Maze POV:
Staying here on the rooftop looking up at the stars with JB is the most free and happy I've ever felt in my life. I never understood why I was always so drawn to him or why he was so attached to me but now as I lie here with him by my side it all makes sense. No matter what I do or what I say he will never give up on me. He could've forgotten about me, he could've moved on and left me but no he stayed by my side even though I ran away from him. I've never admitted that I love him but I always knew that he loved me and yeah I did use it to my advantage and Yeah I did take it for granted. I lie on my side so I can have a better view of him but he doesn't notice as he's fast asleep. Am I weird for watching him sleep? I mean it's not like he never did this to me right? Even though it's been years since I last looked at him like this he hasn't changed a single bit. How could I ever leave this man behind?
"What? Why are you looking at me" JB asks me catching me off guard, I quickly sit up surprised that he's actually awake. I cross my legs and stare down at him with a smile on my face. I didn't want to wake him up but his sleepy face is so cute that I can't help but smile. How did I never notice this about him before? I just want him to go back to sleep, he looks peaceful and happy when he's asleep. I'm not there to stress him out when he's asleep.
"You're not asleep?" I ask him with a frown on my face feeling guilty for disturbing him. I sigh as I look down at him only for him to sit up and place his hand on my cheek making me feel some type of way. Just his hand on e has an effect on me, it makes me feel vulnerable and safe in some weird way. I've never felt this way when Miles touched me and I guess I should've seen that as a sign that he isnt the one for me.
"I was but then I felt this strong glare on me" he answers me with a smile on his face, you know that cute smile that he has that makes his eyes disappear. I miss that smile the smile that just lights up my world without even doing anything. I dont think there is anyone else on this earth who has a smile like that.
"Sorry didn't mean to wake you up" I quickly respond as I look down at my fidgeting hands feeling extra guilty for disturbing him. I can't help but feel guilty and unworthy when I'm around him. Finding out that he never moved on, that he never stopped loving me even though I was out here playing pretend makes me feel like a shit person. He was right I dont deserve him, I just cause him pain and suffering.
"Why were you staring? Is there something on my face?" He bombards me with questions snapping me our of my thoughts. I look at him with a smile on my face knowing that the only reason he asked me was to stop me from overthinking and to change the subject. "A bug?" He questions making me giggle remembering how hes so scared of bugs.
"No, I was just staring like how you stare at me" I tell him with my arms folded across my chest catching him off guard. He scoffs at me before brushing his hair out of his face and glaring at me with his intense eyes.
"I do not stare at you-"
"Er yes you do you've done it since I was like 14 on the train you weirdo" I cut him off and say making him open his eyes wide and look at me like I'm making things up. I remember the first time I used the train JB and Mark were in the same carriage as me and I was so scared of them both but then JB caught my eye and smiled at me. The whole train ride I was so scared because I could feel his eyes on me.
"I'm not, I used to look and you just happened to be there I wasn't staring" he responds defending himself making me roll my eyes at his stupid excuse. So no matter where I sat he just happend to be looking in the same direction. I used to think that he wanted to kill me but years later I discovered that he was just a paedophile.
"You're such a bad liar" I laugh at him as I slap his shoulder and laugh even harder as I clutch onto my stomach. He just glares at me as I roll on the floor laughing but mainly laughing at the dumb expression he has on his face. "Don't try to lie again its embarrassing" I tease him.
"I'm embarrassing now huh?" He scoffs as he rolls up his sleeves and licks his top lip making me feel some type of way. Was he always this sexy or am I just noticing this now?
"You've always been embarrassing" I say as I fold my arms across my chest and face away from him with a look of disgust on my face. I can see the shock on his face as I take a quick glimpse at him foricng me to hold in my laughter. "I mean what kind of man like little girls?" I add trying to tease him even more making him scoff at me.
"That's it I'm leaving-"
"No no I'm just teasing I dont think you're embarrassing" I grab hold of him stopping him from standing up and walking away from me even though he has every right to abandon me since I was the one who left him first. "I'm the one who's embarrassing" I quietly say with my head down too ashamed to look into his eyes.
"Yes yes you are" he agrees with me catching me off guard. I wasn't expecting much I dont know maybe a little bit of sympathy. Like I'm already hating myself for leaving him but he ain't making matters better by agreeing with me.
"Thanks" I sigh and cup my face in my hands.
"I mean what kind of person kills someone, goes on the run then leaves their friends behind?" He questions ashe looks down at me with his arms folded across his chest making me avoid eye contact with him. I knew o didn't deserve him, I knew that he would never forgive me just like how I can't even forgive myself.
"I'm sorry it was the only thing I could think of at the time" I apologise as I bow my head down and try to keep the tears in my eyes. I'm so embarrassed, so ashamed of being here with this lame ass excuse.
"Ok so let's go" he suddenly says catching me off guard. I look up at him startled and surprised, is he serious? I know he asked me the same question before we fell asleep but hearing him ask it again just makes me feel nervous.
"Huh?" Is all I can manage to say, not really knowing what to say. How can someone respond to this? How do you even spontaneously ask someone to go with them. Maybe I misheared him maybe he means let's get off this roof.
"Run away with me" he says making it clearly causing me to have a mini seizure. I want to be with him more than anything else and I feel like kts my turn to show him that I do truly love him.
