Chie’s Note: Annyeong Haseyo! :D Long time no update! Haha. Busy, Busy, Busy. T^T Ang hirap mag-college! Seryosong usapan na talaga siya. *nods* Pero, me is FIGHTING! +_+ Hoho. Woo. Sem-break na namin kaya nakapag-update na ako. Hihi. Na-miss ko kayo! :3 Ako, na-miss niyo? xD Haha. Kumusta naman mga cute? :D Oh, alam ko na-excite kayo, eto na Chapter 2NE1 para sa inyo! ;) Sana magustuhan niyo ‘to, kahit na may mellow drama ang chappie na ‘to tsaka makwento si Shin-a dine, ‘wag sana kayo ma-bored. >3< Enjoy reading pa rin mga mahal kong readers! ^_____^
P.S: Lee Jong Hyun & Lee Jung Shin sa kanan. :"> Play the video if you like. Kiss the rain ang title, instrumental lang naman siya. Hihi.
Chapter 21
~ Jung Shin’s POV
It’s been four months after our talent showcase. Four months since I found out that Jong Hyun hyung and Yvette are in a relationship. At first, I find it hard to accept and believe. You know that I feel something very special towards her, but I’m too late now. She’s Jong Hyun hyung’s girl and I’m happy for them, but not for my heart. Well, that’s life. It’s always unfair, unequal. I learned to live with this regret in my heart. Jinjja… I had mix emotions back then. I feel frustrated, I feel regret… I feel I’m so dim-witted to harbor feelings for the girl I knew all along that only likes me as an idol.
I’m too stupid not to tell Yong Hwa hyung how I really feel for his sister. Aish. There’s no point in blaming myself, right? I made decisions, and it can’t be reversed. Time can’t be turned back. Anyway, all I know right now is I’m happy and I’m learning to let go of my feelings for Yvette. I know Jong Hyun hyung can make her happier. He can protect and cherish her way better than I can. *smile*
She fell in love with him. There’s no doubt with that. We won’t know about it if the pictures in the internet were not posted. We kept on bugging Jong Hyun hyung to tell us what’s really between him and Yvette, but he won’t spill any word. Min Hyuk hyung also dragged Yvette in our practice room to ask her as well. We were having a rehearsal, two days after the talent showcase, for a gig in our Manager’s own bar. Then both of them explained their selves and told us they’re in a relationship a day before the talent showcase. Now I really get it, that’s why they were having knowing looks and smiles that dinner I cooked for all of us. Jinjja…
My hyungs and I are busy with our individual activities and while we are busy, we’re thinking about the theme of our new album we’ll be doing soon after we’re finished with all of our individual projects. I’m busy with my modeling career and at the same time, I’m learning to compose songs from Yong Hwa hyung, though he’s busy helping our agency’s trainees with their songs. Min Hyuk hyung and Jong Hyun hyung are both busy filming their dramas. And that leaves Yvette almost alone in our dorm every day, but Yong Hwa hyung will call Mi Eun noona, is she’s not busy, to accompany her until one of us gets home. Usually, Jong Hyun hyung’s the first one to be home. Jinjja… He won’t let his girlfriend be alone for too long. *smile*
I was quite wondering when the two of them are together... Nothing changed with their actions towards each other. It's just the normal. They don't even hold their hands in front of us. Well, maybe if we're not in their front, they do hold hands ne? Yong Hwa hyung became strict with Yvette and Jong Hyun hyung. He's really an over protective brother, sometimes... And other times, he just let the two alone and do what they want. I don't get Yong Hwa hyung, jinjja... *nods* I feel envious but I have no rights, she's never been mine. *smirk* This voiceless feelings I have for her will soon fade with time. *smile*
"Lee Jung Shin!" I turned my head to look for the person who called me.
"Annyeong haseyo! We'll gonna shoot now!" Ah, it's my partner for the autumn edition of Cosmopolitan Korea, Sandara Park of 2NE1.
I stood from my seat, "Arasseo, Dara noona"
She smiled, "Kaja! They are waiting for us!" she said cheerfully as she dragged me in the studio. Jinjja... Girls older than me really like to boss me around, just like Mi Eun noona. *sigh*
The first part of the photo shoot ended and we had a 30 minute break before we continue. My face never felt numb anymore, I'm used to it now, having different facial expressions to portray in front of the camera. I can also tell Dara noona's being comfortable with me and that's good. I hate to have an awkward feeling around girls.
