Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit. I ain't ready at all. Send help!!!!
Jisoo thought, they were in silence from something like five minutes, she sure didn't want to start so she kept silent and it seemed Lisa wanted the younger to start but Jisoo's was just like, heck nah to ah to the no no no!
Lisa sighed and said «I guess you won't start. Fine. Let's start then.»
Jisoo nodded and felt her heart starting to beat faster, she was hella nervous «L-Let's start.»
Jisoo thought again..
What if I jump out the window and run away? Khm, nope, not a good idea since we're not ground level and I'm definitely not an athletic person...
«So» Lisa started «We clarified at the hospital that both of us have feelings for each other but, I know how scared you are of love, relationship and commitment.»
Jisoo got a chills down her spine at the last three nominated words and said crossing her arms «Who said I'm scared? I surely am not.»
Lisa raised an eyebrow «Oh please, stop lying, everyone can clearly see it, your so evasive about that stuff. You just got chills only by hearing those terms.»
«Whatever. You can't understand.» Jisoo pouted looking at her right
«So you admit that you are scared uh?»
Jisoo looked back at the woman in front of her, both her eyebrows raised «Wanna die?»
Lisa chuckled «As if you would be able to kill me. Now Jisoo, back to the main matter. I'll be straight, I want you to be my girlfriend.»
HOLY SHIT!
Jisoo mentally exclaimed. Her heart started pounding strong and rapidly, she felt as she would have had an heart attack at any moment, she didn't have butterflies in her stomach, no, heck she had a full zoo. The younger cheeks were red and hot, mouth slightly apart while she was looking in Lisa's beautiful brown eyes, they were so sincere and sweet.
Her mouth was suddenly dry along with her throat, her velvet voice seemed to be gone in vacation, her brain momentarily shut down. Her previously crossed arms fell limp at her sides.
Her anxiety was rising, so her breath picked up, what was she supposed to say? She was terrorized. She didn't want to be hurt that bad again, didn't want to trust someone for that someone to leave her and break her already cracked heart. It wasn't a long time since she was able to put it back together in some ways.
«Jisoo? Do you want to be my girlfriend? Yes or no?» Lisa asked sweetly
Jisoo's body completely shut down, how could a simple question which required a simple answer have this effect on her?
Lisa kept watching the younger wondering what was going with her, the younger seemed almost a mannequin, with red cheeks and eyes blinking but those were details.
«Jisoo? Are you with me? On this planet?» Lisa asked laying one hand on Jisoo's thigh, which made the latter jump a little and snap back to reality
«I-I....» Jisoo let out but stopped
Lisa took both Jisoo's hands in hers «It's a one word answer, it's simple, yes or no?»
Jisoo sighed and looked down remembering her sisters words while she was in a coma «Lisa, I» she sighed «I, I'm gonna be honest with you. It's true I am scared of all the things you said but, I have my reasons.»
Lisa pushed «Which are?»
«You know about Eun Rin cheating on me and I know Jihyo told you our story so I'm not gonna repeat it. But, that is not the only reason, as you know my biological parents divorced... You'll see, khm, my so called father told me this the day I almost died, basically, all the problems started with my birth... So, khm, my parents always loved each other, it was such an amazing relationship to be jealous about, when they had Ji Yoon they were the happiest. My dad just wanted a child, not more. But, my mom got pregnant again, of me... My "father" wanted her to abort, but she was against it, she wanted me... So they... They started fighting, things weren't bad until....» Jisoo sighed feeling guilty «Until I was born.... Things started to escalate and in two years everything became a mess, to the point where they divorced. They kept fighting, in and outside our house, that bastard, one day, he-he started hitting my mom. I was little and couldn't do anything, my mom always told Ji Yoon to bring me back to my room, you know Ji Yoon was 9 years older than me, so she understood the situation better and always did her best to keep that horrible things from me... But I knew Lisa, I always knew what was happening. I didn't know that all that mess started because of me, but since I was, you know, able to see and kinda use my own brain I knew... Plus, how couldn't I not notice my mom's bruises? I so wanted to help but I couldn't.... I was useless... I was so happy the day they divorced and we moved to London. I was 12, they divorced when I was 11. In London, when we were in London I