So this chapter is...something.
Strong language and some 'scenes' (not anything smut like) are in this chapter.
Something that I don't know if I have to put the mature tag on for the story for this one chapter, but I did put it on the chapter title anyway just to be on the safe side or does anyone know if one chapter won't make a difference.
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Nayeon's POV
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I was standing in the lobby of the resort we booked for today because today is a special day for me.
My wedding day.
In about 20 minutes, I'm going to be walking down the aisle.
Walking with my wife to be.
20 minutes.
I should be very happy, I should be excited...but I wasn't.
I searched around outside where the guests were.
I look as our family members and friends were sitting down and talking amongst each other.
I looked as my bridesmaids smiled at me waving at me.
But I looked to see one seat...that one seat that I had reserved for one special person...the special person that I wish was to see today.
But why would she come...not after what I did.
I don't even know how she's doing or even if she got the invite.
I'm just hoping that she'll be here.
"Hey." I turned around to see my beautiful wife.
Yoo Jeongyeon.
Her gown really complimented her as her hair and makeup was done by professionals.
I was stunned by the way she looked.
"Jeong...you look...beautiful."
She smiled at me.
"Not so bad yourself."
I smiled back and looked at the main entrance of the lobby.
"Hey what's the matter?" She asked me.
"..."
"Nayeon...I don't think she'll come."
"..."
"Maybe she's move on Nayeon. Maybe she took your advice."
I heard and hoped that was the case...but deep down I wanted to see her...to see (YN) again.
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Time seemed to go quick as I still sat in the lobby waiting for her.
"Nayeon...it's time." I heard Jeongyeon as I looked up, I got up and stepped to see out onto the guests.
Everyone was starting to sit in their seats...except for one.
I frowned...I can't blame her though.
"Alright...ready my bunny." She said to me.
She had her hand up as I inserted my hand in hers.
"Ready." I said in a semi smile.
Then the music was starting as the orchestra was playing our favorite ballad.
...
Then I felt something, no someone, staring at me.
I turned around at the main entrance and saw her.
I gasped at the spot and froze.
I almost didn't recognize her.
She looked paler than usual, too thin and tired.
Gone were the fashionable clothes she always wore instead were some sweats, a plain black shirt and a grey hoodie.
Her (Hair color) hair was flawed, before it flowed and looked and felt like silk as it went down her back, but now it looked ruffled and beat up like she woke up from bed.
As I approached her, the more I saw of her...the more it hurts me.
The sparkle in her eyes, the sparkle that I used to wake up to, used to stare at were gone. Her eyes were bleak, hollow, almost lifeless with bags and black under them.
And most importantly...her smile.
The smile that I was allured by, the smile that was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen in her...was gone with a frown replacing it.
She looked defeated.
It hurt to see her like this.
"(YN)...you came." I said to her with a small smile.
I stretched my arms out for a hug.
"We need to talk." She said in a low, but commanding tone. Her facial expressing remained unchanged with a frown on it.
I awkwardly placed my arms down.
"Y-yeah okay...after the cer-"
"No. Right now." She said.
I looked at her in discomfort.
"(YN)...she can't, the marriage is about t-"
"Stay out of this Yoo." She didn't even look at Jeongyeon as she kept her eyes on me.
"The only reason I'm here is to talk with you Nayeon."
"So...you're not staying?" I asked with a sad tone.
"Why should I?" She spatted back.
Even though I expected it, it still hurt her say that.
"You have to give me this Nayeon...after what you did."
I looked at her and Jeongyeon and the doors to the guests then back to (YN).
"(YN)...I-"
"Nayeon," I looked back at Jeongyeon "just talk to her. It's fine."
"I'll make an excuse. Just go to our room. I'll be up there in a bit." She said before giving me a kiss on the cheek.
I swore I felt a chill there.
"...Okay." I looked back at (YN) who had a glare on her.
She wasn't happy with what she saw.
"Follow me then." I said.
I grabbed a keycard from the receptionist stating that it was an emergency and led the way towards the stairs to our room.
As I walked, my mind was filled with a thousand thoughts...and all were on (YN).
I was going to have to explain what I did and why I did it.
Was I nervous...yes.
