So I'm going on a different approach her. For this one rather than the accident I'm going off the reactions of the aftermath for both Sana and the reader.
So hope this was good.
Angst and Fluff
For kim_Nahyun1995
Forgive me on my medical research, don't know how these things work. And forgive me if I put he instead of she in some sentences...most likely.
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"She's unstable! Push fluids!"
"Is the room prepped?"
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You heard noise around as you looked with your eyes around.
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"We'll need a 5 inch blade, oxygen in the room!"
"Heart's dropping! We'll need the defibrillator!"
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Your body was in pain...major pain as you felt your body move slightly.
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"We'll need blood...what's her type?"
The doctor looked down at you as they saw your eyes slowly opened.
"Take it easy, ma'am," he said to you.
"...S-S-S..." You tried saying.
"You're in hospital," the doctor said, casting a worried glance at the monitors. "Try to stay calm..."
"Is...she...okay?" You groaned, your face paling.
Your eyes closed, as you struggled to stay awake any longer.
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A young woman paced backwards and forwards in the waiting area, others staying out of her way.
There was blood smeared on the front of her jacket and on her squirrel like cheeks.
Her hair flopped around as she moved ceaselessly back and forth, brown eyes searching the doorway when she saw someone in uniform enter.
She surged forward, her shape tense with urgency.
"My girlfriend was brought in here!" She said frantically. "Please, I need to know how she is. What's happening to her?"
The woman in uniform quietly led Sana to a chair and sat her down, watching the young woman clasp her hands in anxiety.
"What is your girlfriend's name?" She asked.
"(YN), (YN) (LN)." The brunette stated clearly. "I'm Sana Minatozaki. We're dating." The woman semi smiled.
"Okay, Sana, I know a Miss. (LN) was just brought in, she'll be fine. Can you inform her parents?"
"Her dad is overseas and she won't be here till a couple of days." Sana stopped talking as a few tears ran down.
The nurse just sat there as she patted Sana on her shoulder.
Sana blinked then swiped at her eyes. "I'm sorry...I really need to know how (YN) is. Please..." The nurse let go off her shoulder and gazed at Sana.
"It's early in the process," she reassured Sana.
"She was badly hurt. The team are working on her and treating her injuries at the moment. When she's more stable, a doctor will come and talk to you. But for now, they need to concentrate on looking after her." She rose out of her seat.
"Don't worry, someone will let you know as soon as there's any news." Sana looked down and then slumped back in the chair, her posture defeated.
"I'm sorry." She said before she left her.
Pulling her phone from her pocket, Sana stared at the screen of a happy couple, Sana being hugged by you with your (Color) eyes, a (hair style) (hair color) hair and a very cute face.
Her thumb lightly caressed your laughing face at the selfie she took of them.
"Stay with me, (YN)," she whispered. "Don't leave me."
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Sana was sitting there, as she held herself. She didn't know how long passed as she sat there waiting.
She called your dad who was overseas for work; you didn't have a mother as she was gone when you were young, and he immediately hanged up after he said he'll be there ASAP.
She then called both her and (YN)'s friends, Mina and Momo and told them to hurry to the hospital, she didn't tell them the injuries or what happened, just to hurry up.
She tried her parents, but none of them were responding.
"Excuse me? Sana?" Sana looked up and stood up quickly. The doctor looked at her as she stood up and headed towards him.
"Yes that's me."
"I'm Doctor Rim. I'm the lead surgeon and I've just finished operating on (YN)..." She gasped and her eyes widened.
"Is she alright?" she asked urgently. "Will she be okay?" She paused. "Is she still-?"
"Not quite, yes and yes," the surgeon said with fast pace.
"She will be okay, luckily we were able to stich, patch, and cast whatever was needed on her quickly...but her right leg..."
"I'm sorry, it's...not good."
Sana had her hands over her mouth.
"We tried repairing what we could, but the damage was to extensive for a full restoration, but luckily it was enough for a partial fix."
