I know what you are thinking.
“*Writer-san! how can you do this to me before the joyous holidays? This is supposed to be a festive season!?*”
but bear with me XD it will get better….or worse… maybe~
Maybe I have a New year’s present for you~ maybe I don't~
Enjoy~
PEIN
<Without him… I am nothing… but why haven’t I died yet? Shouldn’t I be dead?… is this what death is? Do I remain aware in a blank lifeless state endlessly tortured by my own mind and questions? Is this hell?.... it is soo cold>
You took a breath and frowned, not understanding how you were able to breathe. You felt firm hands pressed on your chest. Was it your Kami?… Did he come for you?
For a second there, your hope had returned but it was soon blown off once more.
“Oh thank goodness. I have a pulse” Someone familiar spoke.
You tried to move knowing you were still alive, but how? you were stabbed in a vital point and lost so much blood. Only a master medic could’ve done this and what are the chances that they found you in the middle of nowhere. You opened your eyes slightly to see a glowing green light.
“Yes… finally... you are awake. You gave me a scare mistress” a man spoke.
Your eyes cleared and you tilted your head to perceive who it was and were shocked to see your most loyal follower monk over you with a smile on his face. He was the same monk that Pein let you spare. He was here next to you sweating from exerting his chakra too hard just to keep you alive.
“Jun?… how are you here?” You asked
He let go of you and took out a kunai then placed it over the small camp fire he had made next to you to heat it up “I moved to the land of Iron after you released me. the Samurais said they had the need for a medic but didn’t want to hire a shinobi…so a monk was the best option…the settlement was meters away from the battle you had caused and I was informed five of their men died… when I got there…I saw and heard everything that creature said to you and managed to pick you up, after the men left, to keep it a secret” he said watching as the kunai turned hot red then turned to you “Please bear the pain. I need to close your wound fully” He said and pressed the red glowing kunai on the wound burning the flesh making you yelp in pain. He placed his hand over your mouth to muffle the screaming until the wound was fully closed then removed his hand and kept apologizing. You felt a bit dizzy from the pain and Jun gave you some water to drink, so you would wake up fully. You took a deep breath and held on to him as he helped you sit up leaning your body against the wall. “How did it come to this mistress?… what have you seen? What happened to you?” he asked worriedly
“I was betrayed by my own Kami… he tossed me out like trash” You said sadly feeling your eyes tear up. Jun rubbed your back gently “Oh heavens no… you are too holy to call yourself that mistress… please don’t do this to yourself”
You moved him away “I’m nowhere near holy now… I feel like filth… I’m unpure”
He looked down sadly “That so called Kami… took away your purity?”
You nodded “I am tainted so you wouldn’t want to call me mistress or associate yourself with me anymore”
“None sense! I don’t think of you any less... You were tricked… I can’t blame you for having a pure heart. You meant well to him and that is all that matters. He didn’t share those feelings but you were sincere… I can only tell you that you deserve better…you deserve someone who knows your worth”
You sighed and nodded “I guess so”. You looked at your hands and noticed your Akatsuki ring was gone. Zetsu must’ve taken it to show Pein that you were dead. Even your ribbon was gone!
The monk looked at you worriedly “What will you do now?”
You looked at him deeply and took his hand in yours. He was shocked at the skin on skin contact that you had allowed him to have.
“I quit…. I’m done… nothing is working anymore… Everything seemed suspicious since the start but I chose to ignore it… The prophecy dream I had is a lie… it was just the farfetched dream of a little girl struggling with her father’s death in the war trying to make it out in this dark world not understanding that there is no such thing as fairy tales and saviors. We are all doomed….We are all gonna die a horrible death when the moon turns crimson”
He felt a bit sad and held your hand with both of his “You are just at rock bottom. You will find a new purpose and live by it, I’m sure… Because I believe in you all the way. This pessimistic talk doesn’t suit you”
You smiled and looked at him with teary eyes “I guess the Angel had found her own guardian angel” You said and hugged him tight “Thank you… you are too kind”
“You always taught me to treat people the way I want to be treated… and I’m treating you the way you always treat me...I was nothing without you! You inspired me. You changed me" he said looking deeply into your eyes. You notice he was slightly leaning in close almost barely touching his lips with yours but you pushed him back and got up
"Thank you for your help Jun san. I need to go now"
He got up with a worried look "I'm sorry, if I crossed the line...I-I didn’t mean to"
You shook your head "None sense you did so much for me here...you opened my eyes that is why I must go...the near death experience made me crave my roots....I have to visit a place dear to me to be able to clear my mind. Maybe we will meet again. Until then take care of yourself Jun san"
He gave you a sad smile and nodded "I understand...Just know that I truly love you Y/n sama" he said in a soft whispered and you turned your back to him trying not to make this harder than it already was and left the warm cave on a journey to seek back your enlightenment....your purpose.
HIDAN
You felt a wet towel on your forehead and tried to move your arms and legs but you were so weak to do so. You opened your eyes to see a nurse wiping your forehead with a small towel.
