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Chapter seventeen
*WARNING*
My entire body filled with relief as my eyes scanned over his entire body stopping at his eyes. They saw happiness, relief, and... love? I took in every detail of him, never wanting to look away, to never be away from him ever again. There were so many things I wanted to tell him I just didn't know how. Tell him how I felt, about my past, about who Maverick Petrov is to me, everything I wanted him to finally know. But that wasn't what came out when I finally found my voice.
"Is he here? Please tell me he's okay!" I whispered.
He nodded his head and we fell back into silence as we took each other in. I was about to say something when Nate stepped out into the rain, grabbed my face, and crashed his lips to mine. Fire. That's how I would describe it. My entire body went up in flames, my lips were tingling, and I felt warmth and electricity rush through my entire body. The intensity of the kiss was overwhelming but I wanted, no, I needed more. I brought my hands up to his face and pulled him into me closer. He slowly brought his hands down my body, gripped onto my a**, and picked me up easily, never breaking the kiss. I wrapped my legs around his hips and laced my fingers through his hair, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. I clung to his body like a life line as he moved out of the rain, back into the house. I heard the door close and lock as he made his way up the stairs never taking his lips away from mine. They fit so perfectly to mine it was like he was made for me and I was made for him. The softness, the gentleness of the kiss, it was so unreal I actually thought for a minute that I had been shot back in the warehouse and died and thought this was what heaven was like. Here, now, it was perfect. Still holding me, he took my hoodie off and dropped it to the ground.
He stopped kissing me, our breathing came out ragged and breathless, and took a look at his hand; it was soaked in red. He looked down at my arm and looked back at me worriedly "Dog." I whispered out of breath and shrugged my shoulders. He closed his eyes and groaned. I shimmied myself a little so I could pull his shirt up and off his body. I noticed we were in the middle of his bathroom so I wasn't too worried about getting blood anywhere at the moment. I looked back into his eyes and found love and compassion. I couldn't breathe; I needed him like I needed air. I pulled him back to my lips frantically and felt him respond immediately. He started moving again and I heard the rain showers pouring down gently a minute later. I kicked off my shoes as he put me down, untied and slid off my black Adidas soccer warm up pants down. I unbuttoned his jeans and let them drop. I looked back up into his face and smiled a small shy smile at him. He brought his hands down and cupped my cheeks and kissed me like there was no tomorrow. I can't really tell you how the rest of the clothes we had on came off because I don't even know. We were now in the shower; I was back in his arms as he held me against the shower wall, moving from my lips to my cheek, across my jaw line, down my neck with a few small bites here and there, across my collar bone as his hand caressed my breast tenderly. I leaned my head back against the wall and closed my eyes, moaning, my body in complete ecstasy. He kissed back upto my lips and slid his tongue across the bottom of my lip asking for entrance. I was more than eager to let him in without teasing first. I felt his minty tongue explore my mouth as I explored his only making me want him even more. I had never been this far with a boy before. No guy has ever seen me naked let alone touched me in places or kissed me in places that Nate was doing now. Usually I never let anything go past a kiss, but with him, I felt so comfortable, so safe, it felt so right to be with him like this, my mind, body, and soul yearned for his compassion, his touch, his soft lips. We moved out of the shower and he set me on the counter, then started shuffling through his medicine cabinet. I couldn't help but look at his perfectly sculpted ass. I bit my lip and suppressed a groan. When he turned around and saw me face he started to laugh. "Were you just checking my butt out?!" he said through laughter.
