Heechul's POV
Siwon is working and today I need to go in my office too but just for a while. I packed diaper bag for Yesung and called Siwon that we are heading out. We need to do grocery shopping too, so I texted him that we will be back home later than him. Siwon has only one surgery today so he will be back around lunch.
"We are working harder than papa today so we will get some sweet treat."
Yesung claps his little hands happily because he knows that it means muffins from great bakery which is close to my work place. I am driving and sing along with radio because I have great mood. Yesung isn't whining because of his injuries from yesterday and he is our happy little boy. I bought him the muffins with strawberries on top and we go to my office. Lisa comes to discuss something and watches me how I am wiping Yesung's mouth from rests of the muffin. Yesung leans closer to my ear and whispered that we should give one muffin to Lisa.
"That is great idea baby."
I pat his head and then hand one muffin from the box to Lisa.
"Thank you Yesung."
She kneeled in front of my kind boy and wants to touch his hand but Yesung quickly hides his hands in safety of his pockets and then hides behind me.
"Don't you think that maybe he is autistic?"
Lisa is still kneeling in front of him and observes how Yesung placed palms over his ears.
"What?!"
I am glaring at top of her head and wish that my glare will cause baldness to her.
"Well people with autism have problems with communication and physical contact. He is just somehow weird."
I am completely shocked. How could she say something like this? How dares she?
"Do you have hidden doctor diploma? If not then shut up! And even if he is it doesn't change how much we love him. Yesung is perfect."
I grab Yesung's hand and his bag and stormed out of my office. I hurry to the elevator and shake in anger. Just calm down Heechul, no drama here where everyone can see you, you are gentleman so no insults or yelling. I take few deep breaths and then look at Yesung. He is soundlessly opening and closing his mouth and confusedly looking around himself. Like he doesn't know where he is. This isn't good.
"Don't listen to her. She is stupid. Only listen to me and papa okay? And I am saying that you are perfect and loved."
Yesung still isn't answering and only blinks and stares into nothing. We are in garages and I gently push Yesung to our car. I am fasting the straps of his car seat when first hot tear fell on back of my hand. I look at Yesung and see that he is crying.
"Baby turtle don't cry. She knows nothing."
Yesung looks at me with eyes full of tears.
"People said that about me before. My classmates, co-workers. Even my father said that. What if you and Siwon start to think it too? Will you leave me?"
I can't do nothing more than kiss him on forehead and repeat that he is perfect. I start to drive home and wait for meltdown which will surely come. And in middle of Seoul in traffic jam it comes.
At first Yesung started to cry and sob louder than before and then it changed into screaming.
"Let me out!"
Yesung is angrily screaming and thrashing in the car seat but luckily he doesn't know how to unfasten the straps. He is still screaming while I am trying to soothe him and pay attention to traffic around me.
"What about some music Yesung?"
I turn on the radio and Twice's song is playing.
"Isn't Twice your favourite group?"
As answer Yesung throwed his plushie turtle on me and continue in screaming and crying.
"Don't throw things Yesung! Moreover I am driving."
He is already red in face and he will surely have headache later. But luckily we are almost at home. I dial Siwon and hope that his papa will call him down.
"I am still stucked in the fucking traffic jam."
Siwon promised that he will try to get home as soon as possible but Yesung needs him now. We are in front of our house and want to take him out of his car seat but he kicked me in stomach.
"Leave me alone!!"
Yesung is still crying and fighting when I am unstrapping the straps. Finally I am holding him and hurry inside while Yesung fight and thrashes in my hold. He managed to get one hand out of my grip and scratches me on left cheek. It surprised me and Yesung slipped out of my arms. Before I can catch him he bangs his head against the floor few times. I jump on him and put my palm over his forehead.
I am holding him down with my body and Yesung is violently squirming and shaking under me. He bites my fingers few times, but I don't mind the pain, but his crying is hurting my heart.
"I hate you! You will leave me!"
I kiss him on his sweaty cheek.
"Why would we do it? You are the sweetest little boy."
After while he is finally calm but dazed and disoriented. His whole body is stiff and i see blood on his shirt. The scab from wound on his chin fell off during the meltdown and it is bleeding again. His little fingers are spasming and I call Heebum. I gently lift her and take Yesung's hand. I run his hand over Heebum's velvet smooth fur and after few minutes he slowly starts to relax.
"Are we okay?"
Yesung is drooling and only watch Heebum.
"We had little meltdown, didn't we? But auntie is here."
I am running my fingers through his hair and hear that Siwon is here. He looks sad and angry but most of he is worried.
"Is he okay?"
He kneeled next to us and lifted Yesung.
"Is my baby feeling okay now? You were with auntie yeah?"
Siwon is bouncing Yesung on his hip and I can relax now. I am suddenly so tired and just want to sleep. Siwon is whispering something to Yesung's ear and go upstairs. I drag myself to the bedroom and lay down in our bed. Siwon changed Yesung's diaper and dressed him in comfortable onesie.
"Do you want to take nap with auntie?"
Yesung doesn't say anything and just make grabby hands to me. Siwon laid him next to me and made bottle of formula. Yesung is cuddling close to me and Siwon put the teat between his lips. Our baby is drinking but in middle of the bottle he fell asleep.
"Do you think that he is really autistic? Maybe we would be able to give him better care if we know if he is or isn't."
Siwon thinks about what I said but then shakes his head.
"I know what he needs so why should we bother him with some tests? He isn't dumb and he would figure out what we are doing and then it would be worse."
He is right and after all he has the main word when it comes to Yesung. I take a nap too and when I wake up Yesung and Siwon are gone. I panic for while, but then I found Yesung swaddled and laying on couch while Siwon is cooking. I sit next to Yesung and un swaddle him.
"Did you have good nap baby?"
Yesung is only sucking on pacifier and whined.
"Lets see what is papa cooking."
I get up with Yesung on my hip and go to the kitchen. Siwon is making black beans noodles and I made bottle of formula for Yesung. I hold him on my lap and put his head in crook of arm. I bring teat of the bottle to his lips and he immediately sucks on it. I start to eat the noodles and hum in favour because Siwon is great cook. After he finished the bottle I burped him and we go on the terrace. Yesung is sitting between us just in thin shirt and shorts. He is babbling something and he is obviously extremely tiny now after the meltdown. Bugsy is running around us and Siwon plays fetch with him.
"I am so sorry about today baby boy."
Yesung only looks at me and drools on my shirt. I gave him his pacifier and turtle plushie and he is crawling around me. He is so happy and beautiful that I don't care what are some mean idiots saying, for me Yesung is perfect.