Words could never be enough
for me to express how much I'm so
thankful for all of you, but even so,
♥︎ thank you ♥︎
• • •
"Y/NN." Solar calls out. The rookie solo idol looks at her manager, humming in response. "You have some more visitors."
After Y/N had ended the call with Twice, her and her team were getting ready to leave. But since some other people wanted to see her, she drops her bag and goes to the front door to check out who it was.
"Y/NN!" The 12 girls scream eagerly before pulling the girl into a hug.
Y/N was at first shocked at what was happening, but she remembered those voices, these faces.
Holy shit.
"Aish! Loona!" She shouts. The 12 girls giggle.
"Hey, you technically have to call us sunbae you know." Yeojin says with a wicked smile.
"And you're still tiny." Y/N counters back. The other 11 girls 'oooh'ed as Yeojin pouts like a baby.
"Okay no fair Unnie!" She whines. Y/N smiles wide at her before patting her head.
"How are you girls?" Y/N asks.
"We're great!" Choerry answers. "We also saw your performance!
"Yeah you were hot!" Jinsoul says.
"Geez way to be subtle." Haseul says as she rubs her forehead in shame.
"But really, you looked amazing!" Kim Lip says with a genuine smile.
"Yeah! And now you gotta teach us the dance!" Chuu shouts eagerly, trying to dance to the chorus of your song with a 'serious' face, but instead, she looked absolutely adorable and Y/N couldn't help but be in awe.
"You're too cute unnie." Y/N tells the girl with a giggle. "I'll think about teaching it to you~"
"Y/NN, we should be heading out soon." Solar says from behind the 12 members.
"Awe!" The girls say upon hearing Y/N's manager.
"Mian girls, I have other schedules to head to." Y/N said with a sad smile. The girls pulled Y/N into a big hug, telling them to make sure she contacts them or else. Y/N did yet didn't feel threatened at the same time.
As Solar and Y/N left, Y/N noticed that heading to their van their were fans waiting in the front. She noticed how fangirls held signs with her name on it and cheers and hearts all over them. Y/N could not help but smile wide. As the doors finally opened for Y/N and Solar to head out of Music Bank, the amount of cheers filled their ears. The security team surrounded the two to make sure they got into the van safely.
"Y/NN!" A girl shouted loudly, catching Y/N's attention. "H-here!" The girl said shyly after realizing she was noticed. Y/N smiled wide seeing a boxed gift the girl prepared for her. Y/N went and grabbed in kindly from the fan, smiling wide and thanking her. The girl began to bow vigorously. "Stay healthy Y/NN!" She said.
This warmed Y/N's heart. Y/N held the box close to her chest as more fans began to ask her to take their gifts. By now, Y/N had at least six to eight in her and Solar's hands. They got into the van and Y/N did a final wave to the fans who waited before the van doors closed. The two got buckled in and headed off to Y/N's next scheduled gig.
"Wah, I can't believe this." Y/N said, looking amongst the many gifts fans had given her. Solar smiled wide.
"Looks like you're already popular amongst the females." She says, wiggling her eyebrows. Y/N rolls her eyes before playfully shoving the older girl.
Y/N began to open up the letters some fans have attached to their gifts. Reading one to herself, she couldn't help but smile. The girl was a once, she told Y/N that she always thought she was beautiful and amazing with the girls, that she was like the 10th member, and now that she is a newly debuted solo artist, she was encouraging her and supporting her, saying that she knows she will succeed and will be a fan for forever.
The letters made Y/N want to cry. They were so meaningful, heartfelt, something that made her heart warm. "Do you know where we're headed for your next schedule?" Solar asks. Y/N looks at her and shakes her head.
"No, where are we going actually?" Y/N asks.
"Idol room." Solar says with a small smile. "They wanted to be the first to host you on their show."
Y/N nodded her head slowly. She's known Doni and Coni by watching episodes where Twice was in as well as Red Velvet, Blackpink, Loona, Fromis_9, and many other goups that were on their show. She knows of how much people actually hate the two 'comedians'. She wasn't really prepared for what was to come, but she had no choice anyways.
