Jaehyun broke up with me 3 years ago.
It's still painful.
I remember waking up every morning to this handsome prince to waking you to a black pillow.
I feel empty. I always thought he was my forever and that we would never leave each other.
Since the break up I moved company's, I now style for JYP and the boys I style are funny, but it's not the same as NCT.
"Noona" I see a friendly smile bring me back to my senses
"Oh sorry Jisung" I smile at the blonde kiddo in front of me "here" I say handing him his outfit for the new concept photos
"Thanks Noona" he smiles and leaves
Next Chris.
I rummage through the room looking for the red belt o had planned for him. As I look through each bag I packed I hear Christopher run in "Noona"
"Hi Chris one second" I say my head still in the clothing rack
"Do you need help" he asks in his adorable Aussie accent
"I got it thanks" I turn to look at him and get back to the disaster I created.
I sigh when I don't see it. "Ugh well I had this belt but it's gone" I say hands on my head
"This one?" He asks with the bright red belt in his hand
"Yes! Oh my god Chan you're a hero!" I shout as I snatch it from him and throw it in the clothing bag. Then placing it in his hands with a smile "now hurry I need to do your makeup touches"
He smiles mutters a "thanks" and goes to change.
I smile as I know I styled them perfectly!
Ever since I took the job for stray kids, stays have loved the new outfits and makeup ideas, sure I wasn't head of my crew but they definitely liked my ideas. So did JYP
Bang Chan comes back into my station with a jeongin whining "Noona! My hair got messed up" he pouts at you
You glare at him "how?"
"Seungmin and Hyunjin tackled me and messed up my hair" the evil maknae look coming to his pupils telling you he pissed them off and they beat him up.
You smile and tell him to sit and guide Chris to his chair "one moment" Chris nods at me
I look at I.n. Through the mirror and sigh "I have to redo it"
Quickly I redo his hair as he's called for his shoot he thanks me and runs off
I look at Chan and smile "sorry, now let's fix this mess"
"Speak for yourself I'm hot" he smirks
I laugh "sure Romeo, stay still please" I say leaning into his face fixing his eyeshadow since the old red fade looked more purple yet I have no idea how that happened.
A small snicker leaves my lips as I think about how in the world he was able to turn it purple
"It's not kind to laugh at others love" he says eyes still closed
"S- Sorry" I accidentally stutter
I continue to focus on his makeup till I hear his name called "shit" I say not finished with his makeup "I didn't get to your lipstick"
"I have an idea" he smiles as he grabs my neck and kisses me, this isnt allowed! JYP doesn't allow this, SM almost murdered Jaehyun and I. Stop.
I pull back from Chris who just smiles
God those dimples.
Not the time Y/n you have a job and that comes first.
Chris stands and leans over my shoulder looking in the mirror and moving his lips "looks perfect don't ya think" he winks at me then leaves the room
You sit frozen.
Did you just-
No he-
What the hell was that?
• After The Shoot •
I smile as I hear the director tells us to leave and that the shoots over. I run to my bags clean and zip up my station.
I had completely erased the kiss between Chris and I till a familiar voice came buzzing in. "Hello Staff we wanted to thank you for your hard work on us thank you"
Stray kids bow and all of them thank us. I smile they're so sweet.
I get my bags zipped and throw the backpack on my shoulders and check myself in the mirror since I had a friend date with Doyoung today.
"Hey" Chan comes up to me
"Hello Chris" I smile at him
"So sorry for kissing you, haha I was over my head-" I cut him off
"Don't worry about it, but you have to know my job comes first" I say firm
He nods and grabs my free hand "I like you, and I don't care how long it takes I will win you over! I promise" he smiles at you and let's go of my hand.
Small blush creeps on my face "Okay Chan, dream big" I Pat his head and walk away
As I leave the building I can't help but smile. It's been three years since I've smiled or felt like that.
It felt nice.
• Meeting Up with Doyoung•
Now I know what you're thinking.