"You are awake!" She smiled and quickly got up towards the door "Shibuki sama, she is awake"
It didn't look like a hospital. You were inside a house and it looked fancy. You tried to recall what had happened and all your memories of last night flooded back as soon as you saw Shibuki enter the room with a smile "I'm glad you are awake y/n...you worried me. You were so dependent on that demon that your heart almost failed you. It is like he was almost controlling your involuntary organs, so you would use zero of your chakra and more of his. He wanted you dependent on him and not the other way around"
You frowned "I don’t care! Give him back to me...I need him....he is my family!"
The boy sighed and sat down next to you "I can’t give him back to you. He is sealed away and you finally have a chance at redeeming yourself! To be a good person in society...to be home with the people, who care about you! He isn't your family. He is a leech, a parasite!… he only wants what is best for him but never for you....name one time he helped you do something that wasn't for his benefit...he strives for himself that is what demons do!" He explained
You weakly tried to sit up and looked at him sadly "I can't stay here...I'm weak and I am no use to you....without him I can’t go back...I need to go back to-" you stopped yourself before giving Hidan away
His face dropped and he took your hand "You fell for a criminal?...y/n why did you take this road? You had so much potential...criminals like them have no feelings. They are desensitized...just like your demon"
"You always said that everyone has compassion in them...why won’t they?"
You bit your lip in frustration
"Because you are a tool to them...they are forced to interact with you to pass the time" he said and opened his hand to you "give me your slashed headband...I’ll give you a new one and pardon you of all your crimes that were carried against Taki...This is your chance to prove to me, if you are capable of good. Refuse, however, and you will be tossed in jail and be forced to face justice"
You looked at the slashed headband near your bed then at him, thinking hard about your choices. You remembered Hidan's words back when you were talking on the rooftop that night
<I never thought of leaving this stupid organization because they asked for me to join…I kind of have a weakness to people inviting me in…. I want to belong>
Hidan wouldn't pass a chance of redemption, so you did the unthinkable. You hesitantly reached for your headband and handed it to Shibuki making him smile "I’m so proud of you y/n....Good job" he said petting your head then got up calling the maid "Get her some new clothes and make sure she eats well. I'll be out" he ordered and left giving you a final smile.
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Five days passed by, and your body healed up well. The maid entered your room and smiled seeing you doing some pushups to regain your body’s strength that you lost after extracting your demon.
"Miss y/n. Shibuki wants you to dress formally for today's event. He said it is important" She informed you.
You nodded and put on your clothes then headed out to the balcony, where he would normally be but froze seeing masses of people standing outside the house. You looked at him curiously and he smiled taking you hand "Y/N F/N OF TAKIGAKURE IS BACK TO HER HOME!" He cheered to the masses and they all cheered back louder than ever. You felt your heart beat a thousand paces at all this and he turned to you as a guard approached him with a box. He opened it revealing a new Taki forehead protector and handed it to you "Y/n of the f/n Clan…Do you swear to forever strive to keep the peace and protect all those in need with your own life?" he asked making sure all the people heard.
You were extremely overwhelmed by the amount of admiration and attention you were given. It was like a dream...you now had the thing you lacked most....feelings of belonging to something…the feeling of not being alone. “I do… I promise” You nodded happily and took the headband from him giving a slight bow. It was so warm and inviting you actually felt at home.
He smiled “Then our first order of business will be to eliminate our biggest threat. The Akatsuki” He said proudly as everyone cheered. But your heart stopped hearing those words.
Did the Akatsuki deserve this? It wasn’t like you cared about the Akatsuki but you cared about Hidan the most. He is too sensitive and would be devastated and you missed him so much.
You looked at Shibuki deeply and bowed “I won’t let you down Shibuki sama and I will live up to this oath… to the letter”
KAKUZU
The sound of that horn kept getting louder and louder until you gasped and woke up in a bed… You looked around in confusion hearing the sound of an air horn and your room’s door flew open “Y/N! When the military horn goes off, I expect you to wake up!! How did you become such a useless child! You are such a disappointment to this family” A firm familiar voice spoke. You looked up to see your father at the door with a frown.
You looked around confused seeing you were inside your old bedroom and then looked at him “Dad?”
He shook his head “The clock struck past 7 am little one. That is ‘Sir’ to you. Now get dressed and hurry down now!” He ordered and left the room. You flinched hearing him slam a few doors and got up in confusion then looked at the mirror seeing your 20 year old self. “I’m… back?...how?....Was it a dream?… no impossible!” you said to yourself, but you didn’t want to feel the wrath of your father and hurried up towards your closet to get dressed then walked down stairs and stood up straight in front of him. He gave you a glare studying you from top to bottom to make sure your outfit was neat and tidy and worn right then turned around and began walking. “Since you are an hour late, there will be no breakfast for you…but today is a big day for you isn’t it?”
You looked at the calendar and saw the date. It was the same day you left the village. This was too weird. It was all the same! that day you were appointed your first official guard duty to protect the forbidden technique scrolls. You were back there again sneaking in to steal the scroll and there he was; Kakuzu was glaring down at you once more. You never noticed how handsome he looked when he was young without the stitches. You almost fell for him all over again but he was his usual cruel self. He ran off and so did you <Why did I take the same path knowing what would happen? Everything is exactly the same> You thought as you ran off from Takigakure. You reached the waters ready to dive in but you gasped and woke up in your bed once more. Your father burst through the door again yelling at you over the same thing. You got dressed once more and followed him out, got assigned your new guard duty and clashed with Kakuzu once more. You didn’t understand what was going on. You tried to take a different route while running away from Taki but the same happened you woke up back in that bedroom hearing that damn horn once more!