Was I scared...yes.
Was I panicking...yes.
I opened the door with the keycard and allowed (YN) to go in first, then I followed inside and closed the door.
The air around me was hard to breath and felt heavy as we stood in the room together.
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No one's POV
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"I'm glad yo-"
"A note Nayeon...a fucking note was all you left me!"
Nayeon jumped at your loud voice.
"I wake up one morning to find out that my girlfriend left me for no reason...but to find out a year later that she's getting married to someone else!"
"I-"
"You left me Nayeon...I spend the past year looking for you..."
"(YN)-"
"While you were off with your damn happy life, I have spent every day trying to find even the smallest bit of information about you, about where you might have gone."
"..."
"Was I nothing to you?" You said in an anguished tone.
"...You have given me the best three years I could ever ask for-"
"And it could've been more!"
"..."
"Did you even love me?"
Nayeon looked at you with the most broken face she's ever seen on you...the trails of tears, your red eyes, the black under them, the frown that takes away the smile that Nayeon loved seeing...
"Of course I did-"
"Then why...WHY! Why did you leave! Why did you leave ME!"
Nayeon expected her to be angry, but you look like you might kill someone.
"I want answers Nayeon!"
Nayeon raised her hands in a calm matter.
"You're angry I get it...but can you calm down (YN)?" Nayeon asked you gently.
"...Explain."
"I will, I will explain...please sit." Nayeon was scared.
You didn't listen to her.
You just stood there, staring at her with your breath pacing as your anger was rising.
"Jeongyeon and I knew each other ...before you and I...long back during our childhood, then during our high school days, we were official. I told you about her, but I've never told you that we dated."
You glared at her as she licked her lips and played with her hands.
"When our university days came...we tried meeting each other as often as we could, but we were going to different universities that offered different career plans and we broke it off since things got too hectic...she then left to another country for the dream job that she had."
"We haven't talked since...I thought I was never gonna see her again..."
"A year later, I met you and believe me (YN), I loved every second of our relationship...but-,"
The door then opened.
"Hey." We both heard and Nayeon saw Jeongyeon at the door.
"Just give us time." Nayeon said as Jeongyeon nodded and closed the door.
Nayeon looked at you still glaring.
"She came back one day when I was working, she came back for me and we started talking and...I don't know...old feelings resurfaced..." Nayeon rubbed her arm as you shook your head.
"How long when she came back." You asked.
"..."
"Nayeon!"
"One month." She answered fast.
.
.
.
"...O-one month?" You repeated shocked.
She nodded.
"It took one month to get over me..." You said in sadness.
Nayeon wondered how long till she herself started tearing up.
"It wasn't just one month (YN). I told you we were together back then."
You shook your head and laughed in disbelief.
"...Did you even tell her about me? Did she even knew you were in a relationship?" You asked as Nayeon nodded.
"Yes. I told her everything about you."
"And yet somehow she convinced you to leave me."
"..." Nayeon stayed silent as she looked away as she took a deep breath.
"(YN)...you were someone who was there, someone genuine, that I loved as a person...kind, caring, just an all-around wonderful person. I felt safe with you. I cared about you, I have deep feelings for you but they aren't the kind of feelings that have anything to do with...deep love. Please forgive me, (YN)...I love you but I'm not 'in' love with you anymore and I couldn't continue our relationship like this because it isn't fair to you...because you deserve more."
You gritted your teeth.
"Please, please understand..."
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.
.
.
"(YN)..."
You gripped your hands.
"All those years...you were just messing with me."
"No (YN) really I-"
"You just played with me! Was I just some fucking toy to you?!"
"..."
"Fuck this...and fuck you Nayeon."
That hurt her...but she deserved the word.
You tried to walk away, but Nayeon got in front of you.
"(YN) wai-"
The door opened just in time for Jeongyeon to see you right at Nayeon's face.
"No, you don't get to say anything you bi-"
"HEY!" You looked over and saw a hand coming right at you as it made contact with your cheek.
The sound of a slap echoed the room as you pressed your hand against your cheek as it burned.
"Don't yell at her like that!" You heard her yell at you.
"Hey, are you okay?" Jeongyeon asked Nayeon.