There was a long pause as she tried to process the information.
"I'm sorry, but where are her parents?"
"She only has her father and he's overseas."
The doctor just huffed as he looked at Sana.
"Well...I can't really give out infor-"
"Please...I need to know, the nurse told me you would tell me about her." Sana asked pleadingly as the people around stared at the two.
The doctor looked around and back at her.
"Come with me."
"...She's going to need surgery another time for her leg muscles, nerves and skin tissue to recover. We've done everything we can, but she was losing a lot of blood and we didn't want to risk losing more.
She stared. "She has a chest drain which will be removed when her lung is fully reinflated. And we have kept her asleep to give her body a rest and a chance to heal."
She saw through the open door.
There was no disguising the little gasp as she glimpsed the shape lying a drift of pillows, your bruised and bloodied face with unconsciousness and eyes closed.
"Can I see her?" Sana asked suddenly.
"Of course," he said kindly.
Sana went very slowly towards you.
An oxygen mask was on your mouth; the doctor said something about breathing issues, the soft hiss of air mixing with the rhythmic beep of the machines.
A sheet covered you to the waist so she could see the bruises and scrapes over your torso, along with a tube emerging from the side of your chest, the drips, wires and monitors all around.
A small sob escaped from her throat.
She saw the leg being held up, a cast that went up to your thigh, inches from your waist.
"(YN)?" she whispered. "(YN)?"
The breath of the ventilator was the only answer she received.
"(YN)?" She took your hand, feeling the cold skin of you, hand limp and heavy.
The surgeon kindly pulled up a chair and offered it to her, her hand still clamped around yours.
"She's going to be okay?" Her voice was starting to crack as the sight of her beloved lying so still and unresponsive drove her with sadness.
"We have done everything we can to save her leg and the remainder of her injuries shouldn't be life threatening...now it's up to her." She stared up at him.
"You said her leg was bad. How bad?" She asked suddenly and the surgeon sighed.
"...She might lose it."
Sana body just trembled as she rocked back and forth. The doc held her as her was struggling to breath a bit. It took a minute, but Sana was able to hold onto herself.
"B-But you said she needed surgery?"
"We'll do what we can...but even with the surgeries...the odds aren't good." he admitted.
Sana shook her head.
"She has to walk," she said quietly. "If she can't...oh god."
"I'm very sorry miss." He said, walking lightly towards the door as Sana turned her gaze back on the limp shape of her girlfriend.
"I'm here, sweetie," she murmured. "I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. And don't...don't you go anywhere either. You promised to be with me forever, (YN). You promised..."
"We'll work out whatever happens. I will always be there at your side and I am never giving up on you. I love you, (YN). I a-always have and always w-will..." Her voice cracked.
"Now don't leave me alone here. Don't l-leave me..." Tears trickled down her face as she stared at the pallid, bruised features of you.
"Stay with me..."
Even when the doctor said that the life threatening injuries were gone...she can't help but wonder.
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It's been twenty minutes since she entered the room. Still she was holding your hand as she just stared at your breathing, fogging up the mask as you exhaled.
"Sana?"
She turned around and saw their two best friends.
"Momo, Mina..." She said as she stood up.
They both saw her eyes red and her clothes still with blood on her.
Their eyes widened.
"S-Sana, your-"
"I'm fine, it's not mine." She said as the two came closer to her.
Then they both saw you and gasped as they both saw you in bed.
"It's okay. She's stable."
"W-what happened?" Mina breathed.
"It was my fault," she said tonelessly. "We were walking down a street towards my place, she was escorting me. And I stopped to take some stupid pictures of me and her together..."
"There out of nowhere...a car was heading right towards us.
"I was petrified, I didn't move at all."
"She pushed me aside and when I turned to see her..." She stared at you for a moment.
"(YN) would have been safe, if I wasn't such a...coward, she wouldn't have been injured. I did this. It's my fault."
Sana looked down as she sniffled a bit.
