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The second I get back to my dorm, I fire up my laptop and go back to that email I got a few days ago:
𝙹𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚞𝚊,
𝚆𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚕 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚊𝚍𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎. 𝚆𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚜𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚖 𝚎𝚗𝚟𝚒𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝, 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎. 𝚂𝚘, 𝚠𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐.
𝚆𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚘𝚕𝚎 "𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐'' 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚌𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜 𝚝𝚘 "𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚗,'' 𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚒𝚏 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚊 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚋𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢. 𝙾𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚓𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚎𝚕 𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚒𝚗-𝚌𝚕𝚊𝚜𝚜, 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚎? 𝚁𝚎𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚊 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗.
𝚂𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚢,
𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚜 𝙳𝚛𝚢𝚜𝚍𝚊𝚕𝚎
𝙰𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚏𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙿𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐
I take a deep breath, checking the time; 6:30am, and carefully type out my response:
𝙼𝚛. 𝙳𝚛𝚢𝚜𝚍𝚊𝚕𝚎,
𝙰𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛, 𝙸 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖. 𝙰𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍, 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚊 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚐𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚎. 𝙰𝚕𝚜𝚘, 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖, 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚙 𝚖𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚜, 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚘 "𝚝𝚛𝚢 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚞𝚝'' 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚒𝚏 𝚒𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚔𝚜. 𝙱𝚞𝚝, 𝙸'𝚖 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚗𝚘 𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚎𝚜, 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙿𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚑𝚢 & 𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚒𝚝𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚊𝚖𝚊𝚣𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚋𝚜𝚘𝚕𝚞𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎, 𝚒𝚏 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎. 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚒𝚝𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚡𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝. 𝚂𝚘, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚝.
𝙼𝚢 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚜, 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚍𝚘 𝙸 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝?
𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚖 𝚛𝚎𝚐𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚜,
𝙹𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚞𝚊 𝙼𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚠𝚜
I read it over a few more times, and sit back in my bed against the wall, taking a few deep breaths before I sit back up, pressing send.
I wait patiently for what seems like an eternity until he responds.
𝙹𝚘𝚜𝚑𝚞𝚊,
𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝! 𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝. 𝚆𝚎'𝚟𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚗𝚘 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚍𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚕𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚊 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚘𝚛 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚜. 𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚙𝚎𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚙𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚞𝚎 𝚒𝚝. 𝚂𝚘, 𝚠𝚎'𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚖𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚠𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚝. 𝚂𝚘, 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝.
𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚜 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚞𝚙𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚖, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚞𝚙 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚠 𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚜, 𝚜𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚕𝚙 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖 𝚘𝚞𝚝, 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚕𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚘𝚛 𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚋𝚢 𝚜𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚞𝚙𝚍𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜.
𝚂𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚢,
𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚊𝚜 𝙳𝚛𝚢𝚜𝚍𝚊𝚕𝚎
𝙰𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚏𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚘𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙿𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚊𝚙𝚑𝚢 & 𝙸𝚖𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐
I smile when I read that I'm free to go and help Maya with everything she's . I send out a quick 'Thank you'/'Will do' type of message in response and close my laptop, realizing that I haven't slept in 48 hours. Ugh.
I place my laptop onto my nightstand and open my phone. I quickly copy and paste the last email that he sent me to Maya, placing my phone back on my nightstand.
I finally put my head back onto my headboard and wall, and can quickly feel myself relaxing, so I get under my covers, and before I know it, I'm going into a deep, relaxing sleep.
I needed this.
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