Briar's POV
This is strange. I'm feeling like I am being watched and I haven't told shit to anyone. Not that I am scared...well not so much. Or maybe I am. I have a child who belongs to me and god knows who's keeping an eye on me now?
I have even decided to shift from Sama's house. It's been some three weeks that I have decided a place which is very much near to office as well but I just can't shift. Sama is happy that I am not shifting too soon. She, in fact, wants me to stay until I give birth but I doubt I want to keep relying on them for that long. My baby bump is visible now. But it just looks more of a fat on me than pregnancy. People even noticed this saying you gained weight it seems.
Whatever it is, I have to get to know who's actually spying on me. The girl from the café three weeks back is missing. When I went to ask about her they said she left the very first day when I caught her.
What fuck?
The only person I can share this is with Aron. But he seems stressed and busy. The only chance we get to talk is at launch and that also is mostly him busy replying to emails with a sandwich in one hand. I, on the other hand, feel more lonely and irritated. Aron and I have become good friends but we aren't talking like friends. It's more of a business talk or sometimes I feel like he doesn't really want to talk much.
When all this happens I really want to fly off to the twin to at least have them with me. I was never the one to talk much but I was always the one to be talked to a lot. In high school, it was all the friends I had. I wonder how are they doing. I can't contact them because one thing is that I don't have their contact details and the other thing is I can't tell them anything.
This makes me think what reason am I having to live. I can't die because I have got gifted from Cayden this amazing mark of his which is growing in me day by day and I have to be alive for him or her to grow and have a better life than I had.
" Hey? Briar?" suddenly a manly voice interrupted my thoughts and then I realized how I zoned out while talking to Aron. I really want to talk to him about the creepy person following me around.
" Yeah... I-I was distracted." I said trying to catch up with confidence.
" Are you okay? You can take a day off." he said putting his pen down. I was in his office and it's launch time. This is launch and this doesn't mean I am free either because if he works, I work too. Not to forget with one hand holding a sandwich. Well, I am getting used to this boring routine.
" No man I am just fine. I was just thinking if we could have a dinner together to you know catch up on stuff and I wanted to tell you something I have been experiencing recently." I asked all at once shocking him slightly. After a while of him staring at me, he gave a broad smile.
" Guess what? I was thinking of asking you this. But this workload is too much to handle. I can't really think straight when I am in the office. And yeah let's catch up tonight... if you're free of course?" he said fully attentive now. If only I knew he wasn't ignoring me.
"Of course. Let us just head out together from office then?" I asked smiling with a hope of having someone to share my shit with.
" Yes, I'll tell Mark to take your car home and you can come with me." he answered and I nodded before again getting busy with that shitty business papers. God knows when the time will pass. It feels like high school again. The same time when I used to wait for the last period to get over and rush back home to the twins who were mostly the only priority in my life back then.
Time did pass and we were heading out together. This time there was no creepy feelings coming. Especially the footsteps I hear in the parking lot a lot of times. We drove to a not so fancy hotel. The place was not having many people around. The people looked familiar with Aron as they just gave 'the usual' spot to him. I smiled knowing this is how rich people live.
Once we were seated I was just going to start off with my so many things when Aron's phone busted and he had to go take the call telling me a very distracted 'excuse me'.
Ugh. He was gone for some five minutes and I just wanted to drag him back. I consider him as a very good friend of mine. Even though I have no idea why he has been so concerned about me. He came back after a little more of five minutes and I tried my very best to not show any signs of irritation on my face.
" Sorry I had to take that." he said while making a sad face.
" Was it work related?" I asked because of course, I am related.
"No, It was Ana... my daughter." he said while grabbing his hair in a fist. He looked cute but I knew he's sad. Ana is very cute and I know it hurts him to not have her around. He became very close to her. Even though she's not his real daughter, he doesn't hesitate in calling her his.
Now that he's already sad, I don't feel like discussing my shit with him. Soon the waiter came for taking order for the fifth time I guess.
After giving our orders we were back to being silent. I just don't know if I should speak anything.
