august 29
"channie?"
"yes?"
"you care about me right?"
"i wouldn't be here if i didn't stupid, why?"
"cause they told me"
"they?"
"they said i don't have anyone that cares"
"who is they minnie"
chan had turned and faced changmin
with concerned eyes.
"changmin look at me"
her cold stare finally faced him
"chan i don't know what to believe"
tears.
"they're making me worse"
tears.
"it feels like everyone but you
is leaving cause they don't care"
tears.
"i'm so tired chan"
chan scoots over and holds her hand.
"talk to me more minnie."
"i keep saying i'm fine when i'm not"
tears.
"i keep using the term to hide the fact
that i'm hurting. the fact that i'm torn
to who knows how many fucking pieces."
tears.
"the fact that everyone just accepts the word
makes it easier to get away with it."
chan grips her hand
"i'm just tired chan. so fucking tired."
" and that's okay."
sigh.
"be tired all you want. you have the
fucking right to be. you're going through
so much shit and all you need is someone
to listen to you. fuck i'm a call away and i'm fucking
here in an instant cause i DONT want you to
be alone minnie. never."
"you mean the world to me.
i cant lose you to a battle you can
win."
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hi lovelies. thank you for the extreme amount of support in my last post. i love you so much ahh
this is just a rant and changmin side are some of my exact thoughts.
i love you thank you for 20k reads i hope you're enjoying this sad story.