Momo and Mina both looked at each other and telepathically had the same idea.
They brought Sana up and wrapped their arms around her pulling her against them.
She immediately relaxed against them, her face burrowing into whoever's shoulders.
"Sana we both know that's not the true," Mina told her gently. "This is (YN) we're talking about. She loves you."
"And we both know that she's not going to blame you about it." Momo reminded her. "She just protected you."
"But she was hurt because of me..." she mumbled.
"She's so fragile right now, all I can do is hold her hand and pray."
"Sana, she'll be okay through." She shook her head and stared at the floor as she pulled away.
"...She's not going to walk again."
Momo and Mina's eyes widened.
"W-what?" Mina asked again.
"T-there's a good chance that she'll lose her right leg."
"...So there still hope then Sana."
She didn't answer as she looked down.
"When will she wake up?"
"I don't know...they said soon but not today." She answered.
"Well...let's try to get your mind off this, have you eaten?"
Sana just looked at Momo who suggested eating.
"How can you think of food right now...when she's there."
Momo opened her mouth, but closed it right away.
"Sana. You need to relax, I know the situation seems bad, but it's no good just standing here and staring. You know she'll want you to take care of yourself too." Mina stated.
Sana just looked at you as she looked away and nodded.
"You-you're right." she conceded.
"Great now what say we get some food then some fresh clothes for you and spend the rest of our time looking after her." Momo suggested as Sana nodded, but she walked back to the bed, leaning over the unconscious you.
"I'll be back soon, (YN)," she whispered in your ear.
"Love you." And then she allowed herself to be taken from her friends.
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Three days passed, and Sana and her friends joined her as they approached the hospital.
Rumors about you were spreading at school.
She didn't know how, but everyone came and gave her their apologies and how you'll come back soon.
She thanked them in a dull emotion.
Things weren't the same without you.
She wasn't the same without you and Mina and Momo were noticing.
But that was going to change.
Today your dad, who arrived, called Sana that you woke up.
Sana was thrilled and told her parents that she'll be back; she then also called Mina and Momo.
They arrived at the room and saw a familiar grown man sitting where Sana sat the past three days.
She knocked on the door and he looked towards the door.
Sana gasped as you were seen when the man moved as well.
"Sana?" You rasped and approached you in an instant, her hand closing around yours and standing up so you could see her.
Your dad didn't say anything as he nodded to you and left to give you four some time.
"I'm here, (YN)," she assured you. "I've got you."
"..." You didn't say anything as you looked at her body and face.
"(YN)?"
"...Are you okay?" Your eyes were still partly closed as you breathed out your first words to her.
Sana softly smiled. 'Of course that's the first thing she asks.'
"I'm safe." She soothed you, her hands grubbing yours. She leaned forward and kissed your forehead.
You nodded, laying your head back on the pillow.
"What no hello for us?" a familiar voice said and your head rocked sideways to spot Momo and Mina.
"Hey...you two." you spoke up as you looked at them.
Both of them waved at you. Then you saw Sana
You watched the color drain from her face as she gazed at your casted leg, her entire body tense as you moved slightly and she jumped.
"You-your leg..." Her voice choked to silence and your hand stretched out to enclose hers in her warm, comforting grasp.
"Is going to be okay." You said.
She blinked and a tear trickled down her cheek.
"I thought I'd lost you," she whispered.
"And leave you, my family and friends...no, no Sana I can never do that to you. I fought to be with you, Sana...that and the doctors and nurses helped." You said that last part comically as Sana snickered a bit.
Even in your situation, you managed to bring a laugh to her, a small one, but one nevertheless...and she loved that about you.
Her hand rose to trace your face.
"I love you (YN)." She said with a loving smile. "We're going to deal with this together."
You smiled and nodded.
But you knew Sana was struggling.
Her smile right now was fake and you know it.
You knew that she was going to be in this state for a while.
