit a woman before! I was just mad that's all I promise I won't do it again. Please forgive me I'm sorry! Please just put the ring back on." He says as got down beside me and wrapped one arm around my waist and put his forehead against mines
I was so scared that I was shaking. When I put my hand out for him to put the ring back on I was still shaking. I was so happy when I finally got him. Happy that the man I love is finally with the woman he truly loves. But I guess what people say is true. The grass is not always greener on the other side. No matter how many times I cut it, or try to maintain it. Something about the grass it's just not always gonna be greener
Unthinkable (Remix)by Alicia Keys feat Drake plays
Ugh, Tez keeps telling me he just turned 30
Having dreams of being single forever he's getting worried
And I'm scared too because I'm in the same boat
Good women are rare too, none of them have come close
Me I have'nt changed much, you know how I play
Better safe than sorry
Instead of searching for substance at every single party
Baby being part of this life
I feel like I'm bound to end up with somebody
That's been with everybody
I need you to rescue me from my destiny
I'm trying to live right and give you whatever's left of me
Cause you know life is what we make it and a
Chance is like a picture, it'd be nice if you just take it.
Or let me take it for ya I'm just down to ride
Or we can roll around the city until we finally decide
I got more than a thing for you, tattoo and ink for you
Right over my heart girl I do the unthinkable
As I listened to Drake's verse one part caught my attention. He says "I feel like I'm bound end up with somebody who's been with everybody."
Is that true for me ? I'm with someone who has been with almost everybody. I feel he has put all his love and energy into Monica. The one woman he truly loves. No matter how many times he tells me he was drunk and he didn't mean what he said at the New Year's Eve party. In my heart I know what he said was true. Which is why he can't love like I want him to.
Moment of honesty
Someone's gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now
(Drake: You should say it right now)
You ready?
You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
(Drake: I deserve it, I think it deserve it.Let it go)
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore
And I can't take it
(Drake: I can't take it)
I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready
(I'm ready, I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
(I'm ready, I'm ready)
I've did the unthinkable to get this man. And once I got him I realize he's not all that to hold onto, but if I could leave I would. It's just I'm scared. Sometimes I think did he ever to this Mo if so how was she able to leave, or was this one of the reasons she couldn't leave him for years."
But if someone were to ask me if I was ready to leave him I would say
I'm ready.
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Hey y'all sorry for the long wait.This chapter is short and I'm sorry it's just a little something to hold y'all until I get my next chapter ready. Thank you all for reading.
Also I apologize because this chapter is a little wonky. Like, and Comment ily <3