A/N
College is kicking my butt😩
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Camila's POV.
It was a couple of days after Royalty's birthday, and I have been doing my all to make things up to her. She seems pretty happy now so that's all that matters to me. The next morning she was being kinda cold towards me, which I can understand. It took her a little to come around but luckily she did.
Today Y/N and I had to go to my doctors appointment to make sure things were going good with the baby. I'm a little nervous about things since this is my first actual appointment.
"Camila Cabello." I looked up from my phone and saw Y/N standing in front of me with Royalty on her hip.
"Come on Camila." I nodded taking her hand as we made our way to the room.
"Well how are you doing today Ms.Cabello?"
I nodded and smiled. "I'm doing good Dr. Samuels."
"Good." She smiled before turning to Y/N and Royalty. "Y/N, long time no see, I'm glad to see you and Camila are still going strong."
"Yeah." She said with an uneasy laugh. "Me too."
"And who is this little cutie?" She asked turning her attention to Royalty. I felt myself smiling before I knew it.
"Dr. Samuels this is our daughter Royalty." She gasped as if she was surprised.
"Oh my goodness, wow. I can't believe I didn't notice her."
I laughed. "Yeah well she's grown up little since you've seen her."
She laughed and nodded agreeing. I watched her walk around the bed putting on a pair of gloves before taking a seat next to the bed.
"As you know this will be cold dear." I nodded biting down on my lip nervously waiting to see the screen.
I glanced over at Y/N to see her helping Royalty with her tablet. I couldn't help but notice how quiet she was being right now. Not that I expected anything less from her, I mean this is what I've been getting but it's ok at least she's here.
It still hurts, she seems so uninterested to be here.
"Ok so if you look here you can see the little baby." Dr. Samuels said to us as both Y/N and I stared at the screen.
"Aw my gosh, babe look." I said looking over at her.
She nodded smiling down at me before looking back at the screen. "I know, look Ro. There's your little brother or sister."
Royalty just stared at Dr. Samuels as she moved the monitor around on my stomach.
"M-mommy, dat h-hurt?" She asked with a concerned look on her face pointing down to my stomach.
I couldn't help but smile at her. She was just too damn cute.
"No baby girl, mommy is fine. She's not hurting." Y/N said.
I brought my hand up to rub her face. "Yes baby mommy is ok." She smiled and nodded before turning her attention back to her tablet.
"Everything looks good. Your baby looks nice, and healthy." She said making me smile.
"Just remember no stressing." She said eyeing me playfully yet seriously.
I nodded. "Yes ma'am, I'm not trying to have another replay of what happened." I said referring to when I fainted in the store.
"That's right we need you nice and healthy as well it's very important." She continued to move the device over my stomach.
"Ok so you are officially 2 months, so that means your next appointment we'll be able to tell you the gender of your little bundle of joy here." She said with a smile.
I smiled looking up at Y/N.
"Ok." Dr. Samuels wiped the jell off of my stomach letting me sit up and bring my shirt back down.
"If you guys would like to ask me any questions please do not be afraid to call me at any time."
Both Y/N and I nodded as we watched her walk out the room.
When she left the room immediately became quiet. Y/N wasn't saying anything and I didn't know what to say.
"Well we should go and pick your prenatal vitamins up and head home."
I sighed and nodded getting up from the bed. On our way out to the car Y/N asked if I was hungry and of course I didn't pass up the opportunity to eat.
So we stopped at In and Out. Y/N helped me out the car before grabbing Royalty out the back.
I sighed out in relief as we passed by all the annoying paparazzi waiting outside for us and made it inside the restaurant.
After waking in we were escorted to a private area so that we wouldn't be bothered.
We walked over to opposite sides of the booth sitting Royalty down in a high chair.
"So." I looked up from the menu to Y/N.
"Umm yeah?" I asked her. It was so awkward between us now, I knew why. It was because of me and the whole Shawn thing. I hated it and I just wanted us back to normal.
"You know I'm going to have to start going with India to her appointments?"
I felt my heart drop at the sound of her name. I should have expected this from her but god it's like I honestly wasn't.
"I can't keep leaving her out to do things on her own. It's just not fair."
I glared at her. "Ok, and I wouldn't ask you to do something like that Y/N."
"I know. I just wanted to talk to you about it first." I felt her eyes on me making me glance over at her.
She shrugged "I know this isn't a situation you want to be in and all."
"Of course it's not Y/N, but really what can I do about it. What can either of us do to change it."
She stared at me and shook her head. I could tell she was in deep thought right now.
"You just have to do what's best and I have to learn to understand it." I said basically trying to convince myself as I talked. "If we're going to continue to be in this relationship, it's what has to happen."
She gave me a small smile. "Yeah."
I rolled my eyes and took a deep breath. "Y/N, when are we going to stop this?"
"Stop what Camila?" She asked looking at me with her eyebrows furrowed up.
I shrugged and pointing between the both of us. "This. Y/N, god I get that I made a huge mistake but I don't like how we're going about things. You said we're good, but why don't I feel like we are?"
She sighed and shook her head. "Camila-"
"No Y/N. I know you're still pissed at me and you have every right to be. But can we ever get passed it and move forward."
