**Max's POV**
Feeling frustrated, I walk over to my desk and place my bag on top of it as I sit down. Why do they have to be like that? I already tried to explain to them how I can't bring myself to actually talk to him. Just the thought makes my skin crawl. They probably think that it's okay for me to care about Tul because he's human, so he'll probably die in his 90's and then I'll be free to move on but what I haven't told them yet is that I have a really bad gut feeling about the future.
I don't think I'm going to have a happy ending...
At that, Tul and Xing walk into the class holding hands and neither of them look happy. I could see that Zee is still nowhere to be found. Where the hell is he? Right when I was about to look down at my paper, Tul looks over at me with an intense stare and I could feel my mouth going dry.
Why is he looking at me?
He never looks at me...
Being the first one to break eye contact, I look down as I begin to blush and try to focus on the papers placed around me. I really don't enjoy this class but I need to take it to be able to graduate with the degree I want. I understand that Win has his reasons for always going back to school but I am sooo bored at this point. I think I've taken the same English class 5 times in the past 80 years.
Tul: He places a pencil on my desk that I hadn't realized rolled off. "You dropped this... Hey your Max right?"
Not being able to comprehend that he was actually talking to me for the first time in 3 years, I just vigorously nod my head yes not being able to form any actual words.
Tul: He flashes me such a handsome smile before sitting down on the other side of the room next to Xing. "See you around Max."
All I could do was just stare after him like an idiot as Xing turns around in her seat and starts to glare at me.
Damn...
What did I ever do to her?
Taking my glance off of the two of them, I try to steady my breathing as the teacher walks in and starts class. I am so happy Win woke me up now...
If only Tul could smile at me like that every day...
Yes I know that it will never happen but a man can dream.
I aimlessly daydream throughout the rest of the class not even caring about paying attention anymore. I really need to talk to Tong! He's the only one that actually has any experience talking to anyone he likes, let alone dating someone. Sadly I wouldn't be able to go to Win about any of this because he also doesn't have any experience, he was always worrying about me and protecting me to have any free time to go and look for someone.
Plus the fact that Win is absolutely terrible at flirting!
By the time my class had ended, I could feel my face going back to its original color and my body stopped over heating but all of that was for nothing when I looked up before standing and saw Tul looking at me with another brilliant smile of his before raising his hand to wave at me and then disappeared around the corner of the classroom.
Crap...
I was just calming down too.
It's cool man, all I have to do is make sure that he doesn't actually start to hang around me and I'll be okay, I can't afford to get close to him. I don't want to accidently hurt him...
Plus he has a girlfriend and they obviously look very much in love.
I can't ruin that for him...
Not like he would even want me to begin with.
Finally being able to breath normally again for the 3rd time that day, I gather my things and head off to my next class. To my luck, the one person that I really wanted to talk to was already passing down the hall to head in the opposite direction.
Max: I reach out a hand and pull Tong closer to me so I don't have to shout in the hallway. "I was actually going to look for you after class, can I ask you something real quick?"
Tong: He raises an eyebrow but nods. "Sure, but only if you tell me why you stormed off earlier."
Really Tong?
Fineeee...
Max: I roll my eyes and sigh. "Fine... Basically Win was making fun of me and it doesn't help that you two like to gang up on me when it comes to Tul. I already explained to you guys that I didn't want to hurt Tul by being close to him and you guys find my affection for the guy a big joke. It just hurts being the center of your guys' humor.
Tong: "I'm sorry Max, we just want you to stop beating yourself up and looking so lost. We don't know how to help you so we try to lift the mood with humor instead. I don't think Win actually means to hurt your feelings. Try not to take it so personally."
Max: "Okay..."
Tong: "Alright enough of that, what was it you wanted to talk to me about?"
Max: I ring my fingers together and stare down at the floor. "Umm... Tul talked to me in class today and I completely panicked and just nodded my head like an idiot... How did you feel when your boyfriend first started to talk to you?"
Tong: He seems to be contemplating what to say as he scratches his head. "Well it's a little hard to remember now since it's been a year but I do remember feeling skeptical because he had a lot of haters. He is known for sleeping around so I didn't really trust him but once I got to know him I learned that he is actually nothing like what I had though. He kind and considerate and takes really good care of me. He liked me first though so I can't really help you with your question because you like Tul, not the other way around."
Huh, I think that's the most he's ever actually told me about his boyfriend, he's always tight lipped about it. He also gave me some clues toward who it is, it might be fun to try and figure out who he is eventually.
Max: "Damn... Yea I guess that doesn't really help but I do think that I just need to grow some balls and stop acting like such a child. All I have to do is keep a conversation if he ever brings up one. It's not like I'm going to go up to him and start one."
Tong: "True." He starts to walk away again. "I do think It's time for me to get going though, I don't want to be late to class."
Crap.
Max: I reach out and hold onto his arm. "Hey wait a second, I have one more thing I want to ask you but it's a little embarrassing."
Tong: He stops for a second and raises an eyebrow. "What is it?"
Max: "Umm... Have you ever had the urge to bite him?"
Tong: "That's kind of a weird question Max..." His eyes get big as his mouth falls open. "Have you been getting a craving to feed on Tul?"
As those words came out of his mouth, I started to cringe because I knew the answer to that question. I know that Tong doesn't know that I am a pure blood which is why he probably thinks that's normal but it's really not and that's why I can't tell Win. I'm not supposed to be thinking about biting anyone especially not the guy I like but whenever he's next to me I get an unbelievably powerful urge to push him against a wall and taste him...
Max: "Looking at my feet nervously. "Yea... That's the main reason I can't be around him... I'm scared I'm going to lose control..."
Tong: "Fuck..."
Max: "Yea... But can you please promise me that you won't say anything to Win... I don't tell him about any of this stuff..."
Tong: He puts his hand on my shoulder and smiles. "Don't worry Max, I'll keep this to myself. Just keep me updated."
Thank god... I don't know what I would do if Win found out about this.
Max: "Thank you so much Tong, I really owe you one."
Tong: "No problem but I really do have to go now."
Max: "Wait you never answered my question though."
Tong: He yells across the hallway as he makes his way to his other classroom. "Yes, all the time."
I could feel a smile forming on my lips as I turn back around and head toward my next class. That kind of helped me feel better.
I just wish things weren't so damn complicated...
Why couldn't I just be normal.