"So, Jung Shin. How's Yvette?" Dara noona asked as she took a sip on her mocha frappe. Ah, I remembered some fan cam pictures posted in the internet when they bumped into each other.
"She's doing fine with Jong Hyun hyung" I answered casually.
She nodded, "That's good to know. I can really tell they are in love. They look good together" she said dreamily, "He must be good to her or else I'll pull his head off!" she added with a chuckle. I chuckled along with Dara noona.
"Ah, I remembered we met in a café and she accidentally stepped on my foot" she smiled remembering the scene, "I can tell she's a very honest and sweet girl. She kept on apologizing to me until we part our ways. Bom told me she wants to meet Yvette sometime" and she looked at me knowingly.
I smiled, "Ne. She really is. Ah, I guess I would ask her if she wants to meet 2NE1 members in the future"
Dara noona smiled widely, "Jinjja? Kamsahamnida, Jung Shin! Bom will be glad" I just smiled at her.
Jinjja... Why does Yvette have this effect on people? I don't know how and what you call it... But I think everyone's being fond of her. *smile* Even Dong Hae hyung dropped by to our dorm to see Min Hyuk hyung and eventually he will have a conversation with Yvette. Same goes for Seo Hyun noona. Don't ask me if Yong Hwa hyung and her is in a relationship or what... I know nothing. Yong Hwa hyung is the mysterious type when it comes to his relationship with girls. Haha.
~ Yvette's POV
"Yvette! Bruha ka! Dinaig mo pa ko! Ano ginawa mo at naging boyfriend mo si Lee Jong Hyun?! Si Burning Jong ng aking buhay ha?! Ginayuma mo ba?!" Tama, si Shamela Batungbakal nga yang nagsasalita sa may screen ng laptop ko. Ngayon na lang kami nakapag-video call, naging busy siya sa university e. Ngayon lang din siya nagka-time na makausap ako ng personal tungkol sa amin ni Jong Hyun.
Aigoo... Hindi ko naman pwedeng sabihin sa kanya na isang pilitang relasyon lang ang meron sa amin ni Jong Hyun, eh de kinalbo ako ni Hwang-sa jang! NO WAY! Maka-burning Jong naman siya! >3< Akin kaya si Jong Hyun! :p Haha
-_____- "Grabe ka naman Shame! Hindi ko nga rin alam e! Haha!" yun na lang ang sinagot ko sa kanya.
"Whe? E paano na si Baby Jung Shin mo?! Nako... Lagot ka, bumaligtad ka na ng bias sa CN Blue! Hala ka!" at tinakot niya ako na parang bata. Chura niya! xD Haha!
"Porket ba bias mo na, dapat yun din ang taong ma-iinlove ka? Hindi naman yata ganon yun ah..." sabi ko. At totoo ang sinasabi ko ngayon kay Shamela... Eeeee... >////< Na-develop na ko kay Jong Hyun. Four months na kaming nagpre-pretend, kaya ayun nahulog na ko sa kanya. Pero si Jung Shin, siya pa rin naman bias ko sa CN Blue noh. Pero, talagang si Jong Hyun ang gusto ko. Hm... Hindi ko lang maamin sa kanya sa ngayon. Kahit na matagal na niyang naamin sa akin na may pagtingin siya sa akin, e malay ko ba kung expired na yun?! >3< Tsaka siguro yung sweetness niya sa akin e dala na rin ng concern niya sa kalagayan ko. E, alam niyo na yun. Si Jong Hyun lang kasi may alam tungkol dun e.
"Sabagay... Waaah! Hindi ko akalain na babagsak ka sa kamay ni Jong Hyun! Hoho! E 'di ba nga deads na deads ka kay Jung Shin dati... Tapos naging kayo ni Jong Hyun? E nakakabigla lang naman ng kaunti. Hihi. Kahit apat na buwan na ang nakalipas, e parang hindi ako makapaniwala e! Haha!"