It happened over and over and over and after 10 times straight you lost it. You woke up and before your dad could walk in on you, you ran out the window. You hurried down the streets barefoot and reached Takigakure’s exit <Why can’t I escape?> You hesitantly touched the water with your leg and woke up in the bed once more.
You screamed in frustration and your father walked in angrily again telling you to quit screaming and get dressed but your fury got the best of you and grabbed a Kunai and slit his throat. His eyes widened in fear and he fell on to his knees in shock trying to form out some words but he fell to the ground drowning in his own blood. You stepped back in fear and let go of the Kunai. You loathed your father but this…. You would never bring yourself to kill him… you would never hurt someone close to you. You sat on the bed looking at him in disbelief until it hit you.
<Genjutsu?> You tried to undo it but it didn’t work. Suddenly the doors opened and your saw your father’s men entered the house “Sir? You are late…S-“ They froze seeing his corpse on the ground and the blood on your hands. You felt your heartbeat increase and you sprinted off from the window trying to find a way out but the Takigakure entrance was your only hope. You jumped into the water and woke up once more in bed.
You were starting to feel numb…each and every time it repeated. You didn’t understand why this was happening until you clashed with Kakuzu once more. You were getting really angry at him treating you this way, so you attacked him back with full force and alerted the guards quickly that he was sneaking in. You watched as the guards entered and held him down. Kakuzu struggled and gave you a glare “You village pig!!” he growled as the guards dragged him away.
You felt really bad for doing that to him. This village was shit and he had the right to do this. You looked down sadly seeing that the scrolls were perfectly safe now, and soon enough, your father walked in and placed his hand on your head “This was a rough day for you y/n…I was wrong about you… you are a great Shinobi and I have hopes you will one day succeed me. I’m proud of you” He said making your heart flutter. Your father never said such nice words to you and it made you feel so happy. He hugged you tight “My sweet little girl is all grown up and has matured” He said rubbing your back. Your eyes teared up and you smiled “Dad” You whispered and hugged him back tighter.
<If I never met Kakuzu… none of this would’ve happened?...I would’ve been so…happy> you thought. You have been obsessing over a criminal all your life to the extent you were willing to destroy it just to see him, when you could’ve had all this.
You frowned in confusion <Kakuzu…ruined my life?> you asked yourself. Your dad let go of you and kissed your cheek “What do you want to do to celebrate y/n?” He asked with the sweetest voice and you burst out in tears at the sweet words spilling form your father’s mouth “I want to go home dad”
He nodded and hugged you once more “Yes, home… the home you protected” He said and wrapped his arm around your waist taking you back home to rest.
After celebrating, you laid in bed thinking about what had happened but you couldn’t sleep, so you got up and reached Takigakure’s entrance once more then touched the water, but nothing happened. You stepped back and dove in to the water then reached the outside of the village and looked around feeling confused “It’s real?… I’m here…this was the right choice?” You thought sadly and headed back home.
DEIDARA
"God damnit woman what do you know about the Akatsuki!!"
You flinched each time the angry investigator slammed his hands on the table. You teared up shaking your head "I don't know....I'm sorry"
The other guards pulled him away from you and sighed "Sir calm down it is hopeless. We have been doing this for days now. She is obviously clueless the scroll erased all her memory. We should be searching the seal instead of her personally. This is all a waste of time. maybe we can revert the process so keep her alive”
You looked at them confused and the interrogator motioned for them to take you away. They grabbed your arms and tossed you back into the cell locking the door behind them. You sat up quick and got close to the bars “Please come back!! Tell me what I’ve done!” You yelled then stepped back.
You were so confused, why were you in a cell being mentally and physically tortured? You lost count of how many days passed by. The torture they used was unbearable and you had scars all over your body.
<Who are the Akatsuki anyways?... They are probably assholes for letting me endure all this> you thought sitting in the corner tiredly. You haven’t eaten for days because of them and felt your body was getting weaker and weaker that your eyes got heavy and you drifted off into sleep hoping you would just die and this will all be over.
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You heard a clank and a door open. You opened your eyes expecting the guards to drag you out once more for interrogation but this one was different. He was dressed as them and wearing an ANBU mask.
“Y/n are you alright?...we don’t have much time. I need to get you out of here” He whispered and took your arm to help you up. You didn’t know who he was and didn’t know if he sincerely wanted to help.
“Let’s go… can you walk?”
You nodded “A bit” but that wasn’t an enough answer for him, so he carried you up then sprinted out the prison. He was so skilled in dodging all the sensors and traps.
But why would a stranger come help you? Even though you lost your memory, you were not the type to have a lot of loyal friends, who would do this for you. He jumped out the prison walls and ran outside the village with you in his arms until he slowed down and dropped in front of a small house in the middle of some rocky valley. The man put you down and took off his mask giving you a smile “Remember me?”
You shook your head apologetically and he face palmed “Right sorry… you don’t have your memory… I forgot” He said then motioned you to follow him into the house. “Well me name is Ryo. I met you a while back while you were on a mission” He said
You smiled and entered the warm house. It was so homey looking but anything would look homey and warm after spending that much time in a cold empty jail cell. He told you to sit down and got you something to eat. You smiled “Thank you… if you know who I am can you tell me why I was imprisoned?… Who are the Akatsuki?”
