worried.
We must go through phases of emptiness to feel full again.
College was a bit messy and exciting for me, katulad ngayon.
I'm currently reviewing for my aerodynamics sub for tomorrow.
Since graduating na ako sa course na pinili ko, Bachelor of Science in Aviation Technology Major in Flying sa IAU mas pursigido akong makatapos kahit pa madalas ay na h'homesick pa din ako.
Malayo ako sa pamilya ko, malayo kay Zeki, malayo kay Rebecca, literal na walang malalapitan.
I have my Tita in Talisay City and Mandaue pero mahirap pa rin. But, this decision taught me how to become independent and taught me how to love myself even more.
Yes, sa Cebu ako nag-aaral.
Pabalik-balik din ako ng Maguin every weekend.
Katulad nalang this weekend, uuwi ako for the runway of Tita liselle's newest collection. Hassle siya oo, pero gusto ko.
Isa sa dahilan ang runway na ito kung bakit panay ang uwi ko sa Maguin lately.
Si Rebecca naman nasa Maguin pa din.
She's pursuing her dream to become a Primary Teacher and I'm happy for her chosen profession. Nag kakamustahan naman din kami most of the time and like Zeki, binibisita niya rin ako minsan.
After she signed the contract years ago, sunod-sunod na photoshoots and runways ang ibinigay sa kanya.
Even now and then, I've witnessed how she got used to it and I'm more than proud of what she have become.
I sacrifice the time that I should have with my family to pursue my dream.
Success is the product of sacrifice and that's what I'm doing. Zeki stayed in Maguin too, to pursue his dream.
He's been very supportive of me. He calls me like every hour to check if I'm fine. Sometimes he'll visit me here and we also facetime every night depende yun kung hindi ako pagod masyado sa training.
He took Bachelor of Science in Real Estate Management.
He told me na balak niya na tulungan si kuya Kenzo sa negosyo, sa tracking business ng parents ko and sa airline company nila Papalo.
Mom OF COURSE did not agree with my choosen course. Like the usual. but still, that didn't stop me.
I pursue it with the help of my Daddy and Zeki, kuya Kenzo and Papalo too.
I remember during the summer where I learn how to fly a Cessna 172.
I was so passionate and determined about it that it didn't took an hour for me to learn how to fly it myself and I thank God for that.
I want to fly. I want to become a Pilot ever since I was a kid, no one can change that.
I was a model and still 'am.
Pareho ko silang gusto and If one day I'll be in a situation where I have to choose which among the two? I'd choose flying.
Zeki Santiago would like FaceTime...
I smile at the camera when I saw my twin's name on my phone screen.
"Hey lover boy!" Ngumiti ako sa camera habang nagsasalita pero agad ding nawala ng makita ko ang putok niyang labi.
"ANONG NANGYARI DYAN SA FACE MO?!" Iniwan ko ang study table para makausap siya ng maayos.
"Nothing, may nakaaway lang," he's inside our room and I'm sure of that.
I can't help but to get worried!
"ZEKIELL SANTIAGO AYUSIN MO YANG SAGOT MO KUNG AYAW MONG UMUWI AKO DYAN BUKAS!" He chuckle.
Mas lalo lang nag init ang ulo ko. The last time he got into such trouble was when we were 15, matagal na!
T'was when I went to my friend's party without asking permission from him.
I was a bit drunk back then and when he got there to fetch me, he saw a stranger who attempt to kiss me. Zeki punch him directly on the face!
"Okay, alright, chill Penny! I got into a fight earlier with Jeff. because he tried to get close to Becca," napakunot ang noo ko dahil hindi ko naman narinig ang huling sinabi niya.
"Say it again?" Umiling lang siya kaya mas lalo akong napasimangot.
"Who the hell is that Jeff?" I never heard of that name before.
"Ang pinaka panget na kaklase ni Rebecca."
I was silent for a couple of seconds.
I burst out laughing when I finally found out the reason why he got into a fight!
"Siraulo ka!" Dagdag ko habang patuloy na tumatawa.
"I thought you don't like Rebecca?" I tease.
"Oo nga! Ayoko sa kanya," siya naman ngayon ang napasimangot.
"Oo nga naman, ayaw mo nga naman talaga don sa Rebecca ko. Okay, what do you think about them then? Hmm, bagay ba sila ng Jeff na yon? Transferee ba? Is he pogi? Is he h-"
"PENELOPE ELLAINE SANTIAGO!" Mas lalo akong tumawa ng malakas habang nakikita kung gaano na siya kapikon sa screen ng phone ko.
"Oh? bakit ba?" Small tears came out of my eyes dahil sa kakatawa ko.
"Stop it! it's not funny," blangko na ang mukha niya habang nakatingin sa camera.
"Umamin ka din kasi pag may time, sige ka at baka maunahan ka ni papa Jeff-" I laugh again when he immediately ended the call.
I was supposed to put my phone down to prepare for my dinner when he texted me.