Ngumiti ako kay Shamela, "Shamela... Kapag kasi na-inlove ka sa isang tao, kapag nagmahal ka ng isang tao... You don't need any reasons. If you have a reason, it's purely an infatuation. Ang pagmamahal kasi, para yang hangin... Hindi mo kailangang makita, pero nararamdaman mo and one of the vital things na kailangan mo para mabuhay ka... Bigla na lang nandoon yung kabog sa dibdib mo, yung unexplainable na tuwa kapag kasama mo siya... Yung feeling secured ka kapag kasama mo siya at yung warmth niya na nagpapakalma sa'yo. Yung mga ganoong bagay ba..." at hindi ko maiwasang isipin si Jong Hyun habang katabi ko lang siyang nakaupo, kapag nakasandal ako sa balikat niya, kahit na hinang hina ang feeling ko... Malaman ko lang na nandyan siya para sa akin, lumalakas ako unti-unti. Yung mga ngiti niya sa akin, nakatatak na sa puso't isipan ko and it plays back a quadrillion times when he's not with me. Yung hawak lang niya sa kamay ko, dampi ng daliri niya sa pisngi ko... HOMAYGASH talaga! Kinikilig ako ng bonggang bongga kapag naiisip ko ang mga yun! Every single cell of my body is so kilig! >////<
"Yvette Jung! Hoy, gaga! Gising!"
"H-Ha? May sinasabi ka ba Shame?"
"Ay wala! Wala akong sinasabi pagkatapos mong maglitanya about sa love! Grabe ka! Para kang nananaginip diyan! Hala! Nagblu-blush ka! Nako! Iniisip mo si Jong Hyun noh?! Nako!! Kung magkatabi lang tayo, kanina pa kita nginudngod diyan!"
">3< Shame naman e... Ang brutal mo pa rin... Hindi ka na nagbago..."
Napa-chuckle ang berat kong Boicefriend, "Kasi naman Yvette e! Natutuwa akong makita kang masayang ganyan! Yung para kang nabubudoy ba kasi naiisip mo yung taong mahal mo at syempre, mahal ka rin. Ayieee... Tsaka, hindi basta tao yung boyfriend mo noh! Si Lee Jong Hyun yun ng CN Blue! Maraming babae sa bawat panig ng mundo ang nagkakandarapa sa kanya noh! Tapos ikaw ang napili niyang mahalin! Kaya pahalagahan mo ang buhay mo 'teh! OMG! Yvette, bakit ba parang fairy tale ang buhay mo ha?! Siguro, nailigtas mo ang earth sa kamay ng pananakop ng mga unidentified beings dati noh?" toyo talaga 'tong si Shamela! Ano si Jong Hyun kung hindi tao? Sino siya? Si Adonis? Tapos ako si Aphrodite ganon ba? xD Haha! Anebeyen... Greek Mythology naiisip ko! Mwo? Unidentified beings?! Saan galing yun?! O_O
Natawa ako sa mga pinagsasabi ni Shamela, "Shame! Baliw ka talaga! I-Unidentified beings ko mukha mo e!" at patuloy ako sa pagtawa.
Ngumiti si Shame mula sa screen ng laptop ko, "Yvette, natutuwa rin ako syempre na malaman kong matured ka na! Nagdadalaga ka na! At hindi ka na isip bata! Grabe ha?! Nosebleed and brainbleed naman ako sa mga litanya mo kanina about sa love! You already!" tapos yung hintuturo niya nasa may ilong niya.
Kumalma na ako sa pagtawa at umayos ng upo, "Kala mo ako lang e noh? Ikaw din! Maghintay ka lang!"
"Gaga! No time for love ang peg ko! Devoted ako sa aking pag-aaral noh! Syempre, busy rin ang aking buhay fan girl noh!" sabi ni Shame at inaayos ang buhok niya. "Ay nako Yvette! Kapag may ginawa sa'yo si Jong Hyun, kapag inaway ka niya o pinaiyak, sabihin mo sa akin ha? Reresbakan naming mga Boice para sa'yo!" si Shame talaga... *smile*
Tama, alam ng mga Boice ang relasyon namin ni Jong Hyun. Si Hwang-sa jang na rin yung nagpalabas ng pictures na lagi kaming magkasama ni Jong Hyun. Natutuwa naman ako sa mga kapwa ko Boice kasi tinaggap nila kung ano meron sa amin ni Jong Hyun. >///< Hihi. E, hindi rin maiiwasan ang mga bitter na fans at haters, pero keri lang. :D
"Nge? OA mo naman Shame! Haha!"
