"As the doctor comes in he sits down beside me and says"
Lucy I don't know any other way to tell you this
I sit there wondering what it could be... Im really scared right now...
And then he says "YOUR PREGNANT"
Nooo!! This must be some mistake I have never went that far with anyone in my life...
I sit there crying, not knowing what to do or what to think ;( ;(
The doctor asks me if I wanted to have an abortion or not??
I told him that I really didnt know what to think right now, there cant be any way that I could of gotten pregnant.
But then I think...... Did Matthew and I hook up that day of the party??
I tell the doctor that I will come back tomorrow and take another test to be sure if I am pregnant or not.
And he says that thats fine " so I leave the doctor's office crying"
As I get home, my mom asks me what did the doctor say and I think to myself "I cant tell my mom yet until im sure and if I tell her I dont know how she will take it" So I just tell her something
The doctor told me to go back tomorrow to get my results to see if I have a stomach virus or not.
She says okay and then goes to the living room
I go upstairs crying and call Matthew
Phone rings***
..............No Answer...............
I call him like 10 more times and he still doesnt answer so I decide to call Anthony wondering if he's still going to ignore me
Phone rings***
"Hello"
"Hi Mrs: Susan can I speak to Anthony please???"
"Im sorry but he's busy right now with homework and such.. Can I take a message??"
"Yes, please tell him that I need to talk to him"
"I'll tell him, Have a good day"
"Okay Bye"
I think Anthony is still ignoring me and im getting a feeling that Matthew might be ignoring me to
So I stay up all night waiting for someone to call or text me
But no one does. I begin to cry and cry and cry :( :( How can I live without talking to the two people that actually mean the world to me??
I miss school again and go back to the doctor to see if im pregnant or not
I walk in shaking, biting my nails feeling so scared and nervous
They call me in to get seen. I go in and the doctor gets a pregnancy test and tells me to pee on it.. I come out and he told me that it will take ten minutes for the results to come back in
So I wait.. It seems like ive been waiting for ever
But they finally got the results back in and they call me to tell me if im pregnant or not, as I walk in the doctor stares at me and tells me "The Results Came In Positive"
I sit there crying :( :( Saying to myself "Is this a nightmare??" " Why did this have to happen to me??" and "And how am I going to tell everyone??"
I leave the doctors office crying ;( ;(
As I get home, I try to wipe the tears away from my face so that my mom wouldn't be suspicious
But as I walk in shes sitting there waiting for me to come back home
I look at her and she notices that I have been crying
Whats wrong?? Did the doctor tell you something bad??
Yes and I really hope when I tell you this you will take it well
Lucy your scaring me.. I something wrong with my little girl??
I stand there watching my mom cry and this makes me cry even more than I already was.. But I tell her
Mom..... Im pregnant ;(
WHAT??!!! AND WHOS THE DADDY??!!
I think Matthew is the daddy but I don't know how because I don't remember doing anything like that with him, but ever since I went with him to that party ive gotten sick and I don't remember nothing from that night I think I got drunk
Why in the world did you get drunk??? That's the same thing that happened to me and I ended up getting pregnant not knowing a thing... You've gotten yourself into some trouble now.. How is a boy going to take advantage of my daughter and get her pregnant??
And the worst part is, is that Matthew hasnt even talked to me since that night " I sit there thinking did I get used?? "
I then call Matthew and he doesn't answer
I keep calling and calling and still no response so I decide to drive over to his house and talk to him.. Maybe his phone is out of minutes or something
As im driving I sit there thinking if Matthew used me.. I cant stand to think that the love of my life used me but maybe im just overthinking.
As I arrive at his house, I see no lights on at his house but his room light.
So I knock on the door like 100 times, but he doesn't come to the door.
Then I remember where he left his spare key and I took it and unlocked the door "I know that this is a bad thing but I have to talk to him"
I walk up to his room and you and you would never believe what I saw!!!!!!!!!! :0