an ode to the loveless, these are for you.

i'm exhausted

my bones creek and ache as though i've been alive for a thousand years.
there's no more galaxy within me,
the stars burned out.
but none of it matters to anyone,
it never mattered to anyone,
let alone you.
i try my best,
i really do.
but no matter what it is i'm always wrong.
there's no god to come rescue me,
if there was he would've been here by now.
i'm all that's left to save myself,
i just don't want to.
i don't have the strength.
i'm so tired.
i just want to rest,
i want to rest and rest and rest until there is no more universe,
there's no more thought of you and me,
there's nothing.
nothing but dark,
cold,
nothing.
i just need some rest,
please,
just five more minutes.