"Jeongyeon?! Why did you do that?!" Nayeon yelled at her.
"She tried to-" Jeongyeon tried to say, but Nayeon cut her off by heading to your side to see the red that was appearing on your cheek.
"(YN)-"
"Don't!" You said loudly at her then you looked at her. "You've done enough..."
At that moment Nayeon didn't see the anger you had a moment ago.
She saw the hurt...the pain...the agony in your eyes.
You then got up and walked out the door.
Nayeon just stood there frozen in place.
"Nayeon?" Jeongyeon whispered as she got close to her.
Nayeon was snapped out of her thoughts as she ran towards the door.
"(YN)!" Nayeon went out of the door. She went down to the lobby, but you weren't there.
She then ran outside to see a cab already leaving.
"(YN)!" Nayeon ran towards the middle of the road as she saw the yellow car disappear down the lane.
Nayeon then cried as she stood there.
Then she felt a pair of arms around her as Jeongyeon hugged her.
But Nayeon jerked herself off of her arms and looked at her with a furious glare...then she left and went to her room...crying.
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TIMESKIP
You left...
You wasted your time for that...
You wasted a year of your life looking for her and she just...
...
...
You didn't know what to do now.
All you thought about was going to your house...
but what was the point...
As you took the cab to the airport and the airport to the plane and plane to another airport to another cab then to home.
All you thought about was...was...nothing...literally nothing.
Your whole body...your mind just shut.
You stepped out of the cab and threw a handful of whatever cash you had at him and left to your front door.
Once you stepped in, you looked around and visioned all the things that you and Nayeon did at this very place.
Watching a movie.
Cuddling.
Eating.
Talking.
Sleeping.
Playing.
Kissing.
...
...
...
Then out of nowhere, your body was filling with anger...
You slam the door and you yelled out at nothing.
Then you threw your purse at the wall, then you saw the pictures of you and her on the walls and coffee table.
You looked at the pictures as a fury was growing in you.
You picked up each one and threw them as hard as you can at anything. The walls, down the hall, even breaking the TV in the living room.
You flipped the coffee table, dropping the contents on the floor as you yelled out.
You then rushed to your room, but along the way you saw a photo hanging.
One of you and her at your 3rd-anniversary dinner.
You clenched your fist, yelled and punched the frame hard leaving the glass shattered and the frame dropping on the floor.
You then looked at your fist, blood was starting to ooze out slowly as you saw some cuts from the glass.
You didn't care as you went towards your room.
It was the same as the living room, you yelled picked up at what you found and tossed things wherever.
You then sat in the corner of the room and shuffled downwards till you had your knees on your stomach.
You held them in despair and just yelled out.
You then glanced downwards and saw a shard of glass.
It was small, but enough to be picked up.
You eyes were fixated on the piece, then your body just picked up, it fits right between your fingers as you brought it in front of your eyes.
You then brought your other hand up and brought the glass closer.
You held it across your wrist as your breath became erratic.
The cold shard touched your wrist and you...
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...
...
...
...
...
...
...
dropped it.
You dropped the shard, your hands were shaking.
You held onto your legs once more,
and cried the night away...
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THE NEXT MORNING
You hardly had any sleep, you still sat there as you hugged yourself.
You just sat there feeling lost and empty as you stared forward at the carpet.
KNOCK KNOCK
You heard the door, but you didn't move from the corner.
"(YN)?" You heard you tilt your head up just a bit.
It was Nayeon's voice.
"(YN) please open the door." You heard.
You didn't move.
Then you heard the door open, you guess you forgot to lock it last night.
You heard her gasp, probably at the mess you did.
"(YN)! (YN) where are you?!" You heard her yell out.
But you didn't answer.
Then a figure came through the doorway. You looked to see none other than her.
"(YN)!" She paced towards you in the corner and kneeled down to you.
"(YN), are you okay? There's glass everywhere and...(YN) your hand!? Is that...blood?!"
"What do you want?" You said in a low tone not even making eye contact with her.
Nayeon softly gazed at you.
Nayeon was hurting, the cheerful happy (YN) that she knew seemed like she never existed.
Now it was...this...and her heart ached.
"I...I came to check on you."
"..."