"I I I want to but I dont-"
"Do you love me?" He asks me as he cuts me off.
"Yes" I answer with no hesitation because I do, when I'm with him i forget about everybody else.
"Then nothing else should matter" he adds as he places his hand onto mine and looks deeply into my eyes. Now I understand, I understand how he could not move on because nothing else on this earth mattered to him any more. I judged him for being in love but he was never depressed he was just hurt.
"Nothing else does matter" I tell him as I place my hand onto his cheek and lean in towards him before planting a kiss on his lips.
"You have got to be fucking kidding me!" I hear a familiar voice forcing me to move away from JB but only to lock eyes with an angry looking Bambam. "How dare you fuck on my roof!" He shouts catching me off guard. I look at the time and its past 4pm why is he at his restaurant now?
"Bam chill we didn't do anything" JB informs him.
"Well shes legal now so you can do whatever your heart desires" Bambam smirks making me open my eyes wide not really knowing how to respond to his remark. I look over at JB and he just has a pissed off look on his face but doesn't say anything.
"Bam-"
"Its good to have you back Maze although I still think you're a bitch for ditching us like that" Bambam cuts me off and says with a smile on his face making me smile too. I'm glad to know that he hasn't changed and hes still his annoying honest self.
"I'm sorry" I apologise to him as I pull him into a hug making JB clear him throat trying to catch our attention but we both just stare and glare him for being so pretty.
"Mark is gonna be so happy when he hears you're alive" Bambam adds making me smile, I miss Mark and how he used to always have my back. I heard his having a baby I still find that so weird. "He might even leave his stuck up girlfriend and that tragic baby of his" Bambam adds making me go speechless, the last thing I what is to be a home wrecker. Mark deserves happiness I dont want to ruin it.
"Bam! That ain't nice" I exclaim as I fold my arms across my chest and glare at him disappointed at his words.
"You only saying that because you don't know how problematic the bitch is" JB adds catching me off guard, I thought he was af least going to defend her and Mark's relationship but hes as bad as Bambam. I mean is she really that bad for them to both hate her?
"How about Jinyoung? How is he doing?" I ask him trying to change the subject because by the loo on their faces they were about to slaughter Mark's girlfriends name.
"He's married with 3 kids" Bambam answers me casually and I just stand there in shock. Jinyoung is married? I didn't see this one coming and has kids? Wow I guess I really did miss out on a lot then huh.
"Already?!" I exclaim.
"Nah I'm kidding" Bambam laughs making me punch his shoulder foricng him to rub it. He really did startle me, I mean I cant imagine Jinyoung with kids it just doesn't make sense. "He's got 4 kids I forgot the other twin" he adds catching me off guard, I look at him and wait for him to say he's joking but he never does.
"Wow I feel like I've missed out on so much" I sigh as I frown and look down at the ground avoiding their eyes. I just feel so damn guilty for not being in those special moments with them. "I'm so sorry guys seriously" I apologise again.
"Yeah you better be, especially for being engaged to that shit bag boyfriend of yours" Bambam speaks up and laughs as he high fives JB. I mean yeah I guess Miles has been a pain for both of them... omg Miles!
"Oh my gosh Miles! I've got to go JB but meet me tonight at my office we'll leave together tonight" I quickly get up and put on my shoes, I look over at JB and I see the frown on his face making me rush towards him and give him a kiss before rushing to my car. I've been gone all night and day, me and JB fell alseep on the roof last night and woke up late and time just flew like it was nothing. What am I going to tell Miles?
"Nina where have you been I've been calling you all night" Miles asks me as soon as I step out of my car. He is standing by the front door with his arms folded across his chest making me sigh.
"I know I'm sorry I stayed at Sarah's house I'm sorry" I lie to him making him pull me into a hug. I feel guilty for lying to him but I dont love him.
"That's good, I thought you were out dead in a ditch or something" he tells me as he kisses my forehead and leads me into the house. "By the way tonight my father is coming" he adds catching me off guard. This is not the right time for his father to be laying visits.
"Tonight?" I question and he nods his head in response making response. Time goes by but not quick enough, how come time flies when I'm with JB but drags along when I'm with Miles?
"My daughter how are you?" I hear Mr. Romano making me get up from my seat and approach him as he pulls me into a hug.
"I'm good papa how have you been?" I ask him in return as he still holds onto me.
"Great especially since I've booked the wedding" he answers making me give him a faint smile. How am I going to get out of this wedding?
"Oh that's er great just great" I smile trying my best to look excited when in reality I'm coming up with an escape pan in my head.
"You need to be serious about the family business" he tells me with his serious eyes, the same eyes he gives Miles when he's talking business with him. "We are not the kind of family you want to mess with" he adds but he says it so calmly even though I know that was a threat.
"Of course not" I smile as I rub his shoulder.
"Now no more scary news instead I have a surprise for you" he beams as he links arms with me and begins to slowly lead me into the living room.
"We both do, dont we son?" He asks as he looks over at Miles who has a big smile on his face. Please dont tell me they brought me a country.
"Yes this is a Romano family tradition" Miles says as he slowly opens the living room door but my smile disappears when I see JB on his knees tied up with blood dripping down his forehead.
"JB?" I mumble as I rush over to him.
"Surprise! Mi amore!" Mr. Romano announces as he begins to laugh hysterically.
"Or do you prefer Maze?"