He sat in front of you “Well they are a rogue organization working as terrorists or mercenaries for big countries in secret. They are extremely powerful and you were a member there. You got imprisoned because you were on a mission to blow up the Cloud village’s trading routes and you succeeded but got caught because you saved a little boy” He said and looked towards the door with a small smile “That little boy” He said pointing to a little blonde kid peaking at you from behind a wall.
You gave the boy a smile and he approached you shyly then bowed “Thank you for saving me Onee chan”
He was so young and cute. You took his hand pulling him close into your lap “You are welcome… I’m sure I couldn’t resist a cute face like this… you two look really similar”
“He is my little brother, Aoi kun” Ryu introduced
“How did we meet again?” You asked curiously playing with the little boy’s small hands
“I am a prison warden here but I secretly work with Kakuzu and sell him information; he is part of your organization. You were on a mission with a loud blonde once. He handed a scroll to a man I was hired to protect as my part time job, as soon as the man’s answer to Kakuzu’s request was no, we had to flee the village before your friend blew it up. I think I got him jealous because I was too close to you but it was one hell of an explosion”
You smiled sweetly “It seemed I had an interesting life then”
He nodded “You did… but was it worth it?... I mean isn’t it better that you escaped all of that?”
You looked down at the little well behaved boy sitting in your arms then at Ryu and sighed “I don’t know… I sounded like a really bad person…but inside I know I’m not. I want to remember but now that you said all that… I think it was for the better that I forget everything”
He nodded “I will steal back that scroll for you just in case you change your mind but you should know that I have no idea how to break the seal and no idea who made excatly it but I’m sure it was made by a person from Kirigakure”
“I-..I think that I would want to lay low for a while and collect my thoughts”
He nodded “I understand… my home is open for you. Stay as long as you want” he said getting up “Aoi let’s go get you into bed and let y/n eat okay?”
You let go of Aoi and watched the two boys walk out the room then looked at the warm food in front of you and smiled <Maybe I can stay for a while…it has been days already. I’m sure if the Akatsuki wanted to take me back they would’ve already…Maybe it is my chance to be a good person… This time i’m taking new better decisions>
SASORI
You jumped from tree to tree after Yuudai as he led you to the snake’s den. He stopped motioning for you to be quiet, noticing there were two sound shinobi sitting on a rock. This was your cue so you jumped of the tree and sliced up there back with the blade. They quickly dispersed and chuckled “She actually came… Orochimaru was right” the two distorted looking men smirked as the wounds on their backs closed up “A dull blade can’t do shit for us dear”
You laughed “Well that is too bad because I wasn’t aiming for that” You said and preformed a few hand signs causing the paper bombs stuck to their backs to go off blowing their spines up, killing them instantly. You kicked the bodies making sure they were dead and motioned for Yuudai to come down.
“How did you know they don’t die from just a stab?” he asked curiously
“Simple the skin color has a green like tint and their eyes are dilated despite the dark shade form the trees. They were obviously mutated and Orochimaru normally implants such things into the spine” You explained
He was intrigued by this and lead you towards the base’s entrance “That is it but I can’t come with you… for my safety” he apologized
“I wasn’t expecting you to. He is *my* catch” You said and reached for your bag taking out your old Fox mask then put it on and entered.
You walked down the stairs careful of any traps and wandered down a big hall then saw the silhouette of a young black haired boy walking towards you. He calmly passed by you and stopped “You are here to kill him?” the raven haired boy spoke as his eyes glowed red.
You smirked “I have a feeling you want to do the same....When will this guy learn to make more allies”
“You work for the Akatsuki?”
“No… I don’t work for anyone… I work for myself… the Akatsuki are my cover” You said coldly
“Take the right path and you will get to what you want” he said and began walking away leaving you at your plan. You looked at the two hallways in front of you and got a bit confused. You didn’t know, if you could trust him or go the opposite direction until you looked up and saw a tunnel in the ceiling. You jumped upwards climbing the tunnel until you emerged from a small vent in the ground. You made sure the coast was clear and rose from it, then looked in shock seeing your hunch was right.
You were in what looked like a dungeon full of imprisoned people chained to the walls and most of them were wearing Jashin necklaces. You walked between the cells looking at each and every one of them until you heard a chuckle “MY little fox has wandered in on her own… how cute” Orochimaru spoke from the end of the hall.
You walked towards him calmly “Orochimaru…we need to talk”
He nodded and moved aside so you can enter the room behind him. You walked in and spotted Kabuto inside what looked like a lab, there was a young man crying and struggling, that was strapped on to a table with tubes attached to his body. You frowned at the sight and walked over to Kabuto pushing him aside and turned off the machine pumping liquid into the man’s body.
Kabuto frowned at the action “Hey you can’t do-“
“Leave her Kabuto” Orochimaru smirked “Y/n knows best”
Kabuto nodded and walked out the room leaving you with the snake. The young man stopped screaming and was panting heavily as sweat dripped down his forehead “You always treated people like shit” you said with a frown.