"Aba! Aba! Ayokong malalaman ko na lang na break kayo ha? Tatanggalin ko ang dimples niya! Sabihin mo yun noh?!"
-____- "Huwag naman dimples! Tanggalin ko nunal mo sa mata e! >3<"
"HAHA! Biro lang, Yvette! Ikaw talaga! E loves na loves naman kasi kitang Boicefriend ko, kaya ayokong malamang sinaktan ka niya, physically and emotionally. Oh, ayos ba?"
Tumango na lang akong naka-ngiti kay Shamela. Hay... Natutuwa naman talaga ako oo. Ngayon na lang kasi kami nakapagusap ng ganito ulit e. *smile* At hindi ko magawang sabihin sa kanya ang tungkol sa sakit ko. Ayoko siyang mag-alala sa akin. Ayokong mag-alala ang mga taong pinapahalagan ko. E... Exception na dun si Jong Hyun... >////< Naman e. T^T
"Ay, Yvette! Gorabels na me ha? May group project kaming gagawin e. So, message message na lang ha?" sabi ni Shame ng nakangiti.
"O sige. Ingat palagi, Shame!" at nagba-bye ako sa kanya. Tumayo na ko sa pagkakaupo ko sa kama ni Jung Shin at nag-inat.
Waaaah!! Ang tagal naman ni Mi Eun unnie. >3< Dapat kanina pa siya nandito ah? Baka naman hindi siya makakapunta? E bakit 'di man lang nag-text?! Ay nako! Baka naman sinilip si Min Hyuk sa set ng drama niya! Haha!
*ding... dong...*
Uy doorbell!! Nako! Baka naman si Mi Eun unnie na yun ah? Hinapon naman siya sa pagpunta. >3< Kahit na! Basta may kasama ako dine sa dorm ng CN Blue! Hihi.
Mabilis akong lumakad para buksan yung main door. Halos lumuwa yung mga mata ko mula sa sockets nila pagbukas ko ng pintuan. Bakit kaaga naman niyang umuwi? >////< Tapos na agad filming nila para sa araw na 'to? O_O
Ngumiti siya sa akin at mas binukas ko yung pintuan para makapasok siya, "You're home early..." sabi ko at hindi ko mapigilan ang ngumiti makita ko lang siya. Ay obssess much! xD Haha!
"Our filming was cancelled. Many fan girls showed up for today. Jinjja... They're uncontrollable" sagot ni Jong Hyun habang naglalakad na kami papunta sa sala. Lumingon lingon siya sa paligid, "Where's Mi Eun noona?" at nabalik tingin niya sa mata ko na may pagtataka.
"S-She did not come today, I don't know why" sabi ko at naupo sa may couch, bigla akong nakaramdam ng sakit sa may gawing likod ko e. T^T "And I was almost alone the whole day" dagdag ko at ngumiti ako sa kanya.
Umupo sa tabi ko si Jong Hyun, "Good thing I'm home early" at ngumiti siya na litaw ang dimples na sobra sobra ang pagmamahal ko. >///<
Tumango ako sa kanya at dahan dahan na sana akong sasandal sa may couch pero nilagay niya yung braso niya around my shoulders at ang landing ko tuloy ay sa balikat niya. HOMAYGASH! >///< Ang puso ko eto na naman sa pagwawala niya... Grabe ang tibok niya... >///< Tapos binend ni Jong Hyun yung ulo niya sa may ibabaw ng ulo ko. Aigoo.... Can you feel my heartbeat? It's beating for you so fast! Nako naman Burning Jong e! >///<
Walang nagsasalita sa aming dalawa. Pinapakinggan ko lang yung paghinga niya, tapos sumasagi rin sa may buhok ko yung hininga niya. Aigoo... Ang bango ni Jong Hyun kahit maghapong nasa filming. Waaah... Namamanyak na naman ako dine! xD Haha!
"Sang Min-ssi called. Your guitar's fixed, we can get it now" biglang sabi ni Jong Hyun at umupo ng ayos sa tabi ko. Tumingin muna siya sa mata ko bago nagpatuloy sa sasabihin niya, "Would you like to get it now?"