• • •
"So today we have a special guest." says Doni.
"She is a newly debuted rookie idol under BigHit entertainment, breaking their stereotypes of only male artists, and not only is she young and beautiful, but she's also full of amazing talent." Defconn added.
"Let's bring in, Kim Y/NN!" The two say together in their pink collared button shirts and shorts. Y/N slowly walked in clapping her hands with a small smile as she bowed towards the staff and the two hosts.
"How are you, Y/NN? How's your debut been so far?" Coni asked nicely, his glasses covering his eyes.
"Good so far." Y/N said honestly with a smile.
"Ah Jin-jja?" asks Coni. Y/N nods.
"Did Bang PD-nim give you your own dorm or..." Doni asks.
"I live with my roommate still." Y/N says, her hands in her back pocket out of nervousness.
"Roommate?" Doni asks surprised.
"Ne." Y/N said. "I came here with my chingu."
"Ah for college, right?" Coni asks. Y/N nods her head.
"Speaking of, you were also Twice's manager before, correct?" Doni asks. Y/N nods her head, a small smile on her lips as she knew they were gonna bring it up. She felt from the beginning that most of the questions they would ask wouldn't always correlate to her or her first album, but more of how she got their, Twice, JYP, and all. "How did you become their manager in the first place?"
"JYP PD-nim posted about how he was looking for a short-termed manager for the girls during their break." Y/N started to explain. "So, I applied. Of course I didn't think of actually becoming their manager, like it was possible, but then I got a call from JYP PD-nim himself, and then I did an interview. After I became their manager."
"Ah so you applied?" Coni asks to make sure. Y/N nodded.
"Who was the first girl you got close to?" Doni asked. Y/N began to think. She couldn't really pinpoint who was really the first member she got close to.
"I don't think I got close to one in the very beginning." She replied. "More of, I got to talk to all of them and befriend all of them at once. They are the social type of group and they made me comfortable off the bat, besides them constantly flirting with me and trying to get into my pants." She said the last part to herself.
"How about now? How did you end up in BigHit and now an idol?" asked Doni.
"Nayeon unnie recorded me singing and sent it to JYP PD-nim." Y/N said. "I was originally a trainee at JYP Entertainment, but to fit more of my writing imagination and style, he gave Bang PD-nim a call, and then I auditioned for them and got in. Now, here I am." She said proudly.
"Wah, just like that huh?" Doni says amazed with his arms crossed.
"Well it's amazing to see you here doing your own thing now." Coni says. "Now, let's get started shall we?"
"First, we would like to be the first to see you perform it on a show your debut song, Gotta Go." says Doni. Y/N then prepared for herself to dance as Doni calls for the music. With that, Y/N goes and performs the first half of the song. What made her a little uncomfortable during her performance was Doni cheering her and barking like a mad man for a girl who passed by him he found attractive.
Once Y/N finished, she bowed and smiled slightly as the two began to clap and cheer for her. "Wah, you're truly a BigHit artist indeed." Coni complimented.
"Onto our next segment." says Doni. "Profile check! We will first see facts of what fans have said about you. We have to see if you're up to be a part of our 999 unit."
"Arasso." Y/N says nicely as she was sat at the opposite side on the square white chairs.
"So the first." Coni says before he reads off what was on his cards. "Ah this is an interesting one, there was a Twitter post that involved you." Y/N was confused at first of what he was talking about, until he spoke up once more. "There was a clip of a girl in a full on green suit with you in the back watching?"
Y/N immediately laughed. "Ne, my chingu, Mika, posted on her Twitter saying that if she got a certain amount of likes and retweets, she would dance to Twice sunbae's Fancy. When she did it I couldn't help but laugh at how it actually happened, and I had to be in it because she also put my name in the tweet."
"So Mika is the name of your best friend?" asks Doni. Y/N nods her head.
"We've been best friends since elementary school."
"Wah, it must be nice to have friends like that." says Coni. "You're both originally from America, correct?"
