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A/N: HOLY MOLEY its been soooo long since I have uploaded. I have had a rough couple of months. I have moved to a new city this summer and I went on a huge road trip. I just started my junior year of HS and I am getting use to my new school. So I have made this chapter kinda long:) Thanks so much for sticking with me:) LOVE all of you
xoxox- Jess
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A few minutes of crying in the bathroom I heard a knock on the bathroom door.
“Ren, what’s wrong, I hear crying”. Brian spoke softly.
“I’m (sniff), not okay (sniff).” I started to cry again.
“Can I come in Ren?”
“Sure” I spoke trying not to cry harder.
Brian slowly opened the door. He first looked at me and then to the object in my hand. He got a worried look on his face.
“Renesmee, Is that..?” He tried to say the word.
“Yes” I quickly spoke.
“What… does… it say...?” Brian stuttered.
“Positive” I started to cry again.
“Ren, we will handle this. I promise you that this will be okay.” He bent down and grabbed me and put me on his lap. He started to cradle me and rock me. I pushed my head into his chest. I started to cry even more.
I seriously didn’t know how to react to this situation. Should I cry even more, or should I put on a brave face and deal with it like a grown up woman?
After a few minutes passed, I got up and walked to the bedroom. Brian followed behind me. I grabbed some pajamas and started getting ready for bed. I know it was only 5pm but I felt like I needed to sleep this off. Brian gave me a kiss on the cheek and closed the door behind him.
I quickly fell asleep.
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I woke up around 2 a.m. the next morning. Brian wasn’t in bed. I got a confused look on my face. I pushed the blanket away from me and got out of bed. I slowly walked to the door. I walked into the living room and noticed Brian sleeping on the couch.
‘Why was he sleeping out here?’ I thought.
I then realized that he wanted me to have my space and my time to think things over. I didn’t know what I was going to do. I never thought I would even have this happen to me. I was half vampire. Brian didn’t even know me. He didn’t know my past or my story. How could I care for a baby when I was still a baby myself? I began to think of the options. Adoption? Foster Care? Keep it? ...Abortion? No I could never do that to a baby. I was probably going to do an adoption.
I didn’t even know how I was going to explain this to my mother or my FATHER. My father would probably kill me. This was not going to be a good first impression of Brian. My parents were coming in only 2 days. I had to prepare for this upcoming weekend.
I finally went back to the bedroom and fell asleep again.
Brian came into the room about 10 am with breakfast. I woke up and stared at him intensely.
“Good morning beautiful” He smiled.
“Good morning.” I spoke half awake.
“Did you sleep alright my darling?”
“It was okay; I woke up in the middle of night and noticed your absence.” I spoke.
“I didn’t want to disturb you. I have come to the conclusion I won’t sleep with you anymore till you.” He said sadly.
“No, no it’s fine. I’m fine.” I answered.
He smiled and put the breakfast down on the bed. He walked over and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. I really liked this guy. I was holding back though. It wasn’t fair for him to be with me. I was lying to him and I wasn’t showing my true self to him.
I smiled and thanked him. He waved and said he had to go to work. I nodded and began eating my breakfast.
When I was done, I grabbed the dishes and walked out to the kitchen. I started on the dishes and began cleaning the house. I needed this house clean for my parents. They needed to have a good first impression of Brian, my new boy friend.