WOW I HATE THE NEW UPDATE I ACCIDENTKY UPLOADED THIS CHAPTER I THINK AND I WASNT EVEN DONE WRITING WHAT THE HECK??
THE NEW WATTPAD UPDATE IS FUCKINGG WEIRD IM SORRY I JUST WHAT THE HELL IDK IF I LIKE IT OR NOT IM JUST CONFUSED
OK I HOPE THIS DOESNT SUCK GOODBYE FRIENDS
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"I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going
But I don't think I'm coming home and I said
I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we're starting at the end."
~ Alone Together by Fall Out Boy
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Luke's POV
I jerked awake from my dreamless sleep, and was about to rollover and try to get more comfortable until I noticed there was a weight on me and hair tickling my chin.
I smiled down at Ashton's sleeping form, the bit of soft sunlight filtering through the window shed light on his delicate cheekbones and I couldn't help but feel a strong need for Ashton to love me like I love him, it sounded desperate but I had already come to terms with how insane I felt around Ashton so I didn't dwell on it.
I found myself softly biting my lip as my eyes poured over every part of Ashton, and my heart sped up as I saw a patch of skin peeking out from where his sweater-well, my sweater-rode up a bit, exposing some of the soft skin of his stomach. It was such a beautiful sight, to see him so innocent and vulnerable and peaceful, the strong need I had for Ashton intensified.
My fingers brushed over the dark purple bruise on his face, and I knew that I'd have to find a way to get Ashton as far away from his abusive uncle as possible. Someone like that deserves to go to fucking jail, or hell. Either one, or both maybe, that'd be good.
Before I could start imagining satan murdering Ashton's uncle, the weight on my chest began to shift around.
"Umph." Ashton groaned as his eyes fluttered open, and I almost let my jaw drop, because fuck, his eyes were so gorgeous and I was so fucking screwed.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" I managed to say as Ashton rolled off of my chest and sat up, rubbing at his face, which was turning pink from blushing.
"I-um, I don't know." I playfully brought sleepy Ashton back into my chest, chuckling,
"Maybe you need some breakfast or something." I ruffled his hair a bit, but Ashton still didn't smile. I furrowed my eyebrows,
"Tell me what's wrong, there's obviously something bothering you." He sighed, looking down at his hands.
"I don't-everything is bothering me, I guess. I don't know. Forget about it." I frowned and Ashton leaned on my chest as I played with his hair.
"I won't just drop it if it's bothering you, Ashton." He shifted a bit so he could look up at me, and I noticed his eyes were shiny with...tears?
"The truth is, um... I-I'm scared to go back home. He's gonna hurt me again, Lukey, I don't know I guess I'm being a wimp bu-" I ignored my fluttering heart from the cute nickname he gave me and hushed his rambling.
"It's okay to be scared, I think anyone would be afraid if they were in your situation. You're so brave for living with that-that uncle of yours for so long. You're not a wimp at all, Ash." He buried his face in my chest, and I rubbed soothing circles on his back and continued, "And maybe you don't even have to go back there, you can stay here with me if you want too." I felt Ashton freeze in my arms as he raised his head to look up at me, eyes wide and innocent,
"You would do that for me? I don't want to be a burden or anything..." I grabbed a hold of his cheeks,
"You're not a burden, Ashton. I swear, you need to get that into your head. I love having you around." I patted Ashton's cheek and he smiled shyly.
"Okay." I chewed on my lip, staring down at Ashton.
"So you'll stay?" Ashton smiled a bit, as if the thought was enough to make him smile, but he looked conflicted.
"I really want to stay, but my uncle will kill me if I just move out. I don't even have my stuff." Ashton frowned, and I felt my happiness deflate a little. I hadn't thought of any faults in having Ashton live with me.
"But if you sneak your stuff back to my place, then you won't have to live with him anymore." I pouted.
Ashton shrugged, "I guess I'll pack up my things and go when he's not home." He buried his face in his hands and sighed, and I felt guilty for making him feel stressed out about this.
"You don't have to go through with this if you don't want too... I mean, I just thought-" Ashton quietly stopped me, tentatively putting his sweater-covered hand on mine.