thought everything would have changed and been better but» Jisoo shook her head «but it didn't... The first two months everything went well, then she met my second "father", after two years he moved in with us and since she had a men in her life again everything was just like before. She didn't spend much time with me and neither with Ji Yoon, our second father liked the both of us and considered us as his daughters too. But one year before Ji Yoon got killed, our biological father when we... When we were on a hike in the mountains and my second father was gone for a while along a path we didn't want to go since it didn't look safe, our biological father, well, he...» I felt tears starting to fall down my cheeks as I remembered that day «H-He killed mom. He sh-shoot her. He FUCKING CORNERED HER, ME AND JI YOON WITH A HUGE GORGE BEHIND US! HE SHOOT HER WITHOUT EVEN BULGE! ALL THOSE YEARS HE SAID HE LOVED HER! HE KILLED HER BECAUSE HE "LOVED" HER AND DIDN'T WANT ANOTHER MEN AROUND HER! NOW TELL ME, TELL ME HOW CAN'T I BE AFRAID?! HOW CAN I TRUST AND LOVE?!» Jisoo dried her tears and Lisa was connecting all the pieces together as she listened to Jisoo revealing her past «And then if that wasn't enough, after he, he killed her, he tried to push me down the cliff... He hated me to the point of wanting me dead... I survived because of Ji Yoon, who was able to take his gun and shot him in his leg and his shoulder making him run away...»
It all made sense to Lisa now, Jisoo's extremely fear of highs, that flashbacks she had on the rope training, while descending the mountains. She understood her insecurity and her fear of love and being took care of. She understood why she always wanted to do everything on her own, why she relied only upon herself, cause she always did. No matter how much Ji Yoon stayed by her side and tried to help her, Jisoo always counted only on herself. Jisoo didn't care about her life but only about others because she felt worthless, unwanted and unloved. She felt like a mistake.
It broke Lisa's heart knowing that Jisoo went through all of that and basically alone. She didn't want Jisoo to feel like that, she didn't deserve that. Lisa wanted to help Jisoo change and wanted her to love herself and be happy.
Lisa pulled Jisoo into a hug as Jisoo broke down feeling at ease in the Marshal arms and hugging the older back, gripping her shirt in her shaky hands.
«Jisoo, trust me. I won't hurt you, I will respect you and love you. I will make you change your negative and wrong mindset. I will take care of you. I will make you feel special. I will cherish and be with you through everything, good or bad times. I will stay by your side, I will protect and help you grow. I will do my best to keep you happy and healthy. Trust me Jisoo please. I won't ever cheat on you, I won't hit you, I won't do anything that could harm you or at least not purposely. Please Jisoo, be my girlfriend.»
Jisoo sniffed and slightly pulled away but still hugging each other, all she did was create some space to be enough to look at Lisa's face, in Lisa's eyes, she searched for a trace of a lie or something but there was nothing.
«Lisa...» Jisoo looked at her eyes and cracked a little insecure smile, she reached for the small box on her nightstand taking out the "missing piece" of the necklace Lisa gave her, she looked back at Lisa and nodded «Okay. I-I wanna give this a try... I wanna g-give a chance to us.» a huge smile spread across Lisa's face as Jisoo added putting the necklace around Lisa's neck «But beware Lisa, I will give you just one chance. Please Lisa, I don't wanna be hurt again.»
«You won't. I promise.» Lisa reassured for then pull Jisoo in a kiss, their lips locking, both kissing each other innocently, their kiss full of passion, love and joy. No lust or desire. Just pure love. A sweet kiss.
When they pulled away, Lisa cupped Jisoo's cheeks and dried the last tears with her thumbs. A huge smile on her face that Jisoo reciprocated.
Lisa said joy clear in her voice «Finally, finally there's a real us. Thanks for giving me this huge joy Jisoo.»
Jisoo answered back shyly «Thanks for waiting for me.»
«I would have even wait forever for you baby girl.»
Jisoo blushed rolling her eyes «Cheesy.»
I still couldn't believe I was finally reciprocating Lisa's feeling, let alone dating her. I won't lie, I won at lotto, I bet many people would have loved to be in my place, yep, I'mma gonna brag about it a little.
Me and Lisa were now laying near each other, my head on her chest as she was holding me, we were weirdly enough talking without fighting or anything.
«So Chichu, what kind of school did you and Jihyo went to?» Lisa asked me
I giggled and looked up at her «As if you didn't look up my school.»