"We...I postpone the wedding."
Nayeon figured you might have a reaction, but you didn't move even an inch.
You didn't even felt nothing...
Nayeon looked around the room as you sat there.
She saw shards of glass on the bed and carpet and pictures torn up of herself and you. Along the way she saw the broken frames, contents on the floor, the table in the living room flipped as well as the TV broke as well as the one here.
'Did she do this' Nayeon thought.
She looked back at you.
"(YN)...I'm going to be here for a while...for you." She said.
"I talked to Jeong and she agreed to it and I'll be here for a bit..."
She just stared at your figure as you curled up at the corner.
With a sigh, she turned around, ready to clean up the room, but something caught her eye.
Nayeon saw the letter...the letter that she had written a year ago...there were many crinkles that Nayeon figured you kept crumbling and fixing back.
The worse part was the many some dried wet spots on the bottom half of the paper...she knew what they were.
Nayeon then picked it up and started to read what she wrote.
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My love, (YN)
I'm still not sure how I'll be able to put down what I'm truly feeling and what I should write.
I can't seem to find which words, out of the millions that already exist, would let me express my heart onto paper.
I love you (YN) (LN).
Plain and simple.
I do.
I know the love we both share is like the ones in those make-believe sappy movies. The ones that are too good to be true, but in this case, it wasn't.
The sparks, the overwhelming feeling I get when you're with me...it's just, I don't know...perfect like?
I never thought I could even feel this way about somebody. Ever. But you just came around...and changed everything.
I like the way you scrunch your nose when you laugh. How your laugh gets me to laugh. How you always try to help others, even if sometimes, you're the one in need. The way your (Eye Color) eyes shine when I'm talking to you.The wide smile upon your face when you talk about your day and memories of your past. The way you bright up my day even in the worst of days.
Those and many of other things, made you. They all made me fall head over heels for you.
I truly am grateful for what you have done for me the past three years.
That's why I'm writing this...
I can't see your face when I'm telling you that...we can't be together...not anymore.
I'm sorry, I really am.
Some things happened and...well things happen.
It's selfish of me to write, but maybe you'll meet somebody else.
Of course, it'll hurt me. I'd be lying if I say it would be ok. Seeing you with somebody else will never make me happy. I truly want what's best for you.
But...it can't be me.
No matter what you think right now, how stupid this sounds may sound like, or how crazy I am, I want you to respect this choice.
I want you to know, that no matter what happens, I will always love you. Don't ever doubt that.
...
...
...
I sincerely love you, (YN) (LN). Forgive me for saying all of this in a letter; I wouldn't have been able to say all those things in front of you.
I'm loving you with my whole heart.
Love you forever,
Im Nayeon
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Nayeon remembered, she remembered every word she wrote the day before she left (YN).
Reading it now, Nayeon started to cry as well.
"I haven't found anyone you know." Nayeon heard and looked over at you still hunched with a sad look on your face.
"You wrote about seeing someone, but no one can even compare to you Nayeon." You looked at her with glistening eyes as well.
Nayeon just looked down in anguish, guilt, hurt.
"...I'm sorry."
...
...
...
"No you're not."
Nayeon looked at you getting up and heading towards her. The sounds of glass being crunched under your shoes were echoing around.
"You're not sorry Nayeon."
"..."
"If you were, you wouldn't have written that letter."
"If you were, you would have talked to me about this."
"If you were, you wouldn't have wasted my time looking for you."
"And then you had the fucking nerve to send me this." Nayeon saw you getting something from the desk, a crumpled sheet of paper in your hands...it was the wedding invitation.
"How dare you Nayeon...how fucking dare you send me this!"
You slammed the hand onto the desk with the invite as it made Nayeon flinched.
Nayeon looked away in shame.
"I...I wanted everyone that I cared about to come."
You went silent for a moment, appalled by her reasoning.
"Cared...like you give a damn about me."
"I do love you (YN)...does the three years not show it." Nayeon said.
"Three years that are gone in one sheet of paper." You said as you pointed at the paper.
"...I wrote that letter (YN) because I didn't want to see your face when I-"
"Broke my heart."
"No-"
"So you would rather disappear from my life!"
"..."