I nodded my head smiling like a little kid that was just caught with her hand in the cookie jar. He shook his head and rolled his eyes as he carried medical supplies over to me. I looked at him questioningly. "I can't let your dog bite go not taken care of." He said if it was the most obvious thing in the world. I didn't respond and watched him disinfect and clean my bite, apply Neosporin, wrapped my harm in gauze wrap, then wrapped it in stretchy medical tape. When he was finish he kissed all the way up my wrapped arm, across my collar bone, down my chest, and dragged his lips lightly over my n*pple then bit it even more lightly. This time I couldn't suppress my moan, which seemed to make Nate smile. He picked me back up off the counter and carried me back to his bed. He laid half on top of me half off of me as he continued to kiss me, he started trailing his hand down from my cheek, down my neck, slowly down my breast, across my stomach, and in between my legs. My entire body was aching at his touch as our breathing grew heavier. He slipped his fingers inside me and I gasped. I never realized how much that would actually hurt. Nate pulled away and looked at me with wide eyes in surprise. "Are you a virgin?" he asked breathlessly.
I felt the heat rise in my face and the color spread in my cheeks. I nodded my head yes not trusting my voice not to quiver.
"Oh my god. I'm so sorry, I didn't know." He said and started to pull his hand away looking scared.
I grabbed his hand before he could pull all the way out and held it there. "Don't." I whispered as my chest rose and fell hard as I tried to control my breathing.
"Are you sure? I promise I can wait and slow things down. I'll wait until you're ready. I'm fine with just kissing you, I swear!" he said a little panicky.
I couldn't help but laugh. "Nate?"
"Yea?" he asked worriedly
"Shut up and kiss me!"
His smile was blinding as he stroked my cheek with his free hand and lowered his face slowly to mine until his lips slowly pressed into mine.
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"COUGH COUGH!!" I heard a voice at the side of my bed.
I felt strong arms tighten their hold around me and as I turned and leaned into him and took a deep inhale and smelled that familiar smell. It made me smile as I snuggle closer to him. I was so happy because this was the first night I didn't have a nightmare about the murder of my parents and wake up in a cold sweat in almost nine years exactly in two days.
I heard some clear there throat five more times loudly before I opened my eyes, to Baize, standing there with the biggest grin on his face. My mouth dropped open and I felt my cheeks starting to heat up as the color rose in my face as my brother kept smiling down at me. I realized that the comforter was down by our hips and the only thing that covered me was being in Nate's arms. I groaned and hid my face from him in Nate's chest. I cringed at the thought of finally having to sit down and have "the talk" with Baize.
"You know, you two sleep like the dead. I've been standing here for ten minutes trying to wake you up. A little too much fun last night?!" Baize was smiling from ear to ear and winked at Nate.
I literally choked before finding my words and actually forming a comprehendible sentence. "I'm still a proud holder of my V card. And oh my god Baize, you did not just say that!" I said as I pulled the covers up to cover our bare skin
"What! Why!? What's wrong with you Nate!?" Baize said putting his hands on his hips.
My head snapped up and my eyes went wide as I glared at Baize. "What is that supposed to mean, Bay!" I demanded harshly.
"Uhhh. I'm hungry! It's 6:30am, so get up and get ready for school. I'll be down stairs eating breakfast. Your maid, Marcie, said she would make chocolate chip pancakes. MMMM!" he said rubbing his belly before sprinting out of the room.
I snapped my head back around to interrogate Nate for answers, but as soon as my head was turned towards him he grabbed my face and crashed my lips to his making me forget what I was just about to yell at him for. I pulled away, gasped, and put my hand over my mouth. He looked at me confused and I could have sworn I saw a little hurt flash across his face. "Morning breath." I mumbled through my hand and shot out of the bed. Completely forgetting I was naked until I heard Nate groan from behind me still in bed. I opened a drawer and pulled out a toothbrush that was still in its plastic package. I felt Nate come up behind me and reach for his tooth brush, leaving his body slightly pressed up against mine. I shifted my weight slightly and a few seconds later felt Nate's man hood down stairs start to stir. I couldn't help but laugh and saw the foam from my tooth paste spray everywhere; including the mirror.
"What!? You try being a guy and having a drop dead gorgeous standing in front of you... naked!" he said as his eyes trailed down my body. I slowly brushed my body against his as I shifted from one side to the other. I watched Nate as he closed his eyes and groan as he continued to brush his teeth. When we were both done I turned around in his grasp making sure both my back and front side brush slowly against his body and looked into his face with amusement. I raised my eyebrows, looked down, then back up to his eyes tauntingly.