He smiled “But not you”
“That is because you needed me to advance your research. It is funny how in all these year you still haven’t understood the true secret behind a Jashinist’s immortality, while I connected the dots in a mere month or so and now I have all the information I need”
He let out a dry laugh “I expect nothing less from you”
You smiled behind your mask “Well since you think so highly of me, here is what is going to happen” you said removing the tubes from the young man’s body “I will tell you all I know, if you let the jashinists go” you said reaching for a syringe nearby and opening the cabinet, searching for a solution to calm the man down from all the pumped up drugs in his body.
Orochimaru watched as you worked and thought to himself “Why do you want to free such vile people?… I am doing the world a favor keeping these destructive lunatics locked up”
“That isn’t up to you to decide. You can’t play god here… find some other rats to play with”
“You have feelings for them? Are they like your family? Or is the Akatsuki your family now because of a special someone?” He teased
You placed the syringe in the man’s arm and watched him calm down as he thanked you over and over “No… Sasori and I had a deal. You die and I will be free from the Akatsuki. I was hired to track and find you but now they want me to kill you… Despite hating you, you know I can’t kill you. So I want you to help me out and fake your death in return of me giving you all the information you need”
He looked at you deeply “What will you do after… supposedly I went with your plan... then what?”
You looked down “I’m leaving the Akatsuki and going solo….the way I used to be… back when I was happy”
He got close and extended his hand towards you making you flinch but he just pulled you close to him wrapping his arms around you “Why can’t you stay here?”
You didn’t answer and he let go “You are like my own child you know... you surpassed me in many ways” he said lifting your chin “and you’ve grown up so much… Sasuke is planning on killing me soon… I can feel it. My time is close...so stay with me until then”
“That is too long…by then Saosri would’ve clashed with the first bijuu… I need to be by him because he is weak now… I owe him that at least ”
He pulled you close and bared his fangs “You will stay” he said threateningly close to your neck but you quickly punched him in the face and kicked him away from you into the wall.
“DON’T YOU EVER TOUCH ME THAT WAY OR I’LL RIP YOU TO SHREDS!! “ You snapped then quickly ripped off the belts restraining the young man and pushed him out the room before Orochimau can get up.
Orochimaru recovered and released his snakes and you sliced off their heads, but some of them bit into your skin making you wince. You smashed your hand onto a button near you releasing all the prisoners and ripped the snakes from your skin.
He chuckled “Don’t resist y/n… you belong to me! I bought you”
“I BELONG TO NO ONE!!!” you screamed and attacked. Surely you were not as strong as the Sanin but you heard the door slam open revealing all the jashinists. They pushed you behind them and attacked the snake man with all they got and what few weapon they could salvage.
“Stop this isn’t your fight! Just run!” you yelled at them.
“No we all need to preserve our holy host!!!… After all, we are blood twins” The young man you freed spoke and looked at you deeply with a smile. You didn’t notice it until then but the man looked exactly like you and he had the same symbol tattooed on the back of his neck….He was really your twin… you had a brother.
“blood twins?” You said in shock as one of the jashinists carried you up and exited the Snake man’s den leaving him at the mercy of a hundred immortals.
KISAME
You ventured after the old man into the far away mountain and reached a mining site. Everyone working there was working like clockwork and best of all they were happy. You followed the old man into the mine, going deeper and deeper until your reached a giant metallic wall. You touched it slightly and smiled “Wow so cool… this is what the swords are made off?”
He laughed “baka that is what a small pitiful kunai is made of. The seven swords of the mist are made of metallic forged chakra!”
You sweatdropped “Then what am I doing here? Shouldn’t I be trying to forge chakra?”
He shook head and tossed you a pick axe “To understand how to make a sword you must start from zero”
You groaned in annoyance “This is going to be such a drag” You whined
“Get to work!” He ordered and you quickly began hitting the pick axe on to the metallic wall. Time flew by and you ended up staying for an entire week and it was just the intro to creating an amazing blade. You worked extremely hard hoping this would draw you nearer to your ancestors. You’ve been raised like a princess all your life in Kirigakure living under your great grandfather’s shadow. You were cowardly when it came to battle and preferred traps over anything, because it kept you away from direct battles. You didn’t want to hide anymore you want to live up to your family name.
You sat at the dinner table feeling a bit anxious because this was taking a lot of time.
The old man noticed and stopped eating “Is someone waiting for your return?”
You nodded “a week passed already… I’m just concerned that he might worry”
“He? A love interest” The old man asked curiously
You blushed and nodded “I don’t usually take so long on missions, so he must be worried sick” you said reaching for your chopsticks
“You can always invite him over…but I need to know who he is first to make sure he wouldn’t steal my secrets…unless he is the man who sent you to kill me”
You blushed shyly and smiled “No that was my organization’s treasurer who did…My man is a member. I think you know him… He is famous”
“Famous you mean notorious?” He teased making you pout
“His name is Kisame Hoshigaki” you said and flinched as the old man smacked his hand on the table “That man is not allowed here!”
You gulped “Why… you know him?”
“I knew the fool’s father! That reckless smiling idiot!” He yelled
You smiled “What a small world! How cool was he?”