"We could have talked about this Nayeon! But why! WHY!"
"We had everything...happiness...love...each other...it was going perfect..."
"..."
"And then you just left...left for someone that came back for one month only...left the person who would do anything for you, loved you, comforted you, took care of you!"
"..."
Nayeon was silently crying as she just stood there taking in each sentence you told her.
You just shook your head and sat on the bed with your hand placed over your eyes.
A few minutes passed and both were still in the same positions. Only Nayeon stopped crying as she stared at the floor.
"...Just leave me alone Nayeon."
"No. No I will not."
"(YN)...I did this to you...I can't imagine what you went through the past year. I-you're right...I was stupid...I was stupid to leave you alone...you were right when I should have talked to you instead of being a coward."
"But now...I'm here (YN)...and I'll be here for you until you get better..." She then went and brought a first aid kit from the bathroom and sat alongside you. "Now give me your hand."
You thought about it as she was offering her hand.
You wanted to reach out and hold it...that touch that you longed for...
You outstretched your hand...only to swipe the first aid kit and you stood up and walked towards the door.
"(YN) please...what can I do to make this right (YN)?"
You turned around and glared at her.
"Leave her." You said in a cold dark tone.
Nayeon saw some tears coming down your eyes.
Nayeon let some breath out.
"...I can't..." She whispered
You then just walked away towards the bathroom and locking it.
...
...
...
...
Nayeon just looked at you as you left.
She deserved every word and more...
But she was here to take care of you, seeing you back at the wedding...it killed her.
She was here to take care of you for a while...but she'll have to be back for the wedding.
She knew you were going to take it hard...really hard, but this...this was too much for her.
So Nayeon's goal was to try to fix this...it may be impossible, but Nayeon was determined to help you out.
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ONE WEEK LATER
So throughout the week Nayeon stuck around you...only you were just in your room on your bed.
You didn't went out when she asked if you wanted to do anything outside.
Your only response was that you didn't want to do anything with her.
You didn't sleep in the same room as her as she slept on the couch. When she went to see you in your room the next morning, she saw you just sitting there on the edge of the bed.
Morning is what she'll say only to hear nothing back.
This was how it was the whole week.
Nayeon tried to speak with you, to make conversation with you, but you wouldn't say a word to her.
Nayeon was with guilt the whole time. She remembered everything that you both did in this house for the three years that you were together.
She remembered the laughs, the cuddles, the celebrations, the love.
But that person in that room was not (YN)...and Nayeon did this to her.
Broken was all she saw as you sat there.
She would make your favorite meals, put on the movies you both watch, but it wasn't working...nothing was.
Nayeon tried to be happy she really did, but you weren't cooperating...not that she blame you.
Nayeon knew that it wasn't going to work, but she had to try something.
She didn't want to leave you all alone like this...
...what was she thinking.
She did...for a year and this was the result.
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"Hey...I made your favorite dinner." She said at the door with a tray of food on it.
You didn't even look at her.
"(YN) please, you barely eaten a thing since I got here."
"..."
She just sat the tray on the desk and stood in front of you.
"(YN), I can't be here forever and I can't take care you forever. You can't be like this for the rest of your life."
"..."
You didn't move or acknowledge her words.
Then Nayeon said what was on her mind...what she wrote on her letter.
"(YN)...you need to move on..."
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...
You glared at her, a glare that made Nayeon's body filled with fear.
"...Move on...move on!...MOVE ON!"
You stood up and got in front of her.
"I spend the last fucking year trying to find you!" Nayeon trembled in place as you shouted at her.
"We spend three years of our lives together!"
"And you're telling me to move on!"
"Was all this!...was I not worth anything to you!"
"Y-you were everything to me (YN). You were amazin-"
"And yet you're marrying her!"
"..."
...
...
...
"You were my life Nayeon..." You said in a soft tone.
"(YN)-"
"No Nayeon, when you left...a part of me left with you gone. And I'll never fill that space without you."
"I tried to forget you I really did, but I can't do the impossible. It's hard to forget someone who gave me so much to remember."
"So please Nayeon...just stop...just stop trying to help..."
You said softly as you sat back down.
Nayeon was speechless, her mind was blank.