Talking to your ex's band member is pretty low but listen-
Doyoung and I have always been really close friends and just because Jaehyun May hate me doesn't mean Doyoung has to.
I walk to the cafe we both always meet at. As always I got there first so I order for him and I then sit in our usual corner
I text him that I'm there and I ordered and he sent me a winky face which meant he was on his way.
I pull out my phone and cruise around on twitter watching memes of stray kids and learning new fandom things to teach the boys later. I smile when I see Chan's big daddy memes "his dimples" I giggle
"Hey loser" Doyoung smiles as he sits in the seat infront of you
"Sup Doyoung no time long see" I say making fun of him
"Shut the hell up Ms. I love him I know I do" Doyoung snaps
I glare "to far"
"No u" he stares at me
We both glare at each other
Till
We both start to laugh losing our shit
"So how was your day" I ask him
"Same old same old, I miss you! You made styling and shooting days more fun" he sighs
"You guy did a shoot today too?" I say surprised
"Yeah pre filming stuff you know SM better to be a year ahead" he laughs "so how's the kidz"
"Good today was kinda different" I feel my face heat up and a small grin appearing on my face
"Oh? How makeout in the closet with Hyunjin!" Doyoung says winking
"No-" he cut me off
"Oooooh got steamy sex in the closet with Changbin"
"No"
"Damn then what snooze alert" he says getting up to get our drinks
When he sits back down I smile "Chan kissed me"
Doyoung looked at me puzzled "I thought you still were... you know into... yeah"
I nodded "I thought I was too but this kiss felt- it was a reminder that I am loved and I don't need... him... to feel loved" I smile
"You and Chris would make cute ass kids too! Those dimples!!" Doyoung smirks at me
I hit him and smile "no sir"
He smiles "let's go to park"
I nod
At the park we were on the top of the jungle gym and staring at the sky. It was dark out and the faintest stars shinning I loved the stars and moon I always felt a connection to it. Ever since my dad passed away it was a comfort thing I guess.
"You know he still talks about you" Doyoung says out of nowhere talking me out of my thoughts
"Acting and talking are two different things" I say
"I think he misses you" Doyoung looks at me "do you miss him?"
I think.
Do I miss him?
Disney nights where we eat popcorn and binge you story or beauty & the beast?
Coffee runs at 4 am due to the busy schedule?
Long kisses in the morning?
Long walks about our days and passionate kisses?
His head laying on my lap as I play with his fluffy hair?
Or when he'd braid my thick ass hair?
"no" I lie
"Okay" Doyoung says looking back up "if you ever do don't hesitate to talk to me. I know it's been a few years but you two were together for 5 years"
I nod. "I miss it" I whisper
I look back up at the stars with Doyoung "dad if you're there if he loves me give me a sign" i say in English so Doyoung won't understand and I close my eyes.
Doyoung looks at me and smiles "what was that?"
"A prayer" I smile
"Religion Queen" he snaps and jumps down his hand out to help me down
We walk each other to our normal stop and say our goodbyes "don't forget to text me when you get home Y/n" he smiles
"Yes sir" I say jogging in the direction to my apartment.
After the break up I moved. I use to live in a bigger Seoul apartment but I didn't wang all the memories to hit me so I ended up moving to another side of town.
Doyoung liked the apartment more then the other one he just feared the area.
I get into my apartment safely and drop him a text. I run to my kitchen and make a quick snack ramen and a fried egg. Basic but bomb asf.
After I eat I clean up my mess and head to my bathroom where I do my normal routine.
Shower
Change
Skincare
Clean litter box
Sleep
I awaken from my deep beauty slumber to a ding? I grab my phone and the brightness killed my eyes making me hollar "shit" as I quickly turn it down and blink hard.
"1 unread message from unknown number"
Out of curiosity I pressed read and as I clicked the message I shot out of my bed and felt all the feelings rush to my heart and eyes
"I still want you back"
(To be continued)
Sorry for all the cliffhangers I write so much 😂