"Ne." Y/N replies.
"Aish of course she is, look at her skin." Doni says with no filter. Y/N's hands immediately turn into fists as her body almost got up to throw a punch at the man for saying that. Not only has the man only ask her questions about Twice, but now he commented on her skin color?
"Are you being racist with me?" Y/N asks with a killer smile. She couldn't prevent herself from saying this. Solar stood behind the cameras with her face in her hands. She was also disappointed, too, into what the man had said, but now she could not have any control for what Y/N could say right now. The whole episode wasn't going to be live, but of course the editors will likely leave this bit in.
"Eh? Aniyo!" Doni denies. "I was just saying, you know? Like you don't have the pale skin like other kpop idols."
"I guess you haven't met Jessi sunbaenim then." Y/N comments. "I didn't come on this show for you to ask me questions earlier only about Twice sunbae and how my career came to be, but to promote my album, into which I only danced to my debut song and nothing more. Now, you commented about my skin color? I may not have the pure white skin like other stereotypes for kpop idols, and I may not be the perfect idol in general, but you have no right to comment on my skin or anyones. You're over 40 years old and yet your wisdom is of an American teenager, what do you have to say about that?"
By now Doni was astonished. Not only was a girl about half his age talking back to him, but she was making him look bad on camera, to Defconn, and to the staff who worked for Idol Room. "Cut cut cut." He immediately says to the director. As the cameras go off, he looks at the idol pissed. "Who the heck are you to say all that stuff to me?" He raised his voice. Defconn stood to stop the man from being aggressive towards Y/N.
"I have every right to." Y/N says, getting up from her seat. "Your unnecessary howling towards me as I dance only shows you whistle for a women's body and the way she moves. You're not only disrespectful, but could potentially be a pedophile. There is a reason why a lot of fans don't like you and you've been talked down upon. Learn some morals." With that, the director and staff were not only impressed at the girls sudden outburst, but shocked from it.
Y/N flees the floor before meeting besides a really mad Solar. "We're leaving." She says with no other words. Y/N sighed before they went off to go back to the van. No one stopped them.
In the car ride, Solar held both hands sternly on the wheel as she faced forward only. Y/N didn't like the tight tension and sighed. "I'm sorry, I did something really bad, didn't I?" She says looking out the window.
"You did, yes." Solar says. She stops as the lights turned red. "But, I'm also very proud of you."
Y/N's head immediately turns to look at the older girl. "Eh?"
"You stood up for yourself. If you didn't say something, I would have for you." Solar explains. "That man has always been horrible to idols as a whole. I never liked him, but when you were scheduled to be on the show, I had no choice to bring you here. Now I know Bang PD-nim will never let you go on a show you and I won't want you on from now on. I'll make sure to tell him what happened."
Y/N smiled before reaching out to hug the older women. Solar smiles before resting her hand on Y/N's arm. "Thank you." Y/N mumbled over her shoulder.
"Of course kiddo." Solar says.
• • •
a/n: I just wanted to talk about how I do read comments, and some people tend to only write to update, not talk about the chapter or story as a whole, and it makes me a little disappointed. You read this story for entertainment, correct? Please understand that only asking me to update or update faster isn't going to inspire me to write right then and there, it will only distance me from doing so. I write when I have the free time to, and right now I don't even have the free time to. I wrote this chapter over the spam of days, and started it after my personal chapter.
Instead of asking me to update constantly, how about commenting how I can make this story better, maybe like who I should add and why, or what I could do more for the plot instead of nagging me to just update, because sometimes I end up writing a chapter I never planned to, to make a part of this book. I just need encouragement, not "please update".
As to discuss about my chapter before this, I am better, I am well, and I have read all through the comments. You all have been very supportive and loving and I never know what to always say or give back to you. You all really do brighten up my days with your helpful comments. I have been doing better. I had quit vaping. I still have anger problems, but I'm doing my best to get better from it.
much sincerity,
sienali.
Ps: I never got to mention it, but thank you plenty for 200K views! Love y'all (: