The events of what happened last night made me feel nervous. "He likes me... like I thought.." I walked to school. Nervous if I was going to see him. I went to the first class. About to open the door. I gulped at my thoughts. I opened it and looked up. I saw everyone but WinWin there. I sighed to myself and made my way to my seat. I looked back at Haechan, He was already looking at me. I made a quick wave. "What's wrong?" He asked me."It's nothing." I quickly made a nervous smile. I saw Mark sitting next to him, scratching his head nervously. "I wonder what happened with him and Soojin last night.." Many scenarios went through my head. Mark coughed. "So, what happened with You and WinWin last night?" Mark looked up at me. Haechan seemed shocked. "I just took him home, that's all." I got scared for some reason. "Are you sure about that?.." Mark whispered to me with a grin. I nodded quickly as my eyes widened. Haechan scratched his head in confusion. "Were you guys out last night?" "Yeah. It was last minute though. It was Y/N, WinWin, Soojin, and I." Mark said quickly while racing his eyebrows. I looked down because I was afraid of what Haechan was going to say. I was getting afraid as if we were dating or something. I just laughed at myself. Suddenly someone walked in. It was WinWin. My heart started to thump. "Does he remember what happened last night?" I looked away from him as he came and sat next to me. "You actually came today?" Mark slowly tapped his shoulder. WinWin looked back at him. "Yeah, I escaped last minute." He chuckled. "Well, you know you have to stand up for yourself one day soon, right, Y/N?" Mark tapped my head. I looked up at them. "Yeah...you should claim your own freedom." I scratched my head as I looked at him. He looked down awkwardly. I felt like he remembered what happened last night. I just don't know how to tell him the truth...I looked down at myself feeling really awkward. "Hey." Haechan suddenly said. I looked back at him. "How about we all go out to eat today?" Haechan said with a smile, he seemed to be excited. "I am good.. I will be busy with work anyway, So I apologize in advance." WinWin made a quick smile but he still looked very nervous. "Oh.. I promised a meal with Soojin." Mark leaned back. "Oh." Haechan seemed disappointed. "I can still go!" I suddenly said. His face popped up when I said that. "We should do it then." We both nodded at each other. WinWin glanced over at us as we smiled at each other. I fixed myself as the teacher walked in. I felt nervous and I could only imagine how WinWin was feeling right now. "I don't want to make him upset or betray him.. so what do I do? Should I ask for advice?" I gulped and looked down. "With exams coming up I will give you a little less to do." The teacher said. I was so distracted by other things that I almost forgot about the exams that are happening soon. I shook my head around.
After school, I started to walk to the library. I shuffled with my bag. Someone ran beside me with a big smile. I saw it was Haechan. I looked down and smiled. I was happy to see him. "Where are you headed?" He swung back and forth. "Library of course. I almost forgot that I need to study for the upcoming exams." I looked up at him. "How could you forget? silly." He lightly brushed my shoulder. "Do you mind if I study with you? I actually need help with some.. I've been too embarrassed to ask but I am afraid if I don't then I'll fail." Haechan shrugged with a smile. I wanted to focus on studying and not worry about other things as of right now. Though I didn't want to leave WinWin wondering and upset him even more, it was just awkward for me to be around him. I didn't want it to be. I wanted to smile with him again. Being around Haechan made me happy, all I could do was smile. I was sitting in the library with him and studying. It was quiet, but I didn't mind. I looked up at him reading his textbook. I smiled lightly. My heart started to flutter. He looked up and noticed I was looking at him. I looked down. "What is it?" He laughed. "Nothing. You just look so focused.. I have never thought you'd be this focused on a test.." I chuckled to myself. "Oh? why is that?" Haechan raised his eyebrow. "Well, In high school you never studied and went for it. You always aced it though regardless.." I teased. "Yeah, but this is college." Haechan shrugged back. "It's harder, Y'know?" he scrunched his nose. I laughed quietly. "What do you gain for teasing me?" Haechan whined. "You do the same thing to me, so I don't want to hear it." I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, sure. I am never mean to you." he scoffed and looked back down at his book. I rolled my eyes at him. Through the years I have known him, I saw him in a different perspective. Through all we have gone through, he's always been here to cheer me up and I could never repay him. I smiled at myself as I continued to focus on studying. After a relaxing time with him, I stood up. "I have to go and do some work." I laughed to myself. "I will see you later then.. Dinner, right?" Haechan had an exciting smile on his face. "Yeah Yeah." I quickly nodded, trying to hide my small smile. I walked away, with my heart beating.
I started to walk through the campus. I didn't tell him why I left, but I had my dance audition today. I was nervous but I really wanted to take this class. I walked in the school. The halls were empty. I took a deep breath to myself. I slowly made my way to the dancing room. I saw Chungha, Ten, and another member there. "You're finally here!" ChungHa smiled as she saw me. "Let me get dressed and I will get started." I bowed. I got changed into workout clothes. I arrived in front of them. "This Is Momo." Chungha introduced the other instructor. "We will be judging you today to see if you can get classes." Momo bowed with a smile. "Do your best." Ten added. I smiled then started the music, which I danced the way I practiced. I didn't know how it looked or how I was doing. But as I swiftly made the moves I felt so happy and free. I smiled widely as I made every step. Then I finished with an ending pose. They all started to clap. "I knew you had potential!" Chungha ran up to me with a smile. "You think so?" I said out of breath. "Yes!" The other two nodded. "I think you are great for never having classes before." Ten nodded with a slight smile. "Yeah. I will be happy to have you in class!" Momo said. I felt happy by all their words, all I could do was smile. "I have never been in a class where the students were instructors." I laughed to myself. "But, you're good teachers, so thank you for accepting me." I quickly bowed. "Yeah, we were actually promoted by the older teachers. We took on this job, and we love how we can be students and have the privilege to teach others what we love to do." Chungha seemed really compassionate, all I could do is smile over the kindness of them. I started to get really excited I could barely hold it in. "We will see you tomorrow then." Momo waved. I bowed to them and made my way out with my bag in my hand. I looked at the time and it was starting to get late. Haechan and I were planning to have dinner soon and I was happy. "We are actually going together." I giggled to myself. I ran down the school halls. I still heard some people in their clubs and activities. I then passed by the gym, the door was slightly open. I saw WinWin and Mark playing basketball together, alone. "So this is what they mean by busy?" I laughed to myself. I peaked in. I saw the sweat dripping from their foreheads. They seemed to have been playing to relieve some sort of stress. I couldn't help but worry. I accidentally leaned on the door and it cracked. I saw WinWin and Mark out of breath, stop at the sound. "Who's there?" WinWin yelled. I tried to hide behind the door. "Probably one of your fangirls again." Mark shrugged. I heard them walk up to the door and pull it open. I closed my eyes hoping it would go away. I felt a tap on my head. "What are you doing here?" WinWin chuckled a bit. I stood up straight and fixed myself. I looked at WinWin with a nervous smile. "Well.. I was just passing and I saw you guys and I got interested.." I scratched my head. "Oh, Do you play basketball?" Mark teased. I was still very nervous because of what happened last night. I looked up at WinWin and all he was doing was smiling. I just chuckled. "Not really." I slowly looked at Mark. WinWin had an awkward smile on his face. "Geez." Mark scuffed back. "I should get going." I quickly looked down and paced away. "I guess she remembered what happened last night, huh?" WinWin wiped his nose in embarrassment. "I guess so. You should talk to her about it though so it isn't as awkward, huh?" Mark quickly tapped WinWin's shoulder and turned around to play more basketball. I found myself walking through the campus really fast. I looked back to make sure no one was following me. I sighed in relief. "Why am I so afraid to be around him?" I thought. I looked at my phone and realized it was getting late. "Why has so much been happening lately?" I whined to myself. I suddenly started to get a call. I saw Haechan was calling. My heart started to flutter. I answered with a small smile on my face. "Hello?" "Is it okay if Mark and Johnny come with us for dinner?" He asked. "uh...sure!" I nodded. "Okay, cool. I was just making sure it was okay with you just in case you wanted it to be just me and you...unless?" "No, no, it's okay! I would love for them to join.." I was kind of disappointed because I did want to go with Haechan but I couldn't tell him that. "Wait, I thought Mark was busy with Soojin?" I remembered what he said in class earlier. "Oh, he said his plans changed and went ahead and invited Johnny too." Haechan laughed. "A bit last minute I guess. But, That's Mark for you." I just laughed. "Okay. That's good. I will meet up with you guys later." I hung up and put my phone in my bag. "I have to figure out what I am going to do. Things can't be like this forever." I whined to myself. "Why can't I just talk to people and tell them my feelings? why is it this hard?" I stood on the sidewalk, watching the cars pass by. I looked both ways, then I noticed Hani coming out of a salon, on her phone. She looked really pretty but didn't seem to be in the greatest mood. She walked away before I had the chance to get her attention. I sighed and looked down. For the rest of the afternoon, I just went in my dorm to study, alone. I got out my computer and started writing what I needed to write for the test and writing on papers too. I brushed my hair back as I tried to focus. "Now that I think about it, I haven't had a lot of alone time to myself and I have been distracted with so many people." I laid my head back. "I know so many people, geez." I said out loud as I realized. But, I smiled because of all my friends that I had and I wasn't on bad terms with any of them. "Why am I stressed for no reason?" I chuckled to myself as I realized it was getting late and I was getting hungry. I just realized that I was going to be late. "How could I forget. Darn." I got up frantically, getting myself ready. "My life is really just an endless cycle, right?" I thought as I put my shoes on. I ran out. It was dark. I traveled to the restaurant by myself.
As I approached the front of the restaurant I saw someone standing in front. It was Haechan, In a light blue collar shirt, and black jeans. He was looking at his phone, then put it up to his ear. I started to get a call. I saw it was Haechan. I smiled lightly while biting my lip. "Hello?" I answered. "Where are you?" He had a serious tone in his voice. "Sorry.. I got distracted studying.." I said sadly. "Does that mean you're not coming?" Haechan said loudly. "uh...well..I am sorry." I said. I grinned as I snuck up behind him, tip-toeing so he would hear me. "Seriously? was it because It wasn't just me?" He whined. He didn't hear me answer. "Hello? Hello?" He looked at his phone to see if it was still on the call. I slowly put my hand over his eyes. He jumped back with a large: "AHHHH! DON'T KIDNAP ME!" he waved his hands. I started bursting out laughing. His eyes widened as he noticed it was me. "Y/N!?" He screamed. "You tricked me!" Haechan started to chase after me. I stuck out my tongue at him as I ran away from him. "Come back!" I ran into the restaurant and looked around for the table. When I arrived there, I saw Haechan already sitting down, out of breath. Johnny and Mark were sitting across from him. "How did you get here before me?!" I gasped. "Short cut." Haechan slowly looked at me with a small smile and I noticed they were all looking at me. "You are late." Mark laughed. "Sorry." I chuckled to myself as I made my way to the seat next to Haechan. I was still out of breath. "I still can't believe you tricked me." Haechan pouted. "Yeah. It's only fair." I snickered. I looked up and saw Mark and Johnny just staring at us. My heart was pounding, and I realized it wasn't because of me running. "I just noticed I am the only girl here." My eyes widened as the foot was brought out to us. "We ordered more food for you." Johnny shrugged. "You guys ate already?" I whined in disappointment. I rolled my eyes at myself. "Yeah, But don't worry I can eat more. I'm still hungry." Haechan seemed excited and started eating his beef and rice. "Don't force yourself to eat because of me." I shrugged. "Don't worry, I'm not. Eat up." Haechan nudged my shoulder and I started to eat as my stomach growled more. "Geez, you guys are leaving us out. Maybe we should've left you two alone." Johnny laughed. I started to choke on my food. "No, it's okay. I enjoy you guys being here." I nodded quickly. Mark started to chuckle. "Could WinWin not make it?" Haechan looked at Mark with his mouth full. "Yeah." Mark shrugged back. "He got called into work." It seemed like Mark was coming up with excuses. I started to think the reason he didn't come was because of me. "Did I already hurt him?" I looked down and thought. "Why so down?" Haechan looked over at me. "It's nothing." I laughed nervously as I continued to eat my food. I glanced over at Haechan. What I knew for sure is that Haechan made me feel at home and he made me feel happy no matter how chaotic my life was. He was always shining to me. I lightly smiled as I looked down. "Your mood changed quick." Haechan teased with a smile on his face. "How is basketball going, by the way?" Haechan looked over at Mark. "Fine. Our first game is Tuesday since the new school year. I am excited." Mark nodded with a smile as he ate. "You should totally join, bro." Johnny had a smirk. "Nah. I am not really good at sports.. besides dance that is." Haechan scratched his head with slightly pink cheeks which made my heart start to feel warm. I coughed to myself. "You should join the dance team then." Johnny brought up I then remembered I made it into the dance class. "What if Haechan joins too?! will I dance with him too?!" My eyes widened. "What is it?" Mark noticed. "Are you joining dance class too?" Mark laughed. They all looked at me. I made a small node, but I was embarrassed. "Really?" Haechan said with his mouth full. "I will join then." He nodded with a smile. "Hey! don't join just because of me..." I scratched my head. "I'm not." Haechan frowned. "I am joining because I love dancing, but since you're there it makes me feel better about joining so I am not alone." I felt so stupid and embarrassed I just looked down. "Can I just be quiet? what am I doing?" I screamed to myself as I bit on my spoon. I noticed people walking in. I looked back and I noticed Hani was there with a few of her friends. She and I made eye contact. Her eyes widened as she saw me. She looked at how close Haechan and I were close. Haechan looked at me then looked back to see what I was looking at. Hani's face turned from a smile to a complete frown. I then felt uneasy the rest of the time. The boys started to leave I looked back at Hani as I walked out the door. Johnny and Mark were laughing while running down the sidewalk. I laughed at them. "Shall I take you back?" Haechan shrugged. "We are going back to the same place anyway." "Uh.. Well," I noticed Hani walking up to the door. "I have plans for a bit before going back, so you can go on without me." I shrugged. "Can I join you?" Haechan smiled. "No. Well." I flustered. "It would be best if you went and got some rest." I nodded. "I am meeting with someone so I might be a while." I gulped. Haechan looked a bit disappointed. "If that's what you want. Just make sure to travel back safe or I am going to have to punish you." Haechan pouted. "Okayyyy." I whined with a small smile. He started to walk away with a slight sway. I couldn't help but smile. I then noticed Hani walked out and stood in front of me. She was taller than me, she had a smirk on her face. "And I thought you were my friend." She shrugged. "You went going out with the guy I like... Is that why you told me to get over him?! Because you wanted him for yourself." Hani tried to act bigger than me, and I could tell she was upset. "That's not what I intended to do.. I was just-" Hani stopped me. "Pathetic. I thought you were my friend, you are just a fool." Hani suddenly pushed me with a tough look on her face. "If I can't have him I will be sure you can't either." She glared at me as she walked back in the restaurant. I started to get a nervous feeling in my chest. "Haechan will always be my friend..right? I shouldn't be afraid as long as I don't tell him my feelings." I gulped. I fixed myself and walked back to the dorm. "now I regret not going with Haechan.."
NARRATOR POV
Mark arrived back at the dorms. He walked into his dorm. His dorm mate was reading a book and looked up as he arrived. "A girl came by and brought that for you." Mark noticed something on his desk. It was a bowl of porridge with a note on it. "Just in case you are still feeling sick. Don't get drunk again or I am coming for you. :) - Soojin" The note said. Mark smiled at the note. "That's cute. Can I have your luck? She is so pretty." His roommate said. "Yeah, she's pretty and she's mine, Kun." Mark rolled his eyes. "Geez, I am not hitting on her, I am just saying." Kun shrugged. Mark looked back down at the bowl and started to think. "She really cares..but why do I still feel like she's holding back?.." Mark thought as he shrugged back and made the way to his bed.
Y/N POV
I made it to the dorm but then I started pulling on my hair. "What am I going to do when Hani comes back?! Is she gonna kill me in my sleep?!" I screamed to myself. I started to breathe heavily. "I really don't want to be here when she comes back." My eyes widened, I was too tired to even think of anything. I laid on my bed and suddenly I was asleep. I woke up, scared. But, It seemed like nothing has happened. I noticed I got a text:
Taeyong: I heard from Hani, and she apparently
hates you now, She couldn't stop ranting to me lol
Me: So you guys actually talk? geez right.. I am not afraid of her.
Me: You're not against me too, right?
Taeyong: Of course not. I am not taking sides. But, I will comfort her.
Me: How close are you guys? geez, I am your friend.
But, try to get her over him, alright? This is not for me,
but rather so she doesn't get hurt anymore.
Taeyong: I know how girls are.. geez you guys are complicated.
I rolled my eyes at the text. "Since when is he close to her?" I rolled my eyes at myself as I made my way to my classes. I slugged over since there was so much I was thinking about. While I was walking in the halls I noticed someone walk up to me. It was Lucas with a smile. "Hey." He made a quick bow. "Hey." I smiled back. "I was wondering If you could help me study? I don't really have any other friends here and Jaemin isn't good at it either." He scratched his head. "Sure." I quickly smiled as I saw WinWin and Mark approach us. "Let's go to class?" As Mark said that I looked over at WinWin, and made a small smile. His face still seemed to be nervous but I didn't want him to feel nervous. "Maybe I should just tell him what happened the other night so we can move past it.." We all went to classes. I was afraid to do that because it would have to come to me letting him down and I didn't want to risk our friendship.. I shook my head.
