I was dreading the thought of going for the dance classes. Seeing Jordan didn't top my list, it never did, but I wanted to see him nonetheless. I walked as slowly as I could but eventually got to the room. I walked inside and saw that there was no Jordan, I was the only one in the room with my disappointment. I waited till everyone came but Jordan didn't. I took out my phone and saw the messages from my friends. They all wished me happy birthday and how much they missed me and all. I felt tears stinging in my eyes, I didn't have Amber with me today.
It was Halloween as well, so many people were dressed in black and scary attires. I wore a black dress that ended just above my thighs, it had 'Lovely' written on it's front in red. Amber and I dressed up gothic every Halloween, Amber loved being a goth so we'd go around in gothic clothes celebrating our birthday. We also got gothic gifts. I brushed the memory off and though of Jordan.
I didn't see Jordan in the cafeteria either nor did I see him anywhere else. Not until at night when I saw him sitted on the floor, outside my room. He was asleep yet again. I couldn't enter my room because his back was resting on it. He didn't attend the classes. I felt bad, and I did like him.
I sat down on the floor next to him and rested my head on his shoulder, I needed his support today. Suddenly, my phone rang. He stirred and then woke up.
"Raelynn...." he whispered looking at me. I promptly checked the caller id, it was my mom.
"Hello?" I spoke. She wished me for my birthday, but she was crying. Thinking of Amber had us both in tears, I looked away from Jordan and wiped the tears that fell. "Thanks mom... I know... Nope I'm not celebrating... It's not a birthday really... I love you too." I hung up and turned towards Jordan.
"Hi." I said. I stepped forward and he did too, I opened my room and asked him to come in. He stood by the door looking at me. "Sit down Jordan." he sat on the sofa and stared at me. "Why are you doing all this?" I asked as I sat down next to him. He looked sick, and drowsy like he hadn't slept in days.
"Raelynn... I just want to be with you.. I really like you." he said, softly.
I looked in his eyes, they were so true and so dark. "Really?" I asked.
"Really, really." he said as he held my hand. I moved closer to him.
"Me too Jordan." I said in a low voice. He stood up unexpectedly. He looked serious. I stood up.
"What's wrong?" I asked, not moving closer to him. He pulled me in a hug, and didn't let me go. I inhaled his scent. "Why do you like me?" I wondered loudly. He pulled me back and looked at me like I was mad.
He touched my cheek. "Because you're beautiful, and sweet and so different. I've seen no girl like you Raelynn." he hugged me again. "Do you really like me too?"
"I do, with all my heart Jordan. But I'm scared." I confessed, still in his arms.
"Why? There's nothing you should be scared of." he said as his arms tightened around me.
"You're a teacher, I'm a student. What will people think? It's not approved of."
"It is, you're with me then everything's approved of." he slowly pulled away and made me sit on the sofa. Then he sat on the floor and put his head on my laps. He held my hand in his and sat that way, silent for so long. I thought he was asleep. I leaned back on the sofa and closed my eyes.
I felt myself being carried off the sofa. I immediately opened my eyes and grabbed his neck. He laughed and put me down on the bed. "Happy Birthday Raelynn.." he gently pressed his lips on my forehead and I heard the door close. I finally felt good, after all those days.
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"Leda, I have something to say." I looked at the sleeping class: almost everyone was asleep since the teacher wasn't there.
"Yes Rae, go ahead? Who do you have a crush on?" she pulled out a lollipop and handed it to me.
"Thanks, um well Leda I'm dating Jordan." I looked at her.
"WHAT!?" she screamed. "Tell me you're lying?" she looked at me with wide eyes. "You're lying right?" she said.
"No I'm not! It's true." I said as I took my bag and headed towards my Korean class with Thorne, ignoring Leda entirely.
"Why are you happy? What's so special?" Thorne asked as we walked towards the class.
"I'm dating Jordan, Thorne."
"I knew he had a thing for you Rae." he gave me a short hug.
During lunch I was with Leda, standing in the que when I saw felt someone's hands on my hips. I turned around and saw Jordan right in front of me. He kissed my cheek.
"Hi Raelynn." he gave me the cutest smile ever.
"Hi, what are you doing here?" he never stood in a que, he had his food with the teachers.
"I wanted to be with you." he gave me that cute smile again. I gave him my plate and got another one for myself, we got the food and he sat with us at our table. Leda kept giving me wide eyed looks and Ryan kept rolling his eyes, what was up with him?
"Rae? Since when?" Ryan asked giving me a tight smile.
"Last night." I giggled, trying to control my laughter.
"Raelynn? Shall we go for a walk?" Jordan questioned, squeezing my hand under the table. I nodded and waved at my friends. Everyone stared at us as we walked towards the door. Jessica narrowed her eyes, but I just rolled mine.
"Can I call you Rae?" he asked as we walked past the pool and towards the forest.