From: Zekiki the sweet devil <3
Stop pissing me pen! continue what you're doing. I'll call you later, I love you.
To: Zekiki the sweet devil <3
I love you too twinny, I'll eat my dinner na muna. bye!
I decided to look for a fast food restaurant nearby Paseo Grove where I live for almost 4 years now.
I have with me my white toyota rush so I decided to dine in nalang instead of drive thru because I still have enough time.
I went inside wearing a cropped tee top and a denim high waste short paired with white sneakers.
I have with me my wallet and my phone. I didn't wear make up and I just let my messy hair bun.
Wala nama talagang pakealam ang mga tao rito sa itsura ko.
When the waiter gave me my order I thanked her and was about to eat when I saw a very familiar face.
'Si Shawn!'
I was a bit shocked seeing him here, what a coincidence!
He hasn't yet noticed me at wala din akong pake.
I ate my order and paid for it. Tumayo agad ako at mabilis na naglakad palabas pero nabungo ako ng isang babae malapit lang sa pintuan.
"Watch where you're going!" She shouted at me and alam ko na agad na naagaw niya na ang pansin ng karamihan sa costumers.
'Giatay, the nerve of this bitch!'
"I'm sorry, you're the one at fault here. NOT ME, stop watching over your phone while walking kung ayaw mong nabubungo ka," I calmly said.
She was about to speak again pero biglang may kamay na pumulupot sa bewang ko.
"My girlfriend is not in the mood to fight with you right now. I'm sorry miss but we have to go."
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko when I heard Shawn's cold voice from behind.
The girl infront of us smiled shyly at him and nodded.
What the hell! He call me his what?!
Hindi pa rin ako nakapagsalita hanggang sa makarating kami sa parking lot.
"What did you just said?!" Inis kong tanong sa kanya.
"Stop complaining. I just saved you from the commotion," he blankly answered.
"Yeah, right!" I roll my eyes and was about to go but he stopped me.
"What now?!" Untag ko.
"Susi mo, hawak ko," napatingin ako sa car key na nasa kamay niyam
"Give me that," lumapit ako sa kanya para kunin yon pero inilayo niya ito ng bahagya kaya mas napikon pa ako.
"Only if you'll let me escort you hanggang sa labas ng condo na tinitirhan mo," he said.
'what is wrong with this brute?!'
I suddenly have the urge to fight with him!
"Ano ba talaga ang kailangan mo sakin ha? Do you want a ride home?! Naghihirap na ba ang mga Salazar?!"
"The last time I check you were one of the country's most wanted bachelor!" Inis na inis na ako rito oh!
"Nothing, I just want to escort you home," he chuckled.
Napairap nalang ako sa kawalan.
"Bwesit naman oh. Okay fine!" Hinablot ko sa kamay niya ang susi ng sasakyan ko bago ito pinatunog.
He walk behind me at pinatunog ang Audi na katabi lang ng sasakyan ko.
Bigla tuloy akong nakaramdam ng hiya.
'bwesit talaga!'
I maneuver my car paalis ng restaurant habang nakabuntot naman ang sasakyan niya sa likuran. I suddenly wonder kung bakit siya nandito?
20 mins later nakita ko na ang tower ng condo.
Mabagal lang ang takbo ng sasakyan niya. Tumingin ako sa gilid ng daan at nakita ang mga mata ng iilang mga tao na napapatingin sa agaw pansin niyang sasakyan.
I badly wanna call him right now and tell him to overtake instead!
Lumiko na ako at pumasok sa parking lot ng tower at ang unggoy ay nakasunod pa rin!
Akala ko ba hanggang labas ng condominium lang?!
Padabog akong bumaba ng kotse at hinintay siyang bumaba. "Why are you still here?"
I raise my brow while asking him the moment he step out of his car.
"Because..... I live here," kumunot ang noo ko, what did he just said?
"You what?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko.
"I said I live here," he repeated.
My mouth hang open nang mapagtanto kong seryoso nga siya!
Napahawak ako sa bewang ko at tinalikuran nalang siya, ayokong ma'stress dahil magrereview pa ako!
Pumasok nalamg ako sa elevator at ganoon din ang ginawa niya.
Sa apat na taon ko rito ni isang beses wala akong nakitang Shawn! I made myself busy checking over my inbox waiting for miracles to happen kahit pa na wala namang laman na bagong message roon.
When the elevator open on the right floor where my unit is, mabilis akong naglakad at napahinto ng mapansin kong lumabas rin siya.
'ang hinayupak na ito, nananadya na!'
"Sinusundan mo ba talaga ako ha?!" Sigaw ko sa kanya.
He walk towards me and smirked kaya napaatras naman ako sa kaba.
"Unit 342," he stated.
Ipinakita niya sa akin ang susi ng unit niya bago niya ito tuluyang binuksan.
My unit is 343! This only means magkaharap lang ang condo namin!
Sa sobrang hiya ay napa walk out nalang ako at dali daling pumasok sa unit ko.
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