" So tell me. What Is that's bothering you?" he asked once he was a lot better. Even though I know he wasn't in the best of moods I still wanted to talk. We don't get time and I doubt we will be getting it anytime soon.
" I am being watched. No, don't speak let me say. " I said putting my hand up in the air for stopping him from saying anything.
" It's like first it was just someone watching and now it is someone following me and no I am not just feeling it recently it's been going on from the time we have been back from Paris." I spoke and watched his reaction which was like that's the most casual fuck he's heard of. Like what? I fucking told him some serious shit I have been stressing about. Is there any chance that he already knows?
" He or she haven't hurt you right?" he asked me instead casually looking around the restaurant while sipping on to his wine. There got to be something that he already knows.
" No, but why that matters? He or she can anytime attack me as they will be knowing everything about me. And what if he or she is waiting for a chance? Waiting for me to move out of Sama's house?" he looked my way this time.
" It's him." he said while keeping an intense stare. What's he saying? Who he? He?
Him?
It's him?
Fuck no?!?!?
" And you knew all about it?" I asked him really not feeling to keep my voice low. Anyway, not many people are sitting here. This was not helping me feel better at all. I thought I will feel better talking to him but here I am getting more stressed. Like how can he just not let me know if Cayden is following me around? Why's he not talking to me openly?
I feel lonely a little more. Now there I have no one in real to talk to. I can't believe he was just keeping all this to himself when the only person I'm hurt from is following me around. I believed him and always told him all about myself. This is just too hard. I have been through a lot but a friend doing something you don't expect is hurtful.
" You don't have to worry. He is never going to hurt you. I know." he said while putting his warm hand over mine.
" Why did you not tell me A-Aron?" I struggled with the lump that formed in my throat. He smiled sadly.
" He likes you more than you think he does. Why don't you hear him out?" Why's he so worried about me hearing him or not?
" Why are you so concerned? If I don't want to hear him I won't. You have no right to hide things from me. Wait... are you by any chance actually working for him to make me come close to him so he can take advantage of me again?" I asked now breathless. The pit of my stomach was hurting. And I knew I'm getting sick soon.
" Because I like you... a lot." he said with a very firm voice. But wait? What's he saying?
" I know this is sudden but I think you like him and I don't want to come in the middle. If only I could do something about changing your heart... but I can't and that hurts. Every time I want to go far from you, I end up craving to talk to you... to make you laugh with me. Many times I thought of just forcing you to like me instead but that won't do. I can't force you." he said frustrated. I have no words.
" This hurts... not having anyone in life to talk to. When you came I was lonely. I just simply liked how you talked so understandingly. You didn't cling to me like other girls. In fact, I was shocked you just smiled at me only a couple of times. I wanted to know you more but in the middle, you just went. Then you showed up to my office and I just- felt good. I wanted you. I never showed many signs because I knew I was not the one for you. Not the one in your heart. Now I'm scared you might go to him and I can't do anything but to just let it happen." he said all in a whisper with pain in his eyes.
After that, we just ate. I didn't speak anything after his confession.
Even he didn't.
For all, I can say this was just getting awkward for me. After paying the bills we went to the car together.
No one spoke.
The car ride just got more awkward and I wanted to break the tension.
" Briar?" I heard him call me softly. Don't confess anything more. It makes me feel guilty because I share no such feelings.
" Yeah...?" I asked.
" We aren't making this awkward." he said while turning his head to me when the traffic light was red.
" We aren't?" I asked smiling slightly because we already made it.
" Nah. Forget what I said. I didn't tell you about Cayden because I thought it's none of my business and one part of me just wanted you happy." he said while driving again.
" What makes you think I love him?" I asked.
" The whole you." What even? Do I ogle over him? Or I just continuously look at him to make people suspicious?
" Forget it... for now." I suggested and leaned in the seat to calm my shit down.
This is messed up. The only question that's bugging me is if Cayden knows about my pregnancy?
I'm scared. If only I could just fly over to somewhere else.
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THERE'S ONE MORE UPDATE. I WILL SURELY MAKE SURE TO UPDATE SOONER. WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK OF ARON'S SUDDEN CONFESSIONS?
ARON OR CAYDEN?
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