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The rain was pouring down today aswell. Almost a day passed by but nothing seemed to have changed. I opened my umbrella and headed out of the car towards the hospital gate when something on my left caught my eye. There she stood under the shed looking worried. Something in me twisted and I wanted to go and ask her if everything was okay but I didn't. "I would never choose you..." her voice rang in my mind again. The same sentence had been going on in my head for so long, I felt like I was slowly drowning in it when it shouldn't even concern me.
The day before yesterday,
"WE NEED A DOCTOR OVER HERE!!!" The paramedics had shouted. Annaya just stood there without doing anything and many were watching this. A few interns beside me decided to go and help her but I motioned them not to. It wasn't that I was trying to make her feel embarrassed and all but it was the opposite. I wanted her to do it herself. I wanted her to trust herself and I wasn't wrong. Soon she found a way to save the patient's life and that too through a way no one had thought off.
I was very very proud and I found the perfect opportunity to apologize. I dragged her with me on a case and asked her to help me. She made the 'I wish I could kill you' face but nonetheless agreed to it and oh when she glared at that officer holding the kid down, I gulped. She was not someone to be messed with. Her demeanor completely shifted when she looked at the boy and a voice so gentle and caring, the complete opposite of what it was a few seconds ago. The kid liam surprisingly agreed. I was happy but then I realized she wasn't even acknowledging me and I fought with her again.
I wanted to punch myself but the words that came out of her mouth later on only made me loose myself more. I went away without a word and later when she came to say something I threw the same words she used prior to our little encounter.
"Ah just the man I was looking for, Dr.Shehryar. you're a sight for sore eyes." Dr. Nadia came beside me as I looked away from the shed.
"Of course. How can I help, Dr.Nadia?" I asked while trying to figure out a way to get Annaya from under that shed. Remind me, why am I worried again?
"I have no favor to ask but to simply tell you that Dr.Hassan has an important announcement to make so you better get your interns and come into the conference room. Like now!" She retorted and I smiled widely. Perfect! I will fetch Annaya for this reason, I decided but halted when I saw her crossing the path with one of my other interns, Ali, sharing an umbrella. They were both laughing and talking while pointing at something.
"I will never choose you..."
"Do you hear me?!", Dr. Nadia said and I couldn't keep my anger in me anymore. I whirled around and without a word, dashed out of there.
Why? Why would I be feeling like this? What the heck is wrong with me?! Am I insane or something? What the hell Shehryar? I yelled as my pager beeped. Ughhhhh!!! I let out a frustrated sigh and stormed off telling the nurse to get the interns and send them to the conference room, right now. Believe me, she scrambled away the minute she saw how angry I was. I couldn't believe I was this angry. I don't remember being this angry since... that day... Told you, Annaya has always had some kind of affect on me.
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"So, I have been of help to you. Will you help me please?" Ali said as I walked with him to the hospital entrance.
"I don't know what to get enaas for her birthday. I mean I want to buy something but I mean it should be good but–" he babbled as I laughed but my eyes caught Dr.Shehryar staring straight at me across the glass door and I felt like someone punched me in the gut. He turned and dashed out of there as I fastened my pace. Not caring about getting wet, I rushed inside to reach Dr.Shehryar, the need to explain and apologize getting the best of me. He closed his office door as I caught a glimpse of him frustrated.
I sat down on the benches behind the nurse station trying to figure out myself and Dr.Shehryar. What the hell is going on with me? Why do I care? Ugh I'm so done with this life.
I heard his angry voice ordering the nurse to send us to conference room and I could feel his anger. Strange right? Instead of being scared I had the urge to go and cry my heart out to him. Why, I still have no idea.
I called Ali, Ahmed and Sara and went to the conference room with them, hiding between the three. It felt so stupid to walk around like this but thankfully I quickly took my seat and diverted my whole attention to Dr.Hassan, completely ignoring the stare Dr. Shehryar was giving me since the second he saw me enter the room. I wish I could dig a hole here and hide in it.