Tumingin muna ako ng ilang sandali sa kanya bago sumagot, "No"
"Mwo? Waeyo?" gulat na sabi ni Jong Hyun.
"I want you to rest Jong Hyun oppa" sabi ko at tumayo sa kinauupuan ko. Pero nakatingin pa rin ako sa kanya.
Bigla siyang napa-chuckle, "I know you'll be saying that" tumayo siya at hindi matinag ang titig sa mata ko. "Wait here" at biglang labas ulit.
Hm? Ano meron? Ano gagawin nun? O_O At ako e dakilang masunurin, ni hindi ako gumalaw sa kinatatayuan ko hanggang sa bumalik si Jong Hyun na dala ang gitara ko.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at kinuha sa pagkakahawak niya yung gitara ko, "Wow..." patuloy kong ine-examine ang gitara ko. Grabe! Ang laki ng ginanda! Wooo! Nylon na ang strings na kinabit ni Sang Min-ssi! Yay! Masarap na 'tong gamiting pang-pluck! :3 Hihi. Tapos buo na rin yung bridge na wasak! :D
"Did you like what Sang Min-ssi did?" tanong ni Jong Hyun.
Tumango ako, "Ne! Kamsahamnida, Jong Hyun oppa!" at nag-bow ako sa harap niya.
"Say thanks to Sang Min-ssi" sabi niya na may kasamang chuckle sa boses niya. "Play a song for me" at naupo siya sa may couch.
"M-Mwo?! What song?" nanlalaki yung mata kong tanong sa kanya.
"Any song you like" sabi niya at sumesenyas na umupo ako sa tabi niya. Fine, de umupo na ako sa tabi niya. Grabe, hindi pa rin ako sanay. Hindi mapawi ang kilig ko kapag kasama ko siya tapos kaming dalawa lang ang nandine sa dorm nila. Ay shet! >///< Hihi.
"Aigoo... I can't remember any chords of the song I would like to play... >3<" sabi ko habang nilalaro yung strings ng gitara.
"Arasseo" sabi ni Jong Hyun at kinuha yung gitara sa pagkakahawak ko. "Sing the song, and let me find the chords for you" at ngumiti siyang litaw ang super nakaka-high niyang dimples! >///< Wish ko lang alam niya yung kantang kakantahin ko. xD Haha!
"I hope you are somewhat familiar with the song I'm going to sing oppa" sabi ko at may slight chuckle sa boses ko.
Nag-lean forward sa akin si Jong Hyun, face to face kami. >////< HOMAYGASH! Ang l-lapit ng mukha niya sa akin. "Try me" sabi niya ng nakangiti at ako e mukhang kwago dahil nanlalaki mata ko at ramdam kong nagblu-blush ako. >///<
~ Jong Hyun's POV
"A-Arasseo" Yvette answered as she looked away from me. *smile*
I'm in love with her. I'm not pretending with what I feel for her. My actions and gestures around her, they are all real. I'm doing all of these on my own will. Is she being unaware or what? *sigh*
We're in a relationship for four months now. Just like an ordinary couple, we go on numerous dates. Except Hwang-sa jang hired a photographer to follow us secretly and take pictures of us to feed on media people. Jinjja... It sometimes annoys me. He's using Yvette for our popularity. Aish.
There are times I tried to say I love her, but she just gave me a smile or open a topic to avoid "it". Being a man, I respect her, and won't be pressing on the topic. I'll be waiting patiently for her, until those words will finally come from her. *smile* I'm hoping...
"You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time and the last time in my only life"
Yvette sang those words and I immediately got the right chords to match the song. I think I heard this song before... The way she sang it... Just perfect. Her voice, her tone, her expression. Her beautiful orbs never lifted my gaze. *smile*
I put my guitar down, "That's a nice song" and I looked at her. I noticed she wiped her teary eyes.
"N-Ne" she answered as she continued to wipe her teary eyes but I hold both of her hands on her lap.
"What's wrong?" I asked looking into her eyes deeply.
She forced a weak smile, "Nothing. I just got carried away in the song"
"Jinjja?" I said as I leaned forward to have a closer look on her beautiful face.
She looked back at me, "Ne, Jong Hyun oppa" and I can see her blushing by my close distance.