You knew you had to do something to prevent the happy, cheerful, and beautiful woman that you fell in love with from shattering altogether.
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TWO WEEKS LATER
Your dad was there to help at home and Sana didn't hesitate to stay over and help you out.
Of course you tried to get her to stop, but was met with an immediate no from her as she did what you wanted and got what you needed.
You had a checkup once again. A minor surgery to see how the leg was fairing.
...It wasn't good.
The leg wasn't healing as the doctors thought and instructed you that you'll get another checkup in another two weeks.
You were frightened.
But you kept good thoughts in your head.
You kept thinking about how you'll make a comeback.
Sana was filled with guilt.
She heard about the results
But nevertheless her parents and Mina and Momo supported her, giving her talks about how you're going to be fine.
Sana then smiled and went on the days as she kept close to you and helped you out.
TWO WEEKS LATER
The second checkup came and everyone gave you a good luck...
...it was the same, nothing changed. It didn't get worse...but it didn't get better. They saw the dead muscles and nerves.
The doctors then just gave you and your dad the bad news...it was time to let it go.
As they gave you the news, your heart stopped...you weren't prepared for this...your mind shut down as they told you the news.
While all seemed lost, your dad requested another surgery.
Some other procedure, something...just something.
The doctors argued seeing as how it may be meaningless, but you dad didn't stop to get another in another two weeks again.
The doctors then decided to try something new, it didn't bring lots of results, but it might do something.
A stem cell and nerve release surgery.
The ability to fix dead muscles and tissues using cells from other people. It didn't bring a lot of positive results, but they suggested that this will be the last attempt for you.
You had hope...little hope...little that didn't do much to you.
A week past since...
Soon everyone learned what happened.
Each day you lost hope in your body.
Each day you were more depressed.
Each day Sana lost hope in her mind.
Each day Sana's guilt ate her up.
Each day you would have thoughts...
Feeble thoughts about how weak you were.
Each day she would have thoughts
Feeble thoughts about how sad she ruined you.
It felt endless for both.
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You stayed at your place, on your couch watching a movie.
Your dad went to work, but not at overseas, but at the company here.
You weren't alone however as Mina was sick and decided to be with you for the day.
Neither talked though. You didn't say anything as Mina didn't either. She wanted to talk to you, but she didn't know what to say.
You both were just watching the movie, but you weren't really paying attention much.
Then you picked up the control and paused it.
Mina looked at you.
"Hey, why'd you paused it?"
"...Can I talk to you?"
"Sure." Mina shifted her body and crossed her legs to pay attention to you.
"I...I thought about this all week..."
"I'm...thinking about breaking up with Sana."
Then all of a sudden...
SLAP
Mina slapped you, not to hard, but not to light either.
"What possible reason do you have of breaking up with her!?" Mina yelled.
You ignored the pain in your cheek as you looked down.
"It's just...she's been here with me almost 24/7 since the incident. And I can't help, but feel like I'm dragging her down."
"What do you mean?" Mina said frustrated.
"Like, because of 'this', I can't really do anything with her...and there's a possibly that even with the surgery, I won't be able to do anything with her since she'll have to help me...for life possibly."
"After the second checkup, I felt guilty that I wanted to yell at my dad and Sana who were just trying to help. I feel guilty that I cause them to worry. My dad, Sana, you and Momo, all of you are trying to support me, to ensure I don't get down from this."
"But it's pointless...I won't be the same. And I just...I feel like, she should move on from me."
"(YN)... don't be stupid. What makes you think that, after everything you both done."
"Exactly." Mina was confused.
"We're not going to be able to do any of the 'everything' we've done anymore."
"Look, even if the slight chance that the surgery is successful, even then I still won't be at 100%. And I know Sana won't be either..."
"...I can already tell she puts a fake smile around me. I can tell she tries to be happy...but she's not...she's not and it's my fault that I'm making her feel like that."
You sat there as tears started dropping now, as you looked down.
Mina didn't know what to do as you sat there. She just moved and side hugged you as you leaned into her body.