Lisa smiled looking down at me «Busted. But still tell me I wanna hear from you and I wanna know why.»
I smiled «Fine~. So actually me and Jihyo had no idea what to do, so one day we were doing some flying yoga and made a list of what we liked and what we were capable of doing. The result was pretty clear, a music and arts school was our way. We both love singing and not to brag but we're really good, we're not bad at acting neither, Jihyo can dance, I can't but if I learn a choreography I can kinda pull it off decently. Talking about dancing, I always wanted a choreography for my songs, but I really can't come up with anything, it's stressing me. Also with all that happened I haven't had any possibility to write and that's also stressing.»
Lisa said worried «Don't stress, please, your heart might not be still fine.»
I rolled my eyes «Ya! It's fine, trust me. Plus, it's been three weeks already. Get over it.»
«I can't get over it so quickly, I was scared to lose you...» Lisa confessed
I smiled and caressed gently her cheek «But I'm here. Aren't I?»
She nodded «True. And I'm so happy about that. Oh, by the way, not to brag too but, I am one of the best dancers of the world. I could help you with the choreography too, not only with the writing process.»
My face lit up and I smiled «Really? You would really help me??»
Lisa kept her smile «Sure. I would love to.»
I hugged her «Gamsahamnida Lisa-ya! I love you!»
Her eyes widened and mines too, specially realizing what I last said. That was so embarrassing that I hid in Lisa's chest. I couldn't look at her in the face.
I heard a soft giggle escape her and her sweet voice saying «I love you too. So much that you have no idea.» I looked up at her and she pecked my lips «You're so beautiful. Remember me to thank your mother for giving you birth. The world has been blessed.»
I playfully slapped her, rolling my eyes «Ayeee! Stop it! I ain't a blessing. I'm more like a nightmare.»
Lisa said «Not really but kind of. That's why I'm gonna be sure that when you get out of the academy you'll be an amazing person.»
I sit up and looked at her challenging «You won't succeed.»
She also sit up and said «Oh I will make it, trust me.»
I smirked «Try me Manoban.»
She came near me and said «As your Marshal and you my Lieutenant, I order you to strip.»
I rolled my eyes «You pervert. That doesn't even have to do with my behavior.»
I must admit, I missed even this side of her...
I stood up from the bed and she did too, for then pin me at the nearest wall, looking at me lustfully. To be honest I wouldn't have mind a round or two now but my body didn't seem to happy about the idea, knowing Lisa's roughness when it came to sex, I'm not complaining though.
Her lips were suddenly on mine as she kissed me with so much passion and want, I opened my mouth as soon as I felt her tongue wanting access, of course I didn't want to give her control, but as always she won. The kiss heated up, but I really couldn't have stand sex with her now. Wait let me rephrase that, I couldn't have been able to make love with her for my conditions.
I gently pushed her away, making her lips leave mine who were probably as swollen as hers «We can't make love now. I'm still recovering remember?»
Lisa huffed smiling «What a tease.»
I quickly pecked her lips, for then go to my bed and wear my pants that were laying on it, as soon I was done I made my way towards the door. When I reached it, I unlocked it and turned around to ask Lisa
«Are you coming with me?»
Lisa nodded and reached me, I opened the door and we went out, I was about to walk when she intertwined her hand with mine, making me blush and look at them.
We held hands many times for our act, I didn't know why now I felt shy, maybe it was because we were a true couple now and I wasn't used to that.
I didn't take it away though, I looked at Lisa and smiled at her as she smiled back, for then walk downstairs to the others.
Descending stairs wasn't as hard as going the other way around, but I still held Lisa tight, scared I might fall for any reason related my legs.
All 7 pairs of eyes were on us, as one pair was glaring at Lisa, guess who? Jihyo.
Okay, now I really wanna know what's up with these two.
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Nyeongan! I decided to update cause I feel like so yeah here it is.
Lisoo had sailed yayyyy!!! 🤙🏻👏🏻 Gotta go out and drink!!
Tried to put some fluff in, I probably failed smh....
Ah but guess what? I'm a bitch and I love drama.... Be ready 😏
Love ya bye.
Jk, I'll greet you properly.
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Big hug and kiss 🤗😘
-Ary 🦄🌈🤙🏻
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