Without a thought, she just walked out the door and closed it.
She stood there for a minute...a minute before she heard you sob through the door...was there nothing she can do.
She then went to her couch as she brought her hands to her head as she rubbed her temple and scalp.
Then...the tears started falling as Nayeon really didn't know how to fix (YN).
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Nayeon woke up from her slumber as she just laid there and stared at the ceiling.
Today...sadly was her final hours...her plane was set to leave in a four hours.
She had ideas going left and right to see what to do about (YN).
She couldn't call (YN)'s parents...the barely took care of themselves.
(YN) didn't have a go to job, she had a work at home job which included doing data entry jobs for local businesses.
Maybe...maybe she could call someone and take care of her...like a private nurse or maid...no...no that would be the cowards way again...this was her mistake that she needed to fix on her own.
Nayeon then had enough thinking and figured she would see you now.
She got up and walked to your room.
She opened the door as she put on her best smile.
"Morning (YN- (YN)?!"
She was gone.
Nayeon started panicking, she could be anywhere.
She picked up her phone and quickly dialed your number...only to hear your ringtone from your room.
Nayeon started thinking hard...
Then she realized one location...
She got her phone and called a number.
"Yes, I need a taxi here right away!"
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Nayeon hustled through her old apartment building in the middle of the city, she ran up the stairs and through the top of the roof and as soon as she opened it.
There you were standing near the balcony, overlooking the streets at the bottom and beyond was a view of the city itself. It was perfect since no building was blocking the view.
"(YN)!"
You didn't bother turning around.
She then paced to your side and looked at your face; you kept looking forward.
"(YN)! What the hell!"
"Hurts doesn't it." You flat out said.
Nayeon stopped talking...
"Now imagine that for a year...a year without seeing you...a year without speaking to you...without waking up to your face in the morning...without sleeping in your arms and you in mine..."
Nayeon felt her heart jerk at your words.
She didn't know what to say...what can she say...
"This was our first date...I remember seeing the sunset with you as we just had dinner up here and stayed to stare at the stars..."
"This was were I was going to propose to you too..."
Nayeon looked at you shocked.
"I was...soon...I had the ring as well...I wanted to be right here...right when the sunset was perfect...when the rays shined off your hair and your eyes to make you like the angel that I loved..."
"I wanted this spot...to be where we start our life together."
You then grabbed something from inside your sweater and pulled out a box in front of her.
"That's the ring." She heard you say.
Nayeon grabbed and opened the box and gasped.
The jewel in the middle was bigger than Jeongyeon's ring...but it wasn't the reason she gasped.
"(YN)...it's-"
"The one you had your eye on...the one you kept staring at when we went shopping for gifts for your coworkers back then. I remember you kept eyeing on it whenever we passed it. You even made a statement about how that ring was perfect."
"(Y-YN), this m-must cost a fortune."
"It was worth it." You said looking forward. "I was going to do it couple of weeks after you left."
Nayeon heart was breaking. She didn't know how much more she can take of this.
"(YN)...I need to know that you'll be okay for a bit...I-I have to go back, but I promise as soon as I'm done with the wedding, I'll be back the next day."
She attempted to held your hand, but you yanked it away.
"(YN-"
"I thought about what you said...you asked me to move on Nayeon...and as much as it hurts, as much as it kills me...I will..."
Nayeon felt nothing but pain in her body...she moved on but...why did it hurt her...why did it pain her to see you this way...she moved on herself...
"But...I want to do one thing."
You then looked at her.
"Can we...kiss?"
"(YN)-"
"Just...just one. Just the one and that's it."
"Please." You looked at her and Nayeon just nodded.
"Okay...okay." She then got close to you.
Both were staring at each other's eyes as they both leaned in.
You kissed her and the world fell away.
It was slow and soft, comforting in ways that words would never be.
Your hand rested below her ear, your thumb caressing her cheek as their breaths mingled together.
Your lips felt so gentle so warm, Nayeon felt her hands begin to slide up your stomach and encircle your neck, as the kiss began to grow heavy.
Your hands slid off her face and tightened around her waist, your body pressing against hers until there was no space left between them and Nayeon could feel the beating of your heart against her chest.