"I didn't mean to make it seem like I didn't want to stay here, it's just-I felt a little overwhelmed for a moment, that's all." I was about to reply back, but my cheeks heated up a bit when I saw he didn't move his hand off of mine. Ashton must've noticed, since he sprung his hand back, face reddening as he murmured shyly,
"Sorry." I smiled softly,
"It's alright, no need to apologize." I looked over at him, embarrassed to see Ashton already staring at me. I bit my lip, my eyes traveling down towards his soft looking lips. Yet again, there wasn't a single breath to break the silence as we, or at least I shamelessly stared at him, remembering small details and all of his flaws, which made Ashton even more beautiful.
"Maybe we should um-have some breakfast or something." My voice was barely above a whisper as I continued to gawk at how quietly gorgeous Ashton was. How did I not notice how soft his facial features were, how adorable his nose was, or how pretty his eyes were?
"All you can think about is food!" A small blush painted Ashton's cheeks as he giggled and looked right back at me. I chuckled breathlessly, the sound of Ashton's laugh making my stomach do backflips. We both continued to smile and stare at each other until I slowly looked away and climbed off the bed, Ashton following behind.
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In the middle of eating cereal, Ashton glanced at the clock and began to choke, eyes widening.
"Are you o-" Ashton cut me off, finally swallowing the cereal he was choking on and exclaimed,
"I'm supposed to be at work! Oh god, oh god I'm-" I chuckled at his sudden outburst,
"It'll be fine, I'm sure if you explain what happened you won't get in trouble." Ashton shot up from his seat and put his bowl in the sink, offering to take mine but I didn't let him.
He looked down at himself, instantly groaning in annoyance.
"I don't have any clothes!" I sighed and took a hold of his shoulders, shaking him lightly,
"You need to calm down." Ashton blushed, looking up at me with a sheepish expression.
"I'm sorry, I just stress over everything." I smiled reassuringly,
"It's alright, you could borrow some of my clothes again if you want." He looked guilty as he mumbled,
"Are you sure? I feel really bad-" I could sense Ashton was about to start rambling again, so I cut him off.
"It's okay, I don't mind." I eyed him up and down, smirking, "You look cute in my clothes anyway." Ashton's face turned bright red as he smacked my chest, exclaiming,
"Shut up, you liar!" I shook my head fondly, and Ashton followed me to the drawers where I kept my clothes in.
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We ended up taking another hour to get ready to go to work. Ashton noticed I had a guitar and he asked me to play a song for him, which eventually turned into a tickle fight, but neither of us knew who even started that.
"There's no point in showing up to work anymore, don't you think?" I waggled my eyebrows and smirked as Ashton looked nervous. I knew Calum would be okay with me taking a break for today, since I worked extra hours yesterday.
"But Luke, I've never missed work and I'll get in trouble! What if I get fired-" I put a finger to his lips, hushing him,
"You'll be fine, you've never missed work, right? It's okay to make one mistake, they can't fire you just because of today." I leaned over so we were nose to nose, and I bit my lip as Ashton shivered.
"It'll be fun."
I had no idea where my flirtatious mood came from, but it was effecting Ashton so much that it looked like his cheeks were a permanent shade of red.
"U-um, okay."
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"Where are we going?" Ashton looked around, confused.
We had left the apartment to go on a walk, and I had a special place in mind. Somewhere I used to go too when I needed to clear my head, a place to breathe.
"We're almost there, c'mon!" I took ahold of his hand and began to run, and Ashton began stumbling and giggling,
"But we're in the middle of no where!" To Ashton, that's what it looked like; I was dragging him through the old and abandoned part of town, and it was practically deserted.
I skidded to a halt in front of a tall building, which doesn't serve a purpose anymore. By now it was in the middle of the afternoon, but Ashton still looked a bit anxious by the run down, almost creepy building.
I gently squeezed Ashton's hand, "Follow me." He let out a breath, staying close to my side as we walked into the dark lobby of the old office building.
I almost went to check if the elevator still worked, but I remembered that Ashton hated elevators.
Ashton quietly followed me as we trudged up flight after flight of stairs, until we both had to stop for a rest.
"Why are we here, anyway?" Ashton wheezed, trying to gain his breath.