"Gorgeous, huh?" I said as I put one hand on his chest and pushed him back, leading him blindly to the shower.
I pushed him inside and jumped into his arms, wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs around his hips. I leaned into him and twisted both knobs turning the rain showers on. When I pulled myself back to face him, my eyes were glued to his. We stayed silent just staring into each other's eyes as the water fell lightly against our skin. I couldn't move, I could barely breath, his eyes bore into mine like they were devouring my soul, my whole being, making us one in the same. I couldn't stop thinking about lucky I was to have a guy like him interested in a girl like me. it didn't make sense to me how kind, and loving, and sweet he is to me. not only did he NOT pressure me about sex, in fact he had said no. He told me he wanted to do things the proper way starting on taking me out on a date. Then he wanted to ask me to be his girlfriend. He said he even wanted to make that special to me, and then if in time we're both ready, we would take the next step. I was completely, utterly, hopelessly in love with him. Yea I know what you're thinking. It's only been a few weeks. But if you're in love with someone, why should it take months or even a year? Shouldn't things just click instead of having the time to learn to love the person over time?! And here comes my dreadful thoughts. What if he get's bored with me. What if we go on a date and we have nothing to talk about? What if he finds out that he doesn't really like me at all and just decides to walk away from me? I don't think I could handle it. Yea I sound crazy, but this is why I kept myself from truly loving anyone else besides Baize. My parents left me when they promised everything was going to be okay. What happens when Nate promises me everything will be okay? He'll end up leaving me too just like my parents. I guess my worries showed up on my face because Nate looked at me with so much concern and love I couldn't look at him anymore knowing he'll leave me like my parents. He moved his hand to my face and made sure that i was looking into his eyes as he bore into mine with so much concern and passion that i couldn't look away this time.
"Are you regretting last night!? I swear we won't do anything like that again. I can wait as long as you want until you're ready. I'm so sorry I did that too y...." he said starting to sound panicked so I covered his mouth in my hand cutting off whatever else he was going to say.
I shook my head and smiled a small smile as I pulled my hand away from his mouth and rested it on his cheek. "I am definitely NOT regretting last night. I actually enjoyed last night so don't you dare threaten me like that. What do you think you're doing, telling me you won't be touching me ever again?! Have you lost your mind?!" I said trying to be serious, completely failed and cracked a smile.
"Then tell me what's wrong. You look like you just watch a puppy get run over by a bus!" he said holding onto me tighter
"Wow. That sounds really depressing. I can't believe you just talked about a puppy being ran over not just by a car, but by a bus." I said shaking my head in fake exasperation.
"Seriously Liv, stop avoiding the questions and answer me." he said growing more serious and concerned.
"It's nothing, really. I just don't think this. should. continue." I whispered.
"Tell me why?" he asked never taking his eyes off mine.
"you'llmmmleaveme." I mumbled.
"What did you just say?!" he said tilting his head to the side slightly.
I just shook my head trying to back out of the conversation. I sound like a whiney little b*tch. I refuse to be a stage five clinger and that's exactly the territory i'm headed in. he turned around and slammed my back into the shower wall, not hard enough to hurt, it was actually kind of k*nky. Ugh, I hate that word. It's such a disturbing, provocative word, but described what just happened perfectly. His face was inches from mine making my heart rate and breathing speed up tremendously.
"Speak to me, Liv." he whispered so close to my lips that it sent shivers down my back.
I closed my eyes tightly and slowly opened them back up to see Nate hadn't moved an inch. "I don't do relationships." I finally whispered nothing trusting my voice to talk any louder. God, what is this boy doing to me?!
"Why?" he asked sounding honestly curious.
"Because Nate."
"Because why?"
"Because that means actually letting someone get close to me."
"And what's so wrong with that?" he ask confused.