The kiss went on, their lips moving in perfect sync as the kiss become more passionate by the second.
And all in that moment, Nayeon's nerves soon began to relax, her troubles, her pain began to melt away and the surroundings began to disappear leaving only her and (YN).
This.
This felt true.
This felt...perfect.
Then you parted away as Nayeon wasn't expecting it as she stood there looking at you.
Then she saw something, that she wanted to see...your smile. A small smile, but a smile.
"(YN)..."
"Here. Please take it." You handed her the box as Nayeon didn't argue and took it from your hands.
"Thank you." You said softly as you turned towards the balcony.
Nayeon had a tear drop down her cheek...she didn't know if it was from happiness or sadness.
"...I'll come back as soon I can (YN)." She looked at you as you nodded.
With a deep sigh, she turned and went towards the roof door.
Nayeon had her hand on the doorknob, but she clenched it as she closed her eyes.
She couldn't leave you like this...
She couldn't...
She thought about everything...everything they done at that one moment.
She shook her head and upheld the knob.
She turned around.
"Alright (YN) I-(YN)!?"
She saw you standing on the edge of the balcony...
but behind it...
"(YN)!!! GET BACK OVER HERE!"
You turned around and faced her, holding onto the guard rails.
"You asked me to move on Nayeon...and I am..."
Nayeon frantically shook her head.
"Nonononono-I didn't mean it (YN) please, I-I love you (YN)...I love you!"
You smiled again...only this time not of happiness.
"While I'm glad to hear you say that Nayeon...that means nothing anymore..."
Nayeon was speechless, her throat was chocked up...
"You were my life Nayeon...you were the reason why I kept on going, but I will move on...and hopefully to a better life..."
"NO! NOOO!!!" Nayeon sprinted at you.
"Goodbye..."
...and you took a step back onto nothing.
"NOOO! (YN)!!!" Nayeon looked over and time seemed to slow down as she saw your body falling slowly...
Nayeon outstretched her hand...hoping that something...something would catch you...but nothing was coming...nothing was working...you were still falling.
Nayeon turned around and clenched her eyes shut...
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Nayeon sat up in tears and cold sweat.
Her hand outstretched as her body trembled.
As she woke up, she reached outward to her phone on the bedside table.
She went to dial (YN)'s number.
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"Pick up. Pick up. PICK UP!"
"Naye-"
"Shut up!" She said to someone calling her name.
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"COME ON!"
"Nayeon!" She felt someone's hands on her shoulders.
She looked behind her and saw her face...your face.
She had her hands over her mouth and felt the tears still running down.
'She's okay...she's okay...' Was all she was thinking.
She dropped the phone and jumped onto you, grasping you as hard as she could.
"(YN)!!!" She yelled as she burrowed herself onto your chest.
"Shhh it's okay Nayeon, you just had a nightmare." You said whispering while soothing her by rubbing her back.
"(YN)!!! I love you! I love you! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" She yelled into her body as she was chocking up by amount of emotions she had.
She kept yelled out apologies and loves to you.
"It's okay Nayeon...it's just a nightmare.
She then looked up to see your face.
Her face was tears and snot with her puffy eyes red.
"I'm here Nayeon...It's okay. Don't worry. It's a nightmare."
"N-nightmare."
You nodded.
"I-it was...w-we didn't get together again...I-I didn't stop you in time...you jumped and...god (YN)..." Nayeon was now sobbing
"Jumped? Oh oh Nayeon..."
You then sat up and hugged her tight.
"Shh...I'm right her Nayeon, just listen to my heartbeat."
Nayeon did as she was told and listened to the beat of your heart. It soothe her a bit as her sobbing went from crying to tears to a teardrop to sniffles.
She then moved her head to look at you smiling at her.
"I-I love you (YN). I promise I will never leave you." She said looking right at you.
You smiled at her words.
"I love you too Nayeon. I'm never leaving you either." You said.
Nayeon's breathing started to slow down as she began to relax.
"Thank you (YN)..." She said as she cuddled into your warmth. "I'm really happy we worked this out...I'm sorry for everything I did to you."
She felt a hand on her cheek as she saw you holding her.
