On Tuesday I spent the whole day in the practice room. Tuesday flew by like it was nothing. I started to worry. I walked home slowly trying to calm down. I seemed so stressed lately but I wasn't even that stressed. Ugh. I finally reached the house and went straight to bed.
I woke up in the morning to Jieun unnie screaming at me. "YAH!! MAKNAE-AH! GET UP!! IT'S SNOWING!!!" "Huh? No. Let me sleep. Unnie, I'm really tired." I tried to reason with her but she forced me up and out of bed.
"You need to go out for your jog! You've gained a lot of weight. You need to lose it some how." She said.
"I know. I do but I'm tired. Please leave me alone. Let me be. I want to sleep. And plus it's snowing." I said.
"Maknae!!!! Unnie's not lying. You need to get up. I'm giving you 30 minutes to get ready." Jieun Unnie left and Byul unnie came in.
"Hyesung-ah? It's time for you to get up now. It's already late. It's 10, you're normally up at 7-8. What's wrong? Tell unnie. She'll listen." Byul approached my bed with these words and I couldn't help it but cry.
"Last night I got a call..." I replied.
[ LAST NIGHT MEMORY ]
*ringtone*
Oh, it's appa. He's probably checking up on me. Hehe. Daddy is so sweet. I really miss my family.
*note: this conversation with her family is in English
"Hello? Daddy?"
"My baby girl. How are you?"
"I'm doing good. And how are you and Mom?"
"I-I'm fine. But your mother..."
"What about mommy?"
"She's in the hospital. They said she has an incurable deadly disease. But they aren't sure. They only think so."
I broke into tears. "Are you sure? Can I talk to mom? How'd you guys find out? Is she hurt?" I flooded him with questions.
"Sweetie, calm down. It's not that serious. They're not even sure of it. I'll call you when it's confirmed. I need to go now the doctors are calling me. I love you, honey. Please be safe and don't stress out too much." He hung up before I could even say anything back. But the disease, was it true? I cried and cried. I couldn't stop. What do I do? I grabbed my phone and called Bobby oppa. I needed someone's comfort.
"Oppa? Can you come meet me at the park?"
"Are you crying? Hyesung, what's wrong?"
"I just... I just need someone to talk to."
I hung up and grabbed my jacket. I left my unnies a note saying I'll be back in a bit and left for the park. On the way there I stopped by a coffee shop to grab some coffee for me and Oppa.
I got there and sat on the swings. I started to think of my mom and started to cry. Why did it have to happen to me? I don't want my to lose my mom.
"You alright?"
I turned around and saw...
[ END OF MEMORY ]
I couldn't remember what happened after that. I tried to but I just couldn't.
"Hyesung? Hyesung? HYESUNG?!"
"Huh? I'm sorry unnie. I just... I don't really remember what happened last night."
"Well, you didn't finish your story. You stopped at I got a call. And then you dosed off."
"Oh right. I got a call from my dad. My mom's possibly got an incurable deadly disease. And..." I bursted into tears.
"Oh my gosh. Uri maknae... Are you alright?"
"I-I don't know." I said with a broken voice. I sat up and grabbed my knees.
"Hyesung, it's not even certain that she has it. I'm sure she's fine. She's a healthy person, right?"
I sat there and stared at the floor blankly. I was so heart broken that I couldn't answer anything. I need to go see my parents. I'm gonna go.
*ding dong*
"I'll go get it." Unnie got up and left to answer the door.
"Donghyuk-ah!"
"Annyeong noona, Hyesunggie, eodi?"
"Ah, she's in her room. I'll go tell her you're here."
I heard their conversation but I just ignored it. Byul unnie came in.
"Donghyuk's here... You okay with the date still? If not I can tell hi-"
"No. I'm fine. I'm overreacting. Tell I'll be out of the shower in 20 minutes."
I got up and went to the bathroom. I took a quick shower. While in the shower I found a few things that caught my eye. I had a cut on my arm. It wasn't a huge cut. It was about 3 centimeters long and not deep. But it was still bleeding. Just what happened yesterday? I stared around my body once more and found some bruises and little scraps. When I got out of the shower I stared into the mirror and saw a cut on my face. It was a little scratch actually. Nothing serious. I left the bathroom and got dressed. I wore a long sleeved dress and leggings to cover up my cuts and bruises.
"I'm ready Oppa." I smiled brightly.
"Ah, that's great. You look so pretty. Wow. Hyesunggie is neomu neo-"
"I get it Oppa." I laughed at his compliments. "What are we doing today?" I asked.
"Umm... Well, I was hoping a movie day."
"Cool, where?"
"Here."
"But my unnies..."
"Noona said that she can hold JE unnie back too. So it'll just be you and me."
"Well, I'm gonna go change."
I felt so weird now. Ever since last night I feel like Hyukkie Oppa is just a friend now... What do I do? I can't just ruin everything, can I?
I walked out and sat down next to him. I looked at him. He looked so happy. I guess it was because I was with him. He noticed me staring at him and looked right into my eyes and said, "Hyesunggie, you know what?"
"What, Oppa?"
"I really, really REALLY like you. A lot."
"Oppa... I know th-"
"But I don't think you like me as much as I like you..."
I stared at him in confusion. He could tell? How? Was it that obvious? I tried to shake it off. But the thought that I don't like him that way anymore was stronger than I thought.
[ DONGHYUK POV ]
Hyesung left and went to go get change into something comfortable. I got up and put in a movie that caught my eye, T.O.P sumbaenim's movie, Commitment. I hadn't seen it yet and really wanted to. I inserted it and after about 5 minutes Hyesung came out of her room. She came and sat down next to me. Hyesung was acting strangely today. She was staring straight at me with a worrisome face. I could tell something was up. I turned to her and smiled. "Hyesunggie, you know what?"
She looked back at me with a sorrowful face, "What Oppa?"
"I really, really REALLY like you. A lot."
"Oppa, I know th-" I cut her off.
"But I don't think you like me as much as I like you..."
She looked at me with a shocked face. It really hurt that she didn't like me back. But it's better to let go what's not even yours. I smiled at her.
[ DONGHYUK POV OVER ]
He looked at me and smiled. He grabbed my hands. He looked straight into my eyes and said, "Hyesung, it's okay if you don't want to have our little date. But I need to hear it from you."
I sat there and stared at him. It's not that I didn't want the date. I'm did, believe me. But it's just that I didn't want him to have feelings for me anymore. He put his hands on my cheeks and kissed my forehead.
"Bye Hyesung." He got up and walked out of my dorm. I got up and tried to walk to the kitchen but fell to the floor and fainted.