"If I let someone get close, that means I start to care for them." I said trying to beat around the bush. I really didn't want him to leave me so soon.
"Why don't you want to care about anyone?" he asked
"I do care about someone, I care about Baize." I said defensively
He groaned and pushed me slightly harder into the wall. "Liv, you know what I mean. We're talking about relationships."
"Right. Idon'twanttocareaboutanyonebecausethey'llendupleavingmejustlikemyparentsdid. Theypromisedthateverythingwasgoingtobefine. Theylied. Ican'thandleitifanotherpersonicareaboutleavesme." I said really fast hoping he wouldn't catch any of it. Well I was wrong.
His eyes went wide and he pulled back slightly scanning my eyes and face then looked sad and almost angry. Odd. He pressed me even more against the wall and took both of his hands and grasped my face and held my eyes with his. "I will never leave you. Ehh, stop! Before you say anything, let me finish." He said as I opened my mouth about to freak out on him. "I don't promise you everything will be fine. I don't promise were not going to fight. Because we are, Liv. We will scream and yell at each other, we will fight, yes both physically and verbally, though technically it won't be an abusive relationship. We live the life of the streets, one in the same, you're my better half... my kick ass and take names better half to be more precise. We will also be happy and sad. You'll tell me you hate me and I'll tell you I ha... mmm no, never mind, I could never say I hate you because I could and would never hate you. You're going to tell me when I'm being an asshole and I'm going to tell you when you're being an unreasonable bitch. But at the end of the day, nothing could or will never make me walk away from you. You're stuck with me as long as you want me. And when you no longer want me, well too damn bad cause damn it Liv, I'll follow you to the end of the world and back!"
I could barely breathe. I couldn't think but I could feel love and warmth and safety. "Why?" I whispered. Oh fantastic Liv. He delivers the most heartfelt, beautiful, perfect speech and the only thing you can say is why? How has he not realized how moronic you are?
I'm really starting to hate that little voice in my head.
"Because I'm in love with you, Liv Wilde." He whispered never breaking eye contact
My heart clenched, I squeezed my eyes shut, and no I didn't have butterflies in my stomach, I had freaking macaws flapping around in there. And of course I had to ruin the moment. "I want to say it to you. I really do. I'm trying, I really, really am. But this is hard for me." I said quietly.
"Liv, look at me." he spoke a little louder than whisper. But I couldn't, I couldn't look into his eyes and see the hurt and disappointment in his eyes and face.
"Liv." he only had to speak my name and my name only for me to open my eyes. what I saw completely took me off guard. He looked so happy, his eyes were shining, his smile was contagious I couldn't help but smile even though I just made a complete ass out of myself.
"You telling me that, is more than I ever expected from you. What you just said means that you are in love with me and when you're ready to finally say the words out loud, I know you will. Like I said, I will wait for you forever and then more." He said closing the distance pressing himself against me till our bodies were literally suction cupped to each other from being bare and wet from the shower and kissed me. Embarrassing as it is, we both moaned into each other's kiss, but me being as h*rny as I was didn't give two sh*ts what kind of sounds were coming out of my mouth. So along as he didn't stop kissing me I'd moan all I want and not care. After a hot and steamy thirty minute shower, we reluctantly got out and dried off.
"Uhhh, Nate. I don't have any clothes." I said sitting on his bed wrapped in my towel.
"That sounds perfect to me." Nate said seductively giving me that smile that made me want to jump is bones. Well one bone in particular. Wait, it's considered a muscle, not a bone, right? bone? seriously? Did I really just think that?! I really need to get my head out of the gutter. I sound like an absolute freak right now. I mentally slapped myself in the forehead. I would have done it physically but then I'd have to explain to Nate why I just hit myself. That'd be reaalllyy embarrassing.
"Perfect? Really?" I said innocently as I stood up and dropped my towel and walked half way to his door and looked back and smiled seductively.
"Well come on. We're going to be late for school." I turned my head back and made it to the door. As I put my hand on the door handle I felt a set of hands on my waist before they spun me around roughly and pressed me back into the door.