She stared at me sideways.
"Do you even have the answer to that?"
"Listen Camila. I love you, you know damn well I do. But-"
"But what Y/N?"
"But. It's just a lot of things going on right now. You know that."
I nodded slowly. "Mmm. Right, so this has something to do with India?"
She shook her head disagreeing with me. "No Mila it doesn't. That's not what I'm saying, I just want you to understand that things are probably going to get ready and change between us."
I felt my stomach drop the moment she said that. "What? Y/N, what are you trying to say to me?"
Y/N gave me this look. It was a look that I wasn't used to seeing from her. I wanted to know what she was thinking. No scratch that I needed to know.
Instead of saying anything she turned her attention to Royalty.
"Y/N." I said sternly but she didn't even look my way.
"Y/N." I said again feeling myself become overwhelmed and tears start to form in my eyes. "My god please just talk to me, that's all I'm asking for."
Y/N looked back over at me giving me the same look.
"We'll talk about this later Camila."
"B-but."
"Later, ok."
I sighed deciding to let it go for now. "Ok."
"Hello, have you guys had enough time to look over the menus?" I heard the waitress ask before I tuned out.
I just wanted to know what was going on with Y/N. She wasn't acting like herself and that's scaring me, now we need to talk.
I need to know that everything is ok with us, before I can feel better.
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Getting back from In and Out I decided to go meet up with Normani, Dinah, and Ally at their studio.
I walked in with Royalty attached to my hip and made my way into the studio room that they were in.
I sighed as the girls started to come at me as soon as I got in the room.
"You guys please." I could already feel a headache coming on.
"Ok Camila what's been going on with you?" I heard Dinah ask.
I sighed as I put Royalty down and watched her walk over to the girls.
"I don't know how to answer that."
Ally looked at me. "Really Camila, something has got to be up. You missed out on your child's birthday, you know how you've been begging to be there for her and all."
I put my head in my hands feeling myself about to break down.
"I know it Ally. God I know I screwed up, and trust me I feel guilty enough. I don't know what's been going on with me lately and I don't know why I've been doing the things that I have. I-I just messed up."
"Alright Mila calm down." Normani said as she walked around to sit beside me.
I sniffed as I looked up at her. "Me missing Royalty's party isn't the only thing that happened though." I said looking down at my hands.
"Uh oh what did you do Camila?"
"Yeah what could have been worse that that?" Dinah asked.
I sighed softly and closed my eyes praying to myself knowing what I was about to say to them would make them freak.
"I-I was umm, the reason I was late was because I was out helping Shawn-
"What!?" They all screamed.
"You guys." I said trying to explain myself.
"Camila are you crazy?" Normani said moving back so she can look at me.
"Very."I whispered
"You must be to do something as dumb as that to Y/N!" Dinah said as she picked Royalty up sitting her on her lap.
I could feel tears in my eyes for the second time today.
"Hey you guys leave her alone, I'm sure Camila knows she's messed up." Ally said jumping into the conversation stopping them.
I looked at ally and nodded. "Thank you Ally."
She nodded as she rubbed my back. "Of course babe, but honestly can you blame them for being upset. You did something to Y/N that she'd never do to you."
"Yeah Ally is right, Y/N loves you."
"And I love her Dinah! I-i just messed up, and I didn't see any of this coming!" I said as the tears finally started to make there way down my face.
The girls stared at me as I continued to speak.
"You guys have to believe me I would never do anything to hurt her on purpose."
"We know that Mila, but that doesn't excuse how you've been making Y/N feel lately." Mani said softly.
She was completely right. Even after Y/N sat me down and explained to me how she felt about me being around Shawn I still went behind her back and saw him. I know she must be hurt and that's something that I'd never want to do.
She's the love of my life. I can't lose her.
"Listen we're only being hard on you because we're your friends and we love you."
I nodded and smiled slightly. "I know it. Thank you guys." My voice clearly horse from the crying
"Aww of course baby. Now go talk to Y/N.
I nodded as I stood up. "Come on Royal-"
"No we got her. You go and fix things." I smiled at them.
"Alright then I'll see you guys later, I guess call me when you want me to come and get Royalty."
Ally shook her head. "Camila go, we got her so stop worrying about her."
"Well ok. Royalty come give mommy a hug." I said holding my arms out for her.
She got down for Dinah and ran over to me. "Bye bye mwommy."
I smiled and kissed her head. "Bye bye sweetheart. I love you."
"Wove you!"
"Camila."
I raised my arms up in defense. "Ok, ok I'm going. Thank you guys again."
"You're welcome. Now go!"
I rolled my eyes as I walked out the room. I sighed running my fingers through my hair.
Time to go fix what I messed up...I refuse to let this go. So Y/N better be ready to talk.
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A/N
Awwwww you guys😭😭 I hate how long it takes me to update now😔
But good thing is we're almost to the endddd😩 and I was thinking of maybe doing a sequel for those who really want it😌
I hope you all are enjoying how things are going so far.. just know that the next chapter Y/N will be doing some talking. Truths will come out people👏🏼
I'm glad the girls are still there looking out for Camila☺️
Let me know what you think💭
Thanks for reading/voting💮also sorry for any mistakes📍