"The camp will be of a week so pack wisely as it'll be cold and well, you'll be working on soft ground. Also that eliminations round for this year is here and I'm sorry but Danica Sarrin and Tormen Diaz, please hand over your pagers and leave." Both of them got up and after giving their badges, they both walked out of the room.
I was relieved and sad because a) two people lost their dream and b) no more eliminations. My gaze once again traveled towards Dr.Shehryar and stayed still on him. The meeting ended soon as we followed Dr.Shehryar to get informed about everything else. I stayed behind Ali, Ahmed and Sara as Dr.Shehryar told us about our stay and all. Time to time I felt him staring at me and though it is strange but it was only his stare I could feel. I was so lost I didn't realize that Dr.Shehryar had dismissed us all and that I was still standing there like a fool.
"Why are you still here?", Dr.Shehryar asked. His voice is beautiful. I could listen to him forever. WHAT?!
"Huh?", I questioned trying to make conversation. What is wrong with me? I looked at him clueless because I didn't know what to do.
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She looked like a little kid. She looked pretty. And her voice is so soothing. I want to keep on hearing it. WAIT-WHAT? hold your horses shehryar, the hell is wrong with you? My conscience spoke, angering me again.
"Not only are you dumb but you're deaf too now?" I gritted, regretting every word I said. I know it was wrong but I was angry at her. Angry for making me feel like this but ugh!
"I don't remember telling you I was. Wait, did you assume that too?", she countered back making me rethink why I was angry at her. I liked this side of her too. Also, assume? What does she mean by that?
"I assumed because you showed me that. Gotta say, you're good at that."
"What can I say, one of my many talents." She said and turned around walking out of the room, angry as ever. I watched her hunch and sigh and shake her head. Then I saw her say something to herself before she shook her head again. I laughed at this and went back to my work, smiling. Again, you see? I had no idea why I laughed at something mere like that but I did and God I wanted that little talk of ours to last long.
I have more things to be worried about like, my friend's wedding, the trip, my brother coming home and also, this strange change in me that I can't seem to resent. Sighing I continued with my work. Trying my best not to think about her.
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I wanted to apologize but it only led me to fight more. And wait, he called me dumb? Ugh, I'll show him who's dumb. Wait till we go on that camping trip. I will push you into the deep lakes or from a mountain I thought, glaring at Dr.Shehryar from across the nurse station. My phone vibrated and I took it out to see 5 missed calls from Manaal....why?....OH NO!
I quickly dialed her number as I remembered how we had planned to go shopping for the wedding and all but completely forgot about it the minute I saw Dr.Shehryar which is strange but anyway, she must've been waiting for an hour or so.
I quickly drove to the mall and found Manaal scowling at me at a distance. I gulped as I moved closer to her.
"Please don't kill me, I swear I will explain why I was late." I said holding my hands up as defense. With Manaal, you can ultimately assume the worst. Her parents had died and she had a brother who lived abroad and was married and was blessed with 2 beautiful baby daughters. I had always been with Manaal so her wedding preparation was on me too. Believe me, I was thrilled about it.
"Yeah, you better. But right now, please help me get a dress otherwise I won't have a wedding." She begged and I could see how tensed she was. I felt sorry for all the brides out there. With that, we moved towards the bridal boutiques and started trying on dresses.
After looking at a gazillion dresses, both me and Manaal agreed on a few different dresses perfect for each occasion. And we found dresses for me too which was a win-win situation for both of us.
Yay!
We had lunch where I explained the whole crash scene and then the conference and everything else except the Dr.Shehryar scene or scenes, in my case. When I finished off, we went to get some jewelry for the dresses we bought so that we could get over with the shopping dilemma and then finally, F I N A L L Y we headed home where with many thoughts whizzing around in my head, I fell asleep, on my sweet, beautiful bed.
I know this chapter is not that good enough but this is the best I can do while I'm sick. Sorry again for the wait but hoping inshallah, the next few chapters will be good. I did give a hint about the next chapters but it's better if you don't find them ;) I don't want to spoil anything for you guys hehehe
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Allah Hafiz.