“He was a moron and put the entire team’s safety at risk because he was shit drunk all the time…He was once a good shinobi. After his wife’s death he never forgave himself and became an alcoholic. The bastard had to be treated. We left the son behind at an orphanage to treat the blue idiot…he didn’t do well through recovery and took his own life soon after.. that bastard made us lose 5 of our best factions in the war!” He grumbled
You looked at him in horror “But Kisame told me his dad was a war hero!”
He shook his head “The man was no hero. He was a washed up drunkard, who died a coward because he loved his wife to bits…he tried to self-indulge in women to returns some of that love into his life but it never worked out for him”
You felt bad hearing the truth and looked down “He would be devastated to know, if I told him the truth when I see him again”
“No, I won’t allow it! You are of noble blood! You can’t mix with those filthy lowlife monsters. You will never know when they will turn on you. The Hoshigaki are the worst clan to ever thrive in Kiri that is why the Misukage exiled them”
You frowned “Not true! Kisame is different!” You yelled
“Oh really? tell me then does he trust you?”
You bit your lip “Yes he does!”
“Does he really? You said he was a swordsman. Has he ever allowed you to take his sword?”
You stopped to think and remember what Kisame said times and times before
<Can you really expect a man like me to have blind trust in you after everything?!… I’m a Shinobi! A killing machine! I need to stay on guard almost always! You really think I can blindly trust you?>
<You know I would agree to hand you my sword and prove it…but that is what you want, so I won’t give you Samehada>
You looked away “But… he said he loves me”
“Of course he did! He is a replica of his father; probably trying to get in your pants….it would be a shame, if he already did. I bet he is fucking multiple women as soon as you turn to leave. These people are animals and follow cravings and instincts. Maybe that is why they are horny all the time” the old man spat
You didn’t know what to say and stayed silent lowering your sleeve to hide some of the bite mark scars he left, so the old man stopped talking, noticing your uneasiness “Oh child… you let him, didn’t you?”
You nodded sadly and he held your hand “I only want what is best for you. Your great grandfather was like a family to me and I want to treat you the same way. You have so much potential. Don’t mix with the wrong people. They destroyed their lives with their own hands but you have strong roots and a bright future…don’t be so selfless. The weak are meat in a world like this… That is part of the Hoshigaki motto”
You teared up slightly and took off your slashed headband handing it to the old man “Can you hold on to this for me?”
He nodded taking it from you “I’ll hold on to it just to remind you about this big decision you made today... believe me it is the right choice”
You nodded sadly and wiped your eyes before the tears fell “Thank you”
ITACHI
(This is a long one…tried to summarize so I hope it isn’t too choppy)
Izuna sat in front of you with a small smile “Are you ready to start your training?... it won’t be easy and there will be a lot of death’s happening”
You sighed “Before we start… can you answer some questions of mine?”
He nodded “Anything”
“how come you are the only ancestor capable of this?”
“I think it has something to do with my children. When I got severely injured, I became bedridden and they came back to visit me. They forgave me for my actions and promised me that I will forever be with them at all times. Even after I gave my eyes to my brother… I was able to see the world through their eyes… As if they were my own. I thought it would end after death but No… I couldn’t rest… I saw everything from generation to generation. I happen to know that Madara only died 20 years ago at a really old age… I witnessed the massacre through the eyes of your distant uncle from your mother’s side and after that she was left…. I taunted her and provoked her. After losing her husband she because depressed and took her out her own eyes, so she would stop hearing and seeing me… she didn’t want you to awaken your eyes because she thought I will come after you”
You looked down “You made my mother’s life hell more than it already was… you are a monster… just like your brother”
He looked down “I want to rest… my soul is tired which is why I’m helping you”
“Yes… Your little experiment seems to be working! You are a selfish hypocrite” He didn’t answer and kept staring at you so you continued “you should know that when I acquire these eyes… the first thing I will do is get rid of you and all the pests that are trying to give the Uchihas a bad name…. we are not evil… we are not bad! It is you who made the world perceive us this way and you disgust me”
He nodded “I won’t blame you, if you did” he said and took your hands in his “this will be a long process so I hope you are up for it”
You looked at him confidently and nodded “Let’s do it”
He smiled activating his Mangekyo sharingan and looked through your eyes placing you under genjutsu.
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You opened your eyes to see that you were inside a traditional house. You heard your mother call you and you ran down stairs habitually because it was like an automated routine now. She was doing the dished and smiled at you “I made you breakfast dear… Eat up and don’t be late for your mission”
You smiled seeing her so lively. You just missed her so much and better yet she had her eyes. They were so sweet and full of compassion. You sat at the table feeling extremely happy and began eating. Your mother never cooked for you before because of her condition and it was so good.
You finished up and went to your room to get dressed but froze seeing your Konoha headband and Anbu mask. <I’m an Anbu?>
You put on the clothes and headed down stairs sitting on the porch to put on your sandals until a young man in an Anbu mask dropped in front of you “Are you ready y/n?”
His voice was familiar and you smiled “Itachi?”
He chuckled and titled his head “Who else? Does Shisui normally impersonate me when I’m not around?” He asked but you just shyly shook your head and got up to follow him. You were in the Uchiha quarters of Konoha. <What a weird genjutsu…What is the point of this?>
Itachi landed from the trees and you landed next to him seeing a young boy sitting on a rock waiting. “Shisui, we are here…what is it that you wanted to talk about?”