"...(YN) you have to know that Sana is doing all this because she loves you."
You shook your head. "I can't have Sana suffer like that."
"(YN)...there is no way that we'll leave you alone...there's no way we'll change our opinion about you...no matter what we're there for you...and I guarantee that Sana would say the same if she knew..."
"..."
"You need to have a chat with her about this..."
"No, she's got enough to deal with."
"But she has to know."
"...I just...oh god..." You said as you stuffed your face into your hands.
"..." Mina just sat there still holding onto you. She didn't know what to do about this...
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MEANWHILE
Sana was hurrying at her locker, packing up and leaving whatever she needed. She was in a hurry to get to (YN) quick.
"Sana." She turned to see Momo walking towards her.
"Hi Momo."
"So off to (YN)? Is she doing well? I haven't seen her for a while now." Momo asked.
"Yes and yes. Mina is actually with her right now."
"I know, she texted me...in fact, we haven't seen you besides school for a while either." Momo said.
"Busy with (YN)." She responded.
"Sana...don't you think you should take a break...your eyes are-."
"I'm fine." She said back as she closed her locker. "I'm fine Momo."
"Sana...what-"
"Hey, Sana," Someone spoke up as the two turned their heads.
A group of students were approaching them, and led by a student named Rena Velano.
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Rena was also a student from school. The 'cool popular' kid if you will.
She had everything. Looks, money, popularity...oh and a grudge against (YN).
Even if she knew that she and (YN) were dating, Rena didn't gave up on trying to get Sana's heart...too bad that belong to one person only.
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"What do you want Rena?" Sana said already annoyed by her presence.
"Hey so a bunch of us are actually going to a party that I'm hosting tonight and I was wondering if you two and Mina wanted to come later." She asked.
"I can't, but thanks," she says, already resuming her walk towards the entrances.
"Wait Sana." Rena spoke up causing Sana to huff and turn around to look at her.
"Just one night...I promise you'll have fun."
"Sorry Rena, she said no and we're also not going." Momo spoke up as the two turned once again.
"Is it because of (YN)?" Rena asked.
Sana froze, her body tensing up. If she knows Rena, this isn't going to end well.
Not at all.
Rena likes to do this, to give out the negatives about you.
Sana just ignored her.
She loved everything about you.
Rena's flaws about you were your perfections to her.
But this time...
"C'mon, Sana, she's been outta the hospital for what? A month? Pretty sure she can survive on her own now."
"I know she can, but I'm still not going to your stupid party. I'm going to be there for her." Sana said as she turned her head, trying to keep her voice level.
"So you're gonna wait on her hand and foot like a maid forever? Put up with her desperate attention and assistance?" says Rena, laughing along with her friends.
"How about you shut up Rena!" Momo yelled at her.
"Have you been spying on me?!" Sana spoke up.
"Oh come on, rumors spread easily. I heard that she can't even stand. What's the point of being with her when she can't do anything."
Sana's blood started to boil, bubbling under her skin as she starts to shake.
Her breathing becomes harsher, jaw clenching as hard as it can.
Her hands ball into fists.
The hall goes silent as the student's around wait for Sana's response.
Swallowing her anger, she takes a few steps towards down the hall, Momo close by, but Rena isn't done.
No, she never knows when to stop.
"I mean, c'mon. With her state, what can she do with you? Just leave her already, she does nothing but hold you at home...but I can give you a fun nig-"
Sana whips around, eyes blazed with fury.
"For once in your life can you actually care for others Rena! (YN) never asked for any of this. She's gone through so much that you could never understand. She fights every day, to which I am proud of, while you stand around thinking how cool you are," snarls Sana.
"Next time you try to insult my strong, loving, responsible girlfriend, I can guarantee you'll regret it."
With that, she turned on her heel and started to walk away, until she laughed.
"Funny, and what are you going do? Oh your crippled girlfriend going to beat me up...that is if she can even walk again."