In the cafeteria, I got my food with a smile because eating was my favorite part of the day. I looked around to find Haechan like I always did. I went up to the table and sat across from WinWin, and next to Haechan. I looked around at everyone. "You're smiley today." Haechan leaned in and smiled. "Yeah. I mean, I have food." I started to stuff my face with a cheesy smile. "Of course! If I wasn't your best friend, food would be." Haechan teased me. I just laughed and we giggled. I looked up from eating, seeing WinWin looking at us with a serious glare. I looked down, embarrassed. "Could he know that I like Haechan?" I quickly shook my head with a smile. Haechan and I kept smiling at each other and I couldn't stop feeling happy. I didn't know why but I couldn't help myself. Afterward, I was walking in the halls with Haechan by my side. I skipped my legs. I noticed WinWin, and Mark was behind us. I took a glimpse back at them. WinWin had a slightly nervous smile on his face. I scratched my head. After the whole day had passed. I stayed at school to practice in the dancing hall alone. I looked at the large mirror and started dancing to the song I started playing. I felt so happy while dancing. I was dancing for so long, it started to get dark outside. I took a break and wiped my forehead and took a sip of my water. I was out of breath but I felt really good. "At least I get exercise and experience out of this. I can work on what I really want to do...but what is it I really want to do?" I thought. I suddenly heard a noise coming from the school hall. I thought I heard someone by the door. I slowly approached the door. I felt my heart pounding. I gulped as I opened the door. I then saw WinWin, out of breath, stopped when I opened the door. He seemed to be passing by. "What are you doing here?-" We both said at the same time. We both started chuckling nervously. "I was just dancing for a while but I guess I lost track of time.." I scratched my head. "I was just practicing in the court and lost track of time too. We better head back before we get in trouble." WinWin shrugged forward. I started to walk beside him as we tip-toed out of the halls and the building. I tried to be quiet. We arrived outside to it being dark. But the campus was lit up by lampposts. I looked down as we started to walk along the pathway together. I didn't want it to feel awkward anymore. I didn't want to hurt him..but WinWin is understanding..right? "So.." I kicked my feet. He looked over at me. "I am aware that I confessed to you the other day." WinWin started to laugh. I looked over at him. "I was way drunk but I meant every word." WinWin stopped in his tracks and I stood in front of him. "Let's sit." I smiled quickly and shrugged to the sidewalk. We both sat on a stone ledge that held the flower garden. I looked down. "I wanted to mention it to you, but I felt it was too awkward." I scratched my head. "The thing is." WinWin looked out, with suck a soft look on his face. My heart started to feel warm. "I do really like you, Y/N." He looked over at me, with a gentle, genuine smile. I felt my heart start to tense up. I didn't want to let him down. "I-" WinWin stopped me. "I know you like Haechan, though." As he said that I always felt my heart burst. "You...do?" I raised my eyebrow. "Yeah." he chuckled a bit. "I saw how you always looked at him. Like, at first I thought I was overthinking, I thought I had a chance, but The way I really think of it...The way you guys giggle and smile at each other.. it's really something different.. Like you and I smile but, it's different. The way you're with him.. your smile is bright, and I can just see it. Since I have come to know you, I've learned more about you, and I have grown these feelings for you." WinWin said that I could feel my heart sink. I really did care about WinWin. He is my friend, and one of the greatest. "But, I respect you, and I want you to be happy. So, Don't worry about me okay? I am happy as long as you're happy. If Haechan makes you happy, then I support you. I never want to hurt you or make you feel like you have to force feelings you don't have. I am here for you as a friend." WinWin looked over at me, and I smiled gently at him. I could feel his words touch me. "Th-Thank you.. Are you sure you're not hurt?" "I am not hurt. I am actually quite relieved so we can move past these things." WinWin started laughing and scratching his head. "I want to be comfortable with you again!" he started to whine. "Of course! I will always be your friend and you can always come to me!" I clenched my fist. "So, if you're ever uncomfortable or sad... just let me know and I will try my best to help you!" I pat his shoulder. He nodded with a quick smile. "Also...I will help resolve your family issue... your brother may not like me but I will help you gain your independence!" I said confidently. "Thank you. But," He laughed. "I can do it. It's slowly happening and because of you too, so thank you for everything."
That chat we had meant a lot to me. I was happy he understood and I really had nothing to fear. I felt like I kept growing my friendship with him. A friend I could always rely on no matter what he was going through. He was always there, he always smiled, and he supported me. I was happy to have a friend like him. I had realized, I can love someone so much even if they're just a friend to me. To have a big connection, and deep compassion and understanding. I had realized the love I had for my friends was great and large. The love I had for Haechan was great like that but in a different way. He made me feel at home, and no matter who I talked to, he lit me up, comforted me, and made me feel special and happy. "WinWin is right..the way I view Haechan..smile around him is different from all else."
(A/N sorry this chapter is a little boring and all over the place.. I am going to try to develop more feelings and bonds between characters and I hope you all enjoy it! I can't wait to develop the story even more!)