The boy got up and sighed sadly “I got a report from the Hokage… he said that the police brutality had increased around Konoha by 30 percent… Please tell me you have tried to persuade your father against the coup”
Itachi tensed up a bit “I was in yesterday’s meeting the clan was talking about the unfair treatment they get from the authorities. I don’t think they are backing down and y/n and I are already packed with mission, so it will be hard to watch them at all times, but I heard Kakashi san is doing that”
You tensed understanding was this was. It was days before the Uchiha massacre.
Shisui nodded “I have a plan to use my Kotoamastsukami on the Clan to change their minds… I needed your permission, if I’m going to use it on your father”
Itachi nodded “Do what you will but I propose you tell the third as well… he should be able to help”
Shisui nodded and looked at you with a smile “You seem worried y/n…relax everything will be alright”
You shyly rubbed your elbow “I know… I just don’t want it to come to this”
Itachi turned around placing his hand on your shoulder “We must do what we can to protect them” he said sweetly then took your hand “Now let us head to the main gate for our mission”
You nodded and Itachi jumped away but you stopped and went back to Shisui giving him a tight hug “Good luck Shisui… take care of yourself” You said then jumped away following Itachi.
You felt bad that you were going to hear of his death soon and didn’t know how Itachi would react. Soon enough what you were afraid of, happened. Shisui clashed with Danzo and lost an eye… Itachi told you he was worried and headed back only to find Shisui engaged in battle with the Anbu. You both swooped in to take them out and took Shisui to a safe place. He entrusted you both in carrying on his mission and handed his eyes to Itachi before plunging down to his death.
You burst out crying knowing what was coming next and Itachi cupped your face sadly “Y/n… we need to do this…for the sake of the clan… we must. I’m sorry. It is my only option” He sobbed with you holding you tight “I’m so sorry it has to come to this…but you should know I love you so very much…and I won’t let anyone harm you” He cried
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You and Itachi sprinted off into the Uchiha quarters slicing everyone in your way until you both split up to cover more ground. You were shocked at how weak they were. They barely put up a fight when surprised this way. Where were the monsters everyone was so afraid of?
You carried on feeling your heart grow more and more numb by the second until you stopped in front of your house. You gulped and got up the steps feeling your stomach turn at the deed you were about to do. You entered the house and walked into the kitchen seeing your mother only feet away. She turned around to greet you but her eyes widened “Honey you are covered in blood…did something happened” She asked worriedly and got close to hug you tight. “What happened, my beautiful flower?” She said worriedly trying to comfort you. You felt sick and wanted this to end. You wanted to wake up from this terrible dream. You teared up and tightened your hand on your swords “I’m so sorry I have to see you go again mom” you whimpered sadly and stabbed her into the chest. She looked at you in shook as she fell on to the ground with a revolting lifeless thud. You stepped back watching her shiver and spasm as she coughed out blood. You couldn’t handle this and turned around to throw up on to the ground then broke down crying. “I’M SO SORRY” you cried then stumbled back and ran outside to the garden. You saw your reflection in a nearby pond and gasped. Your eyes have changed. One of them was glowing a strong red with a strange black pattern inside and the other was a ringed purple color.
You stepped back bumping into Itachi and suddenly everything changed. You were back with Izuna standing in front of you with a smile “I can’t believe this…. You done it” he said in bewilderment. You looked around you to see the corpses of random people scattered around and understood that you were inside a small settlement that enhanced the feeling of the genjutsu. Izuna made you slaughter all those people while under a genjutsu to make the emotional impact much stronger thus triggering your eyes’ development and mutation.
You fell down to the ground weakly and felt a strong headache and a sudden sharp pain in your stomach. “What is happening?” you asked worriedly and he held you in his arms “You didn’t feel it? Months pass by and you’ve been slaughtering none stop since then with no food or water” He explained
You looked at him in shock but your body was too weak and you felt your new eyes were straining your body heavily, sucking out your chakra in masses. You closed your eyes weakly and he disappeared as you laid on the bloodied ground between all the bodies
<Killing for months?...What have I done?>
ZETSU
It has been a few days, you were in the hospital thinking about Zetsu until the nurse walked in and told you that you had a visitor. For a moment you kept your hopes up that it was Zetsu disguised as someone else but you were wrong. A red haired young man entered the room you knew exactly who he was, as he bowed formally "It is shocking to see you in such dire conditions Daimyo sama" Gaara said
You nodded "it's alright...thanks to the Hokage's care I'm feeling much better"
He looked like he wanted to say something but was holding back, so you gave him a small smile "Is there something you want to say?"
He nodded "I want to talk about what happened. Normally, when I’m suspicious of someone, I face them personally face to face but it seems I was too late, so I apologize"
You looked at him confused "What do you mean? Why are you apologizing?"
He sighed and sat down on a chair next to you “My siblings found out about you sending an assassin group to kill me back in the joint Chunin exams. I couldn’t stop them from hiring a mercenary group to kill you. I like to handle things like this on my own... I need to understand why you did it? Is it because I'm a Jinnchuriki?”
