The cold wind gently blows against the black fringe over his eyes. Yoongi felt his feet taking small little steps, he was sure he is going to do it yet he's still hesitant.
He closed his eyes and breathes, it's okay, Min Yoongi, you can do it.
Do it, Yoongi.
Come on.
What if.
So suddenly, thoughts clouded his mind.
Just
What if she saw me.
What if she saw this lifeless body on the ground.
What if she blamed herself.
What if she repeated your actions.
His squinted eyes stare at the bottom, the wind comforting him, either it was telling him that everything is going to be fine, and that he should believe in himself
Or it was telling him to stop.
This time, he really felt like a criminal.
He remembered all the music memos that's still kept safe in a file on his computer. 12 years of his passion for music, is he really going to put an end to it?
No, he still loves it. He still loves it like the day he discovers music. The day he wrote his first lyrics.
He remembered Namjoon, and the rest of his members. All the things they've done, all the love and time they had given to him. All the gratitude he has for them, will they ever know how big it really is?
He sees the image of the person who he loved the most in this world. Today, she's going to see him on the ground, his heart silent and his eyes no longer open to look at her with such fondness.
And now he finally realized how beautiful his life was.
Was.
But now,
Was that certain event worth his whole life?
He was so sure just a few minutes ago.
Was it worth it?
Yoongi.
Will you regret if the first thing she hears after she comes back was that Min Yoongi is dead?
Yoongi looked at his shoes, his eyes glassy and he was sure the wind could push him off.
But it didn't.
He didn't.
He took a step back, and then another, and another.
Yoongi's knees were weak when he finally reached a certain distance. He was shaking, breaths hastily escaping his mouth.
he buried his face into his hands,
And so suddenly, he was torn apart.
When he felt warmth behind him,
when she buried her face into his back.
" yoongi! " she mumbled, nuzzling her cheek repeatedly against his jacket. " yoongi yoongi yoongi yoongi yoongi." She repeated herself over and over again, his name never felt so precious and protected, his name that left her mouth with love and despair.
There was one second where everything stopped and Yoongi looked back.
Realizing that he wasn't dreaming, realizing that she's here. He has her.
He was overwhelmed with emotions, he finally understood what happiness truly is. He finally found her, he finally finally found her.
She was overwhelmed with emotions, the moment her eyes saw the broken figure almost dangling off the edge of the building, the moment she saw his eyes from underneath, and the moment where she thought she had lost him.
" princess. " yoongi strokes her hair as he kneels down, his eyes desperate, tears smearing all over his cheeks. She looked at him with so much love and affection despite the overflowing water that wet her red scarf.
Oh how he missed those little features of her, her mono lid, her puffy cheeks, her eyes, her hair, just everything about her. And everything about her suddenly seems so much more beautiful right at this moment as if that was possible.
She looks so much more beautiful. Beautiful so, so so beautiful.
Looking at her, Yoongi realized he nearly made the dumbest mistake of his life,
Looking at her, he realizes there is no one so perfect as she is.
She let out whines as she cried, her fists hitting gently against yoongi's chest. " I hate you so much. I hate you I hate you. " She chanted, and at this point, her voice cracked more than yoongi's, her eyes pours out more sadness than him.
" princess. "
" you don't know how scared I was. " she stuttered, hiccuping as she continued to hit him, balling her fist, clutching his clothes, " you don't know how happy I was. "
" princess. " yoongi repeated. Princess. He doesn't realize how he missed that nickname so much.
she reached up for his hair, fingers running across his black locks. He felt her embracing him ever so slowly, their bodies connecting like a puzzle piece, their lips colliding, missing the other's warmth and fondness, fulfilling the lost that had broken the both of them the last month.
His hands set to her waist, his eyes close in habit.
He missed this, he missed her so much.
He loved and still loves her so much.
He breaths out, the lost of contact already made him pull her closer, but the moment she spoke, he gave her his full attention,
" I love you. I don't know what came through me that day, but -beep- I love you so much, yoongi. I hate myself, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for letting you wait for me— I..i miss you so much yoongi that it isn't funny, I miss you so.damn.much. " she rested her face on his chest as he holds a protective arm tightly around her back,
His heartbeat. So ridiculously calming and beautiful in a way that brought her to tears again.
She really left this human being all alone by himself. She really left him to wait with no idea about what was going on, with the concern that he might have lost her.
" princess- " the word left his mouth again, much more softer.
And seeing how he still waits, how he still accepts her after everything.
" thank you. "
Her breath hitches.
" thank you for waiting for me. "
" thank you for keeping our promise. "
" thank you— thank you so much. " hiccup,
" thank you for believing in me. "
" thank you for trusting me. "
Explanation - If you guys had read the Japan series I wrote a long time ago, including Ryu, Seri kidnapped and all that stuff. This series also relates to it.
And you guys know about how Seri's parents were in an accident and everybody assumed it was just a car crash and because her mother had too little blood, her father injured severely that they both died.
BUT BUT BUT— from the day Ryu was sent to jail, an investigation was held because investigators / the police was suspicious about Seri's parents' death. There was a theory that there are some hidden forces behind the person who crashed into Seri's parents' car, and so the investigation must be hold secretly and only the people who are related to it will know and no one else.
There's a small hole in this series, and it is that moment where Seri suddenly disappears, leaving Yoongi behind in that theme park. that is because of a phone call which put her into a very depressive and difficult state, and she needed to fly to Japan immediately, without informing any other relatives.
She knew Yoongi would be really sad, and she knew she won't just come back in a few days, so she did what she did, made her decision, called Yoongi, telling him to promise that he wouldn't hurt himself. ( which is slightly over the top, I know. )
The investigator informed her that they may had found some big clues to prove the theory above and they needed Seri there since she technically is the only piece of information, the only person who knows her parents.
Seri had to choose to fly to Japan, without anyone knowing. Since the death of her parents is her biggest and worst trauma she has, the gigantic obstacle that she has yet to overcome, she didn't think about it, she flew right away because her parents were important to her, and she dies to know who was the culprit behind everything.
A/N- I know, I know, you guys might tell her she's stupid for just leaving like that, but with such little time, only over 30 seconds to squeeze out a decision, I think I wouldn't have done better if I was in her shoes.
And this whole series might seem a little bit complicated, dramatic, doesn't make sense or unrealistic, I spent a lot of time on it, over two months for just a few chapters, so It's a big relief for me after this is finished.
I'm sorry if there's so many holes and things that just doesn't add up in this, but I hope you'll understand and forgive me since this is my first time writing something like this.
I also apologize for updating SO FREAKIN LATE. School starts at 1st of August for me, AND LORD SAVE ME.
Anyways, thanks for reading and have a good day guys~
P/S - If there are some Mongolian readers, uka___jk is translating this book to Mongolian, please check it out! ^^