Darn. I can't control myself anymore. I need to tell her the words I've been keeping in my heart. *smirk* I said I'll be patiently waiting ne? Jinjja... But how long?... I should make the move before it's too late.
"Yvette Jung..." I said as I never lifted my gaze on her eyes and put my hands on her cheeks.
"...Saranghaeyo"
Her eyes widen a bit, "Jong Hyun oppa..." her cheeks turned red even more.
"I love you. I love you too much. I don't want us to pretend anymore. I want us to be real. It's hard on me that we keep on pretending. I know you feel something for me too, right?" I softly said.
She smiled and held my hands on her cheeks as she put them on my lap. "Jong Hyun oppa..." she said and looked directly in my eyes. I looked back at her.
"I-I... love you too, but--" I hugged her before she continue what she's about to say.
"Please, no but" I said as I continue to hug her and feeling her breathe.
I felt her tears fell on my back, "Jong Hyun oppa... Let me finish, jebal..."
"Arasseo. I'll be listening" I said as we let go of our hug and faced each other properly.
She looked at me with her tear-filled eyes, "Jong Hyun oppa... I-I don't deserve your love" my eyes widen to hear those words from her.
"Mwo?! Why are you saying that?!" I asked holding her shoulders.
"You don't understand, do you?" she said as tears begin to fall from her eyes. I hate to see her crying. Tch.
"Understand what?! Yvette, you know we love each other. And why the heck would you say you don't deserve my love?! Jinjja..." I'm quite raising my voice in frustration.
She stood up and faced me, "I am dying! Why do you have to love me?! I am dying! I will leave you eventually! I will make you sad when I'm gone... I-I don't want to see you lonely. I know it's hard for both of us, but we need to suppress our feelings to prevent us from being hurt even more..." she said with all of her emotions in her voice and her tears are falling uncontrollably.
I stood up as well and faced her, "I don't care if you're dying. I don't care if you'll leave me eventually. All I care is to show you how much you mean to me. I want to give you all of my love when there's still time for us left" I smirked, "Suppress our feelings?! That's the least thing I can do. I love you and that will never change, Yvette. I have loved you since the beginning and I'll love you 'til my last breath" I moved closer to her, "I will be more hurt if I can't love you, if you won't let me love you because you're worrying you'll leave me. I'll be more lonely if you will suppress your feelings for me because you are afraid I'll be hurt when you're gone" I cupped her chin, "Jebal... Let me love you, Yvette, there's still time for us to create happy memories together"
She looked at me for a while. I wonder what’s running in her mind and eventually she nodded and hugged me tightly as she continued to cry and I just hugged her back while caressing her long hair.
"Yvette, I believe in miracles. Do you?" I asked as I heard her sobs subside.
She lifted her head and I can see her eyes are puffy, "I don't know oppa..." she answered as we took our seat in the couch.
I smiled as she rested her head on my chest. "Do you want to sleep?" I asked.
She shook her head, "I want to stay like this a little longer" and she looked at me with a peaceful smile.
I smiled back at her, "Arasseo" and I held her hand.
"Jong Hyun oppa..." she lifted her head to face me, she smiled as she continued, "Saranghaeyo"
To hear it from her, it's just like music to my ears. Darn. I'm feeling too happy right now. Words are not enough to describe the feeling of happiness I'm feeling right now. *smile*
I smiled at her as I leaned closer and slowly, I captured her lips with mine. I gave her a soft kiss on her delicate lips. "I'll be loving you always, Yvette" I said as our lips parted.
She smiled, "I'll be loving you even if I'm gone from this world, Jong Hyun oppa"
I looked into her eyes and pulled her in a warm hug. I'm suppressing my tears to fall since our conversation started. But it looks like I can't stop it from falling. Tch.
Just the thought of Yvette will soon be gone, shatters my whole existence into pieces. I won't care about that for the time being. I will care in what I have at present. *smile* I'll be making woderful memories with Yvette, the ones I will treasure for all of my life.
Chie's Note: Madrama ba 'tong chapter na 'to? Parang hindi naman. xD Haha! Waah. Ano kaya mangyari sa YveHyun ne? Aigoo... Hindi pa naman ending pero naiiyak na ko. T^T Comments please! :D