Sana stopped.
Everyone stopped.
There was no noise anywhere.
"Rena...that's a bit far..." She heard someone say.
"Rena you son of a...Sana!" Momo yelled out.
Sana wasn't angry anymore, sadness was overcoming that.
Instead she just ran, holding back the tears that were threatening to fall.
Rena's words got to her.
She ran towards the main entrance and leaves the door, but before she opened her car door....
"Sana! Sana!" calls Momo.
She stops and looks behind her for her friend to be near her.
"Just ignore her Sana she's just-"
"...Every day is a bad day..."
"Back at the incident...I just got petrified and (YN) was on the ground...covered in blood..." Her voice cracked.
"It was so hard, at the hospital, with the person you love... being with them but at the same time, separated from them because they are unconscious..."
"And the more I hang with her...the more I blame myself."
"...Sana."
"I feel lost and scared," she said quietly.
"I fear she will fall when I'm not there, I fear that something wrong will happen while she has her surgery, I fear that she will lose her leg forever...I regret so much, that I stay awake all night, thinking about her..." Her voice cracked. "And I blame everything on me."
Her friend's eyes were filled with sympathy.
"And when I do sleep...I have nightmares about that day." She closed her eyes.
"All I want...is for things to go back the way they used to be."
Immediately, Momo pulled Sana in her embrace.
"I'm just scared for her Momo...and it's all my fault..."
Momo patted her back as she heard Sana cry into her shoulder.
"I'm know it's difficult Sana...but we have one last surgery for her...she'll pull through."
"That's what she said with the first two." She said through her shoulder, muffled, but enough for Momo to hear what she said.
Momo didn't know what to do, what to say...
Sana then pulled away from Momo.
"What do I Momo?" Sana asked defeated.
"Talk with her." She shook her head.
"Sa-"
"I'm going Momo." Momo didn't stop her as she let her go into her car and drove off.
She saw her till she was out of sight.
'Sorry Sana, I can't let you feel like that any more than you have to.'
Momo then pulled out her phone and when Sana was away, she dialed a number and held it up to her ear.
"Hey (YN)...yeah everything is okay...but you have to listen to me."
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The drive to your place was giving Sana just one thought, to be around you.
And as harsh as they were...Rena's words weren't wrong.
It's funny to her...she hates herself because she did this...but she can't leave you alone for minutes.
Sana finally arrived at your place and went to the door until she saw Mina standing outside heading towards her.
"Mina? Were you waiting?"
She nodded.
"Sana we need to talk."
"Sorry Mina, I can't t-." She tried to pass her, but Mina grabbed Sana's arm instantly. Sana looked at her immediately.
"No...you need to hear what I have to say." Mina said in a serious tone.
Mina was never assertive to her unless it was something serious.
"(YN)?"
"Yeah, but it's nothing to do with the surgeries. Can we talk in your car?"
Sana then nodded and followed her back into her car.
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"(YN)." Sana called, pushing the door close behind her.
Mina told her of what the conversation she had with you...she wasn't happy...but yet she couldn't blame you.
She then saw you, just sitting on the couch.
She forced a smile as she went over and sat right next to you.
"(Y-" "Sa-" Both canceled out each other's names.
"You first." She said thinking you were going to talk to her about it.
"...Momo called me."
Sana's eyes widened. She slowly leaned away and looked at you. You were just looking forward.
"She told me what happened...about Rena...and your issues. Why Sana...why didn't you tell me about your problems?"
"I could say the same to you. Mina just told me right now about your little plan." Your eyes widened. "How could you think that (YN)!? Don't you love me!"
"I do. I really love you, but I don't want to waste your time aiding me for the rest of your life!"
"Shut up! Just stop with the nonsense (YN)!"
"I'm not the one being hurt as well San-ARGH!" You yelled as you tried standing.
You shot up from the couch during your outburst, but the sudden stand up caused your bad leg to sting a lot.