"I'm happy too Nayeon...I know it hurt you to cancel the wedding, but I am truly thankful that you did...as wrong as that sounds."
Nayeon giggled a bit then it turned to a frown.
"Hey...it's in the past now...let's just focus on our future alright." You said.
Nayeon nodded as you leaned close and kissed her with the passion and love you had for her.
You pulled away and saw her bunny teeth that you loved.
"I'm here for you Nayeon...always." You said as you played with her hair.
Nayeon just snuggled into your torso as she enjoyed you.
"And I'm here for you too (YN)." Nayeon whispered.
And then the both drifted off to with you in her arms and her in yours.
Unfortunately for Nayeon...
It wasn't the case.
The doctor paused the video of Nayeon in the hospital room.
"Well as you can see, she's...delusional." The doctor explained "She thinks that (YN) is right there right now with that pillow she's holding."
Currently, Jeongyeon and Nayeon's parents were with the doctor after her called them to talk about Nayeon's current status.
They went back to see her hugging the pillow tightly as well as some tear drops on it.
"We've been observing her since you brought her here and...it's not looking good.
"I know doc, she's been like that for the past three days. Can't you give her medicine or something." Jeongyeon questioned.
"Ms. Yoo, this can't be treated with just medicine. If she's having hallucinations, it means that the problem goes deep down in her brain. A psychosis state when you lose touch with reality and you see, hear, or believe things that aren't real, like Ms. Im is doing right now."
"What she saw or heard is...beating her...causing her mind to go...insane."
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(YN) left...the hard way.
And Nayeon has been like this since that day.
She hasn't been the same and isn't even come close to recovering.
At first Nayeon was in shock mode, not talking and being in a statue-like state where she just stared forward, not looking or speaking at anything or anyone...not even eongyeon or her parents.
...that was a month.
One month of Nayeon not saying a word.
One month of Jeongyeon taking care of Nayeon...the only time Jeongyeon has ever seen her move was for the bathroom or to eat.
Like (YN) and Nayeon, Jeongyeon would try to talk to her, but it was like talking to yourself...nothing was coming out of her.
Jeongyeon and Nayeon's parents had taken her to a doctor, but they recommended just to take care of her for the time being.
She even missed (YN)'s funeral...not that there was any invitation to go in the first place.
The wedding never took place as well...Nayeon was just unfit.
After the month, Nayeon finally said her first words.
A simple morning.
Jeongyeon was ecstatic...only to be quickly down again.
Nayeon started to have nightmares...it was brutal...Jeongyeon had to wake her up from the screaming and sobbing she had in her sleep every night for that week.
...But that wasn't the worst of it...
Jeongyeon caught her...attempting to take her life.
She was just in time too...the blood was pouring out of her wrists fast, but ER saved her.
But now she's to remain in the hospital...that's when Nayeon's mind got worse.
Now she's been starting to have hallucinations of (YN)...like she just had with the video of the medical staff videoing her in her room.
They were seeing her moving around and talking to herself while hugging a pillow.
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"Delusional disorder can be very difficult to treat because it's sufferers, such as Nayeon, don't recognize that there's a psychiatric problem with them. More than half of patients treated with this show very little partial improvement."
"But it's still an improvement, right?" Jeongyeon asked begging, "plus you said that she might recover right?"
The doctor sighed.
"Ms. Yoo...she's shows no signs of recover anytime soon. We're trying our best, we even have the best therapists working on her but-"
"So we'll keep trying until she gets better right." Nayeon's mom spoke up.
"We could, but it may take years for her to get over it...but in my honest opinion,"
The doctor looked back at the screen of Nayeon snuggling with the pillow with a certain ring on her finger.
"She may never move on."
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First off, I would like to deeply apologize to anyone who may find this too much for you. I really really don't enforce this and hope that if you're having issues. Please get some help.
I was requested a super angsty chapter with our bunny here which was good since the last one was since September...which was also a angsty chapter...hmm...
So hopefully adekbaik, this was good for you.
Oh and I have some news...I have something planned around the New Years, but you'll just have to wait for it...I've been planning on it for a bit now.
Hint- it's a smut.
So with that, thanks for taking a pause in your life to reading this. Vote/Comment if you want. And thanks again.