"Umm, you can't go to school without clothes on!" Nate said looking at me like I was crazy.
"Why? You said it sounded perfect to you that I didn't have any clothes to change into?" I said sweetly keeping up my innocent façade.
"I didn't mean for you to go to school without any on! I won't let you, I refuse to let you go like that. The guy's at school would... OHHH." Nate looked as if he'd just seen the light with realization as he saw my point clear as day.
"Liv, seriously?! You didn't have to drop your towel to make your point! I'm seriously going to have to take a cold shower now." He groaned trying not to look down.
"Well, I had my fun. But I literally can't leave this room without clothes." I said as I wrapped my arms up around Nate's neck. And when I say arms, I mean basically my hands plus an inch or so. I mean the kid is so damn tall, standing at atleast 6'0 ft. that's the least. I was never really good at telling a person's height by just looking at them. He sat there thinking for a couple minutes before kissing me and telling me he'd be right back. Five minutes later he walked in hold his arms behind his back looking really uneasy.
"Just show me." I said bracing myself for the worst.
Nate smiled encouragingly at me before pulling out a piece of clothe that I'm guessing was meant to be a dress. I didn't brace myself hard enough for the impact at the sight of it. I shook my head and crossed my arms.
"No. No way in hell. I'd rather go naked!" I said backing away from the dress.
"Remember when I said in the shower when I told you I'd tell you when you're being unreasonable. Well here it is. Liv, you are being unreasonable it's not that bad. It's the only thing out of my sister's closet that would fit you. My aunt got her the dress for when she goes into high school. My aunt's a little nut's for already trying to make my sister wear this kind of thing. But it's the only thing here. So put it on and come down stairs so we can eat breakfast before school. Oh, and luckily my aunt has no sense of size because she just bought my sister a couple sizes too big underwear from Victoria. Don't ask." He said holding out the dress to me and the underwear with the tag still on in his hand.
I closed my eyes, stepped forward, and grabbed the close out of his hand.
"Thank you." I heard Nate whisper close by me and then felt his lips press gently against mine before pulling away. "Marcie will have your clothes cleaned for you by the time we get out of school. Well actually, what happened to your shirt?"
"Oh. Uh, I had to shoot a dog or else I probably would have shown up at the hospital getting it amputated instead of showing up you're here last night." I said remorsefully.
Just thinking about it made me feel sick to my stomach again. I sat there silently praying that the dog didn't die because of me. I felt Nate's arms go around in me in comfort as I rested my head against his chest. I finally pulled away and slipped the dress over my head. I tied my laces to my converse and let my hair air dry, I'm already going to look like a hot mess today so I don't really care how my hair looks right now. I finally walked over to the mirror and my mouth fell open. I didn't even recognize the girl in the mirror. My hair was drying in small waves down to the middle of my back. The dress wasn't too bad, but it wasn't me, I've never worn a dress a day in my life and I couldn't believe I was wearing one now. The upper half was white and from the waist down was this shiny black material that came down to the middle of my thigh making my legs look long and thin but muscularly defined. Both my tattoos were showing today and as I trailed my eyes up to the bandaging, I could see blood shaped in circles had soaked through... oh well.
Nate came up behind me and wrapped his around my waist and kissed my neck. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back giving him a better view of my neck. He groaned as he kissed me again. "You're absolutely stunning and you're going to be making a scene today the way you're dressed. I'm tell people you're my girl today. I can't stand listening to another guy talk about the things that he wants to do to you!" he said as he kissed my brand.
I saw a flashing red name in front of my eyes that read out "Maverick Petrov". And it all came flooding back to me that I couldn't go any further with Nate. It was too selfish of me to string him along knowing there's a good chance I won't be coming back to this. I felt my heart slowly breaking with every kiss Nate placed along my neck.
"You probably shouldn't do that. We should also probably slow down too. I don't want you to get hurt." I whispered as I laced my fingers through his and walked out of the house to our cars in silence.
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