"You can call me anything Jordan." I entwined my fingers with his and moved closer to him, so close that our shoulders touched while we walked. "Where are we going?"I looked at him.
"There's a nice place in the middle of the forest, you'll like it sweetheart." we walked for miles and miles.
"It's time for the dance class Jordan, we should go." he stopped and looked at me.
"It doesn't matter Rae, it's just me and you today." he pulled me into his arms and gazed into my eyes, I felt my cheeks burn. He noticed that and placed his hands on my cheeks. "I want to kiss you so bad." I could see how hard he was controlling.
"Really?" I stood on my toes and placed a quick kiss on his nose and ran. "Where to?" I asked as I ran further into the forest.
"Here Rae." he held out his arms for me. I stood, pretending to think hard. "Come on!" he whined as he gave me the puppy dog face. I couldn't resist anymore, I ran right in his arms and held him tightly. "I never want to let go of you Rae." he spoke as he kissed my hair.
We continued walking untill we reached a point where he stopped. We were under a small canopy, formed by tangled trees, which made something like a small hut. "Wow." I heaved. There were two trees that faced each other. "I love this!"
"Only this?" he asked, looking at me in such a manner that my knees buckled.
"Umm... I.." I stammered. He started laughing, his laughter was so attractive. I looked at him, he couldn't stop laughing.
"I'm sor.. sorry Rae, bu.. but you look so cute." he said between fits of laughter. I looked at him with pouty lips and stomped my legs. I crossed my arms over my chest and took a step away from him. He stopped laughing at me and became serious. "Rae?"
I went and sat on the ground, leaning against one of the trees facing each other. He sat down next to me and placed his hand on my cheek. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."
"It's okay baby, I don't hate you." I teased.
I pulled him next to me and burried my face in the crook of his neck. I liked the way he smelled. I wrote my name on his arm again and again. We sat that way for a long time untill he sat straight and asked me a question.
"Baby, you know I saw your file. It said someone called Amberlynn won a dance scholarship but you came instead, why?" he asked.
"That's my sister, Amber... She's at the hospital right now, in coma, for the past three months." I feared I would cry as tears filled up in my eyes. "She's an awesome dancer and... and.... she..." I trailed off as the tears I was holding back fell across my cheeks.
He held my face in his hands and wiped away my tears using his thumbs. "She'll be fine sweetheart, trust me." he comforted me, as he wrapped his arms around me and rocked back and forth. "Don't cry, please." he repeated again and again while I kept saying 'I love her and miss her so much' all the time and he kept kissing my hair until wavy strands fell loose from the messy bun I'd done.
"Thanks." I smiled through the tears.
"You don't have to thank me ever." he emphasized more on ever so that it would stick in my head. I nodded and put my head on his chest. I was almost sitting on his laps and as if he heard my thoughts, he pulled me up and into his arms. "I want you as close to me as possible Rae." he said as he kissed my forehead and closed his arms, locking me in his tight embrace. I never wanted to move.
He opened my hair and ran his hands through them and played with them lightly. My hair was straight and reached my waist, just like Ambers' did, before they cut it off at the hospital. I sat upright and looked at Jordan, he looked right back at me, smiling. I held his face in my small hands and moved close, I tilted my head sideways, as if I was going to kiss him but instead I placed a kiss on his cheek.
The look on his face was amazing, frustration and anger with a hint of lust. I burried my face in his neck and placed soft, small kisses everywere, along his collarbone, his ears, his jaw. A small moan escaped his lips when I kissed his neck. I did that more until he held my face. "If you do that anymore then I will kiss you." He warned, with a hint of seriousness. I wasn't afraid of him kissing me, I actually wanted him to.
"Really?" I teased as I placed another kiss on his neck. He smiled and nodded. I placed another kiss, only this time it was a long, wet kiss. He immediately cupped my face in his hands and I felt his lips just an inch away from mine. I could feel his breathe on my face, mingled with mine. My heart beat accelerated, my palms became sweaty. He really was going to kiss me.
"Do you want me to kiss you Rae?" he asked seductively. My body was heating up. I couldn't move my head and I couldn't speak. Hell I couldn't even breathe, he was so close to me, so close. Maybe he realised how nervous he was making me, he moved away from my face and started smiling. I stood up and looked down at him: he stood up and took my hand and brought it to his lips. "I really, really want to kiss you now Rae. I really do."
He had stirred weird emotions within me, the close proximity, his breathe, his touch. I wanted all of it now. "Thendoit!" I quickly said, before I could change my mind. I looked at his lips, soft and full. He straighaway leaned towards me and brought his kissable lips close to mine and planted a small and quick peck on my lips. But I carved my hand through his soft hair and held him there before he could move and kissed him back. I pushed him against the tree and kissed him harder, I tightened my grip on his shirt and immediately loosened it as I realized what I was doing. I moved back, flushing pink.
I left him breathless. "Wow!" was all he could say.