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I knew Aug was hurt by what I said, but I couldn't let him believe something that was not real. We were not a couple. I was not ready for all of that. I jut got out of an abusive relationship, I was still dealing with it and it was already not easy, so I couldn't start something with August.
No, it was not the right time. I couldn't tell if I had still the same feelings for him. A part of me was sure to still love him, but another part was so confused. I was just so lost with my heart right now.
"This is too much." I mumbled to myself shaking my head. I needed to get some fresh air. As I was about to grab the knob of the door of my room, my phone suddenly vibrated in my back pocket. I was against it at first, but Aug insisted and bought me an iPhone 5c. Another thing I have to pay back.
I put the phone out, pressed the button and answered the call, " Hello ? " I was wondering who it was.
"Kim, it's me. Uh...I mean...Uh...Jill." His shyness was so cute.
I smiled, "Hey ! How are you ? " I was a bit surprised that he was already calling me since I only gave him my number like not even one hour ago, but it was good to hear his voice.
"I'm fine and you ? " He asked back politely.
"Oh...I lived better days..." I responded then sighed.
"Uh...do you want to talk about it...we can join at Starbucks." He suggested causing the smile to appear again on my face.
"Yeah, why not. I need to talk with someone actually."
"Cool ! I can come to pick you up. In twenty minutes ? Is it fine with you ? "
I nodded my head like he could see me, "Yeah, perfect. See you."
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"Thanks again for the drink, you really didn't have to do this." I thanked him for the thousand time. I felt so embarrassed not to have money to pay for a simple drink at Starbucks. I had to find a job as soon as possible. I was tired of this situation of mine. I needed a plan to improve my life.
He fanned me off, "Don't worry, it's a pleasure. So, what's going on with you ? " He asked me flashing a big smile with his perfect white teeth.
I was still amazed by his look. Puberty really did something to him. Something good. Everything was beautiful about him. And his muscles ! I could only see his strong arms, but I could tell the others parts of his body got better too. Compared to the little boy he was fourteen years ago, it was like I had someone else before me.
"Like what you're seeing ? " He asked smirking.
I hadn't even realized that I got in a trance staring at him, "Sorry, were you saying something ? "
He chuckled, "I just want to know how'd you been ? We have a lot to catch up to do actually."
I nodded my head, "Well...a lot happened to me these past years...mainly the last three years...but I don't want to talk about it." I said looking down at my fingers. I knew we were here for this, but I was not in the mood to tell him everything, "We talked enough about me, what's going on with you ? " I tried to change the subject of conversation.
He stared at me for a moment and then shook his head, "Seriously, you can tell me everything, you know. I won't tell anybody. If you need someone to listen to you, I'm here." He placed his hand on top of mine.
Suddenly I felt uncomfortable, so I moved my hand and put under the table on my lap, "Sorry." He said clearing his throat.
"No, it's okay. Uh...and I really don't want to talk about it."
I looked into his eyes and it seemed like he was hurt, "He doesn't worth it. Just go."
I was confused now, "What ? What are you talking about ? I don't have a boyfriend."
He shook his head, his right hand became a fist and he was biting on his lips like he was trying to contain his anger. Actually, all his demeneator changed in less than one minute, "he doesn't deserve you. I swear the next time I'll see him, I'll beat him. I can't let you go back there knowing that. You can stay with me."
I frowned, "What the hell ? Jill, what are you talking about ? I don't understand you right now." It seemed like he was getting more frustrated.
"Don't need to lie to me Kim. I know you. I know when something is bothering you. I see it all in your eyes. He's beating you, huh ? "
"Who ? " I asked completely lost.
"This guy with whom you were at the door. You can't stay with him."
Now I got it and I couldn't help but chuckled, "August had never been violent towards me. It's all the contrary actually. How did you come up with the beating thing ? " I really wanted to know because it was so strange how it easily read me, like I was an opened book.
"The way you reacted when I touched your hand. And you keep looking around like you're scared of someone to come and to hurt you." I was impressed, "What happened ? " He asked insisting.
"Please, can we talk about you ? " He was getting on my nerves for some reason. Why did he not want to drop the subject ?
He sighed, "Okay. But we're not done with it." Yeah, he had definitely changed within these past years. He was still shy, but he gained a lot of confidence. I was not expecting that.
The conversation continued, but it was so awkward. I really felt uncomfortable being with him. Actually, I wanted to be with August right now. I realized he was the only one with whom I could just be myself. Him and my mother in fact. They were the only one's I told everything in details and with whom it felt like I never left.
After one hour, I wanted to go home, so we left Starbucks and soon we were on our way to Aug's house. We were silent during all the car ride. I was relieved when we finally arrived.
Jill accompanied me to the door. I pulled the keys out my purse and unlocked it, "Thanks again. We'll see later. Bye." I said already walking in the house and he grabbed my forearm slightly.
I turned around wondering what he wanted. And all of sudden he did something I was not ready for. He grabbed me by the waist and brought me closer, then kissed me. I was too shocked to do something, but I didn't kiss back. I couldn't. I didn't want to. Actually, I was not enjoying it. At all. To be honest, I wished it was August.
Life is surprising...
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