Your heart stopped hearing those words. He had traced back to you through the spies you had...but they were all Sasori's spies that Zetsu hired. Could it be the Akatsuki gave you away to have the place all for themselves. Obito had already taken over the mist through controlling the Misukage and was planning on doing the same to you. They took over your castle without you knowing it under the excuse of being allies.
But you will not fall alone. If you are going down, then you are dragging them all down with you. To hell with the Akatsuki! Now was your cue to do what Daimyos do best...victimize.
"No...I have nothing against you...I’m actually glad you survived. You are a great Kazekage and the people love you" You said quickly
"Then why?" He asked with a frown
"It wasn’t my decision!! I was pressured into it. My castle was taken over by a group of rogues. They made me take these decisions in exchange of keeping me alive!” You said cursing yourself for sounding so cowardly
He frowned “How come? Since when? Why didn’t you say anything before?”
You shook your head “Because they are always watching me! And I didn’t know what to do!...They are always around me. They set up their base in my castle because authorities wouldn’t dare search there....you need to help me or else they will have my neck" you begged
Gaara got up quick "Don't worry! I well. It is my job"
You smiled weakly "Thank you Kazekage sama...your assignment to this position was a great choice"
He stopped and turned around "Before I leave, why does that group want to kill me?"
"They don't want to kill you...they are after your bijuu’s power"
He looked a bit sad and nodded then left the room.
You smiled to see that you have just dodged a bullet but it came at the price of your only relationship. You truly loved Zetsu but...his actions don't add up. He is a dangerous man you should’ve never gotten involved with. You laid back on the bed looking out the window hoping that even though he screwed you over, that he would be safe from harm, so you can see him again and talk.
OBITO
( :”) what the hell are you doing y/n chan?)
The second day came and you felt a sudden strong tug of guilt hit you. You promised Obito you would only take a day but here you were striking the deal of a lifetime with his enemies. Your chain of thoughts and doubts were cut off when someone called your name. Kakashi approached you with a smile “Are you ready to go?”
You nodded picking up some papers and followed him. He took your to the academy first and you studied the behavior of many children whose parents died in the war, then the next day you headed to meet a group of chunins, who had many struggles and trust issues. You met a lot of adorable teens. Most of them asked you, in private, for advice about their dilemmas and you were more than happy to help.
The third day was by far your favorite because you hung around with the jonins, aka the war generation. Most of them seemed unfazed but you knew that they had buried their feelings deep down. They didn’t give you a hard time, that is until you were taken to the Hokage herself. She told you about her own difficulties and experiences and you managed to erase some of her doubts regarding her past losses and soon enough an entire week had passed and you had all these people going in and out talking to you and telling you there troubles while you guided them through.
Most people needed follow up on their progress and you now had stacks of appointments. The once thin research papers have turned into stacks of them and stacks turned to books, and books into a series, that was sold all around the Konoha village because of the amount of help and tips it had. You were blinded by the fame and glory and decided to let go of your previous life by tossing away your Kusagakure headband and accepting a Konoha one. Never had this happened in a hundred years for an outsider to win the hearts of many within the konoha walls to the extent they made you one of them.
To them, they stole away a capable researcher that enhanced their shinobi's mental and emotional capacity. To you, you were just proud that your dream was a reality...that someone actually gave you a chance.
You sat in the now new furnished office and heard a knock at the door
"Come in" you said and saw Kakashi walk in giving you a small wave to great you "good morning... you are up an early today I see"
You smiled "yeah it has been hectic but I love every bit of it"
He got close and closed your book "I think you need a break...you have been working for four whole months none stop, when are you going to take time for yourself" he said worriedly
You looked at him deeply "it...it has been that long already?....I've been here for four months?"
He chuckled "See I was right. You overworked and normally, if I do that, you would tell me to stop using my work to hide my pain and got out and relax a bit"
You laughed because he was using your words against you and you got up stretching your arms "I guess I do need a break...how about we go on a walk?"
He agreed and you both headed outside the Konoha walls strolling near the Nara clan forest. It was a quiet and peaceful day and the sun was up and shining.
"You seem a bit sad" he said
You smiled "I'm bad at hiding it"
"You should consider wearing a mask" he joked
You laughed and slapped his shoulder playfully "This generation is always so fond of hiding their face... it makes me sad that you don't trust anyone to see it"
He stopped and looked at you "well I got nothing to hide from you, y/n. No one does…your aura is just so inviting"
You stopped walking and turned to him "Can...can I see the sharingan that Obito gave you?"
He felt a bit of discontent but agreed and raised his headband to open his scarred red eye.
You looked into the sharingan deeply with a sad look. It was as if you were looking into Obito's eye to be able to apologize to him for leaving for such a long time until you looked away "I'm sorry"
Kakashi looked confused "for what?"
"Nothing I just thought I would apologize to him" you said
"You are such a sweet soul, y/n"
You nodded knowing that those words were not true "If you had one last chance to meet Obito....what would you say to him?" you asked looking into his eyes
"...I would apologize for starters. I would apologize for not being a good teammate...for letting him down...for not keeping my promise and protecting Rin...well he is gonna beat me up, if we meet in the afterlife and I wouldn't blame him if he hated me. I'm not a perfect human but to me he was" he said spilling out his heart to you and you smiled reaching out to lower his headband covering his eyes then hugged him close.
“I think you are a sweet soul too, Kakashi”