Sorry guys this chapter would have been up over an hour ago but my frickin laptop decided to be stupid today..... >:( Also IT'S ONLY 3 DAYS NOW UNTIL I MEET MATT!!!! OMFG I CAN'T WAIT!!!! You guys have no idea how much i'm stressing about this, like its gotten to the point where i'm stressing about how to hug the boys. Nope you did not just misread what i wrote, i said i'm stressing about how i'm going to hug them. I want to hug them around the waist cause then it'll make me feel shorter, but i want to hug them around the neck cause then some of them might pick me up but then there's the fact that i'm not a twig so...... yea, all in all i've been freaking out for a while now..... That's about it for now......
TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!
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~Jennie's P.O.V.~
I ran to my house now knowing exactly where Blaze was at. Basically my house had become all the girls' second homes and the Curtis house was their third. I ran into the house and the gang and girls were all close behind. "Blaze, where are you?" I shouted. The girls and I began searching. The bathroom door was closed and I tried to open it but it was locked. "Blaze I know you're in there." I said and heard a whimper. "Blaze, open the door and tell me what's wrong." I said and she didn't respond. "Get Dal and tell the rest of the guys to stay out there and you guys stay too." I whispered to the girls and they nodded. "I only want to help you, please, Blaze." I said and tried opening the door again. "No, Jennie, you wouldn't understand." She said and I could tell she was crying. "Yes I would, you know my past and you know me, I can understand almost anything. Open this door!" I demanded. "No!" She shouted through tears. Dal tapped me on the shoulder. "Blaze I'm going to give you one chance to open this door or I'm going to break it down." Dal said banging on the door. "No you can't see me like this Dallas." She said with hurt and pain in her voice. "Alright I warned her." He said to me and took a step back. "Watch out Jen." He said to me and I covered my face turning away. The wooden door crashed open and the sight it revealed I wished I would have never seen or even imagined would happen in a million years. "Go to the living room with the others." Dal said softly and I nodded tears slipping from my eyes and quietly and in shock walked into the living room. I sat by Pony and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "Jennie, what's wrong? Is Blaze okay?" Em asked kneeling in front of me. I looked at her as more tears slipped from my eyes. I couldn't tell them, I wanted to, but I couldn't find my voice. "Did, Dally say to stay here?" Adri asked coming over and I nodded. So that's what we did, we sat in complete silence and waited.
~Blaze's P.O.V.~ (Decided to chang it up a little (; )
When Dally kicked down the door and him and Jennie saw me, I began crying hysterically. I didn't want to do this, but it was too much. That guy from earlier did things unforgiveable and unforgettable to me and with the rest of my past coming back to my all at once I couldn't handle it. I thought I could hold back from doing this to myself but I guess not. I watched Dally drop to his knees and a single tear slipped from his eye. He glanced at my bloody arm then into my eyes. "Why?" He asked just above a whisper. "I couldn't handle it, Dally. It was just too much." I explained crying. "What do you mean?" He asked coming over and grabbing my arm to stop the blood flow. "My past, Dal. I can't get it out of my head. No matter how hard I try to move on, to forget about it, it pushes its way to the front of my head." I said and bent my head down and fisted my hair in my hands. Dal placed his hand on mine and took gauze from the cabinet. "You need to talk to someone, Blaze, you can't do this to yourself. What if you cut too deep one day or too much?" He said and began wrapping up my arm. "Can I talk to you about it?" I asked softly barely looking up at him. "I will always listen to no matter what you have to say." He said lifting my chin with his index finger. I let out a shaky breath. "I don't want to go into detail so I'll just give it to you straight. I've been abused since I was born, ran away when I was six and I've been raped four times. And over the past month I've been seeing the first man who raped me everywhere. He's been following me around, and he knows that I know who he is. He's tormenting me Dal and I can't get him outta my frickin head!" I said gritting my teeth at the end. Dally gripped my shoulders and I looked up into his ice blue eyes. "Well stop him, and you won't have to ever see his face ever again, okay?" I nodded at him, "And promise me you will never ever do this to yourself ever again." I nodded again. "I promise Dal." "Good, you're too beautiful to do this to yourself." He whispered and leaned his forehead against mine. I blushed and looked away from his eyes. "Hey look at me." Dal said softly and I looked back at his eyes. He leaned in and pressed his soft lips to mine. I kissed back and closed my eyes. It was slow and passionate and all I felt in the moment was Dal. I didn't remember where we were, why we were here, or what had happened earlier. I could use something like this more often.
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I don't like the ending that much i kind of rushed it, but i hope you guys like it!!! Tell me what you think!!!! Also i probably won't update before thursday so expect the next chapter by saturday hopefully!!! And if you're going to Sunsation Tour Boston remember to let me know so i can try and meet up with a couple of you guys!!!!! Until next time, STAY GOLD!!!!!!