You fell forward with a startled cry, arms flying out to catch yourself on the ground. The impact is loud, rattling the coffee table just inches away.
Sana sprang forward, coming off the couch and down onto her knees next to you.
She immediately changed her anger to worry.
"(YN)!" she yells, her arm coming to your back.
You turned the other way, sobs starting as you hid your face away from her.
There was pain all around your body, inside and out.
"I-I'm fine."
Sana's heart twists in her chest, worry and guilt filling her.
"Here," says Sana gently, "let's get you up."
Sana slips her arms under your pits, as she slowly raised you up gently. You lifted yourself back down on the couch, now sitting with your leg now outstretched, still in it's cast.
Sana then sat near you and inspected your hands for any bruising or cuts.
"How's your leg?" She asked.
"..."
"(YN)?"
"...she's right." You said.
"Who?"
"Rena."
"(Y-"
"I can't even stand up without needing help. I'm such a wreck and you and my dad have to deal with all of it, it's not fair to you, Sana, I'm so sorry, it's not fair. I am such a burden on you both physically and emotionally." You just let out your emotions.
Like a little kid.
Sana rocks you side to side slowly.
She buries her nose into your hair, nuzzling against you as you started to sniffle. She couldn't help, but almost get tears as well.
She felt her shirt becoming increasingly wet, but she doesn't care. She scratches lightly at the back of your head to soothe you.
Her heart hurts with every sob she heard, with every choked back noise, with every word, with every sniffle.
She wishes nothing more than being able to take all the pain away from you.
"You deserve so much more. Not dealing with someone who can barely even walk down the hall without getting so tired that you have to assist me back to the bed. I'm sorry, Sana. I'm sorry."
You repeated into Sana's body.
You went on for a while, and Sana lets you, not daring to interrupt you.
Instead, she offered what comfort she can, pressing kisses into your hair and resting her chin on the top of your head, and waits as your cries slowly die out.
When she feels the tears still hitting her shirt, falling without a sound to accompany them, is when she starts to speak.
She didn't felt anger towards you anymore...she saw your pain and deep down she knew that you were only thinking of her...it was just a stupid idea of you though.
"You're not a burden. You're my girlfriend. You were before the accident, and you still are afterward. I never once felt like you're something I have to 'deal with'."
"You're my loving, kind girlfriend who I'm helping to get better. As long as you're safe and healthy, that's all that matters. I love you, (YN), and we'll get through all the problems and roadblocks that come with this."
You sniff, nuzzling your head into Sana's neck.
"T-thank you...I'm sorry...I love you too," You said, voice croaked, but Sana knew you meant it with all your heart.
Sana moves her hands, running them up and down your arms as you took a couple shuddering breathes. When you pulled away, Sana looked at your eyes.
She's met by (Color) eyes that were broken and dull. The corners of your lips are turned down and your eyelids are half closed. The tear streaks coming down your cheeks.
The entire sight made Sana want to wrap you up and never let you go.
Suddenly you reached up to her, gently placing your hand on Sana's cheek.
"Better?" She asked.
You shook your head.
"You're still hurting." You said to her.
"I'm no-
"Momo told me what you told her Sana...I can't have you live like that. Why didn't you tell me Sana? God even back to the first day?"
She hesitated but nodded slowly.
"Sana...you may feel like it's your fault, but it's not. It will never be your fault...I don't blame you, no one blames you for this."
"(YN)-"
"No Sana. I know right now, I'm making a big deal out of it...but hearing what Momo had to say...Sana it hurts even more that you're like that."
Sana gasped a bit as she looked down with her face becoming clearly depressed.
"I'm sorry (YN)...I really am...but I can't help it...I let the woman I love get hurt...because of me-"
"I got hurt protecting you." You said cutting off Sana.
"I even notice that you're gone...your smile, your bubbly personality, your cheerfulness it's all gone...your not the girl I feel in love with."
She frowned as tears almost came down her eyes once more. You then dragged her into a hug as she accepted it, feeling your warmth.
