niall,
i cant do anything right.
i fuck everything up for everyone.
no one ever awknowledges me, no one ever talks to me.
everyone just stomps on me and all i have to do is just laugh.
i cant fucking cry because everyone will just make fun of me and i obviously wouldnt want that.
but, i always cry over the most stupidest things and i hate myself for it.
i hate myself for everything i do.
i hate myself because im the one who always causes the bullshit in everyones lives.
i dont even have that many friends because most of them left because they were tired of me. they were tired of the stupid shit i do.
i trusted them with everything. it was stupid of me, i know. but they asked what was wrong and i got carried away.
then they left because i gave them too much bullshit.
i just. i just hate myself so fucking much for it.
i know that i was only supposed to write you letters about my love for you but i just needed to write this down. i needed to put this somewhere, where no one will read this.
i only hope that one day, you'll actually read all of this.
but niall, youre the only hope i have left. youre the only happiness i have left. i dont have anyone else except for you.
you know what sucks though?
you dont know i exist.
-diana.
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i give this maybe three or four more chapters