"Sana I apologize for being the way I am the past days."
"I know things haven't been going our ways...it sucks...I know I shouldn't be thinking about it too much...and I know you shouldn't feel terrible about what happened."
You then leaned her back, but still in your arms.
"But remember what you said when we first talked in the hospital. We're in this together, we got here together and we're going to fix our problems together. I'll be damn if another day goes by with you hurt still."
"...Do you mean it?" She asked.
"Of course I do...we'll get through this Sana...I know it's going to be hard...but we'll do it."
She took a moment as she took your words in, and nodded slowly.
"Okay...okay...but please don't break up with me."
"No no...I am so sorry I even said those words...I was just-"
"I know...I know...and I'm sorry for hurting myself...I just-"
"I know...I know." You repeated her words.
Then you leaned forward and your forehead touched hers as both stared at each other.
"I love you Sana...now and always."
"And I love you (YN)...forever and ever."
She then tilted her face towards yours, eyes fluttering closed.
With a soft smile, you tilted your head as well, meeting you in a heartwarming kiss.
But it was more than that.
Your love for Sana and Sana's love for you.
And a promise from them both that through thick and thin, they will fight, side by side, never letting the other fall.
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ONE WEEK LATER
It's been a day since the surgery. You were now lying on a bed as the doctors were now testing your leg.
All around, Sana and your dad were there. Momo and Mina as well and you both thanked them very much for a much needed talk with each other.
You didn't feel anything, but you didn't want to get into conclusions.
"Ready Mr. (LN)?" A nurse asked as you nodded.
"Now you won't feel nothing right now since the leg is numb and your body full of chems, but putting pressure on the vital points should make you feel something." She explained as she pulled out gloves.
"We'll start at the toes..."
Sana then clenched your hand as you returned with a grasp.
The nurse then poked at them.
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"Anything?"
"No." You responded
She moved up till the middle of your foot.
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"No."
She moved up to the ankle.
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"No."
She moved up to the shin.
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"No."
She moved up to the knee.
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You nodded.
"Yeah..." You spoke weakly.
Everyone had surprised looks...the nurse did as well.
"Yeah, I feel something." You said as you looked up and a tear fell.
"Well...congrats Mr. (LN)...it'll take time...but I think you'll be okay. Your nerves will get better in time, but you'll need to do some daily excursuses to work it out."
Everyone started to cheer as you laid there and cried...everyone was.
Sana the most as she showed the biggest smile she had ever since that day.
You weren't able to move yet...but it was positive results that were going to keep you lifted.
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Yesterday was the day you got some feeling back and both you and Sana were now snuggling in bed together.
Throughout the day, you both just hanged out with each other. Just the two of you.
And this time wasn't like last week with their issues...it was now 180 as both seemed like nothing happened.
Now Sana was happy, smiling away, bringing you up.
And before she was, broken as she struggled to accept it.
But you were there with her, your gentle and fun presence to anchor her through her troubled thoughts.
You were there to brighten her day, to carry her leftover guilt.
Here you were strong, positive and always there to have someone's back when needed.
And before you were, weak and at some days ill spirited as you needed help walking around to test out your leg.
And she was there to talk, when you were in pain or needing something or going somewhere.
She was there to support you, uplift your spirit and help you when needed.
All in all.
She needed you just as you needed her.
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So I had an idea of something like this when I was watching LOST when a scene happened with Locke (Don't want to spoil those who haven't seen this 9 year show now, really good though)
So I decided to put my own thoughts into that and put this out.
I was so heavily lost (heh) when writing this. My plot just kept coming and going and I literally stopped and just rewrote the entire plot of this.
I tried playing the emotions of how both the characters would feel. Sana with guilt and remorse and you with sorrow and shame. Hopefully I nailed it...if not, well you readers would comment on that.
Thanks for taking a pause in your life to reading this. Vote/Comment if you want. And thanks again.