"You'll see."
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"You can see the whole city from here!" Ashton's face lit up as we finally made it to the roof, and I beamed.
"I always come up here if I need to think." Ashton stood a bit too close to the edge, still admiring the view. I came up from behind him before he could stumble off the edge and wrapped an arm around his waist, pulling him back a bit.
"Whoa, there. I don't want you to fall." Ashton blushed and shyly nodded. A depressing thought swirled around in my head, making me hold Ashton tighter.
What if he wanted to jump?
I had momentarily forgotten about the bridge incident and the scars. How could I forget?
I sighed and sat down, a good distance away from the edge. Ashton plopped down next to me, and I opened my arms,
"C'mere." Ashton happily scooted into my arms, making me chuckle. I wrapped my arms around his middle and murmured into his fluffy hair,
"Hey, um-can I ask you something? And can you tell me the truth?" Ashton tensed a little bit, so I pressed a soft kiss to the top of Ashton's head, "I won't hurt you, I promise."
Ashton slowly nodded for me to continue.
"Have you-have you thought about, y'know...killing yourself again?" He let out a small sigh, playing with the sleeves of his shirt.
"Erm, yeah. Multiple times." I bit my lip, bringing him closer to me. I was afraid he was going to say that.
"Do you want to-to kill yourself right now? Like at this moment?" I held my breath as Ashton stayed quiet for a few seconds.
"Not when I'm with you. You help me forget everything bad, and you-you're one of the only people that makes me happy, I guess. So, no. I don't want to kill myself right now." My heart swelled at Ashton's confession and I could tell that he was astonished that he admitted that all to me.
"I'm so glad that I make you happy because I really, really, really like you." Ashton giggled softly and he turned his head a bit, and I could see how obviously he was blushing.
"I really, really, really like you too, Lukey." I smiled, feeling warm and giddy on the inside.
"Good, because that would've been awkward." I gently tilted his chin, "And I wouldn't have been able to do this."
I leaned forward, slow enough so that Ashton could stop me, but he didn't. I softly pressed my lips against his, and I felt like my heart was about to burst and tingles shot up my spine. Ashton's lips were so pretty and soft.
At first, Ashton squeaked a bit in shock and didn't respond, but he began kissing back, making me smile. I was grinning so much that I had to pull away, making Ashton groan in protest.
I chuckled, "M'sorry, I just couldn't help it." Ashton's eyes fluttered open, his cheeks were flushed and his hair was messy. We had been up there so long that the sky grew dark and the moon and stars shined brightly, the silver light made Ashton look so beautiful.
"Kiss me." Ashton breathed, and quietly added, "Please." How could I resist his plea?
Gently cupping his cheek, I leaned forward once again, capturing his lips in mine. This time, the kiss grew needy and desperate as Ashton wrapped his arms around my neck, tugging softly at my hair as I sucked on his bottom lip, unintentionally making him moan.
I quickly pulled away, panting heavily. Ashton blushed, his eyes widening once he realized he was siting on my lap. He crawled off of me as I whispered,
"We shouldn't-we can't..." He immediately nodded, pulling his knees up to his chest and wrapping his arms around himself, looking cold and a bit hurt. Did Ashton think I said that because I thought he wasn't good enough?
"I'm only saying this because I want to be with you longer before we, y'know... I want it to mean even more than it would now." I grabbed Ashton's hand and brought it up to my lips, pressing a gentle kiss to his knuckles. "It's not because of you, love. You're perfect." He nodded again, this time with a small smile.
Ashton's smile broke as I helped him stand up, "What are we, Luke?" I smiled sheepishly as a gust of wind blew, making Ashton stand closer to me,
"Well, I was hoping that you'd be my boyfriend, but never mind-" Ashton's eyes widened as he blushed a deep red,
"No, no, no, I do want to be your boyfriend! What are you talking about?" I began to laugh, and pulled him in for a hug, kissing his forehead.
"I was only joking." Ashton let out an angry huff, playfully trying to squirm out of my grip.
We ended up standing there for a few more minutes, just holding each other. No more words were needed, and everything was just perfect. Well, for now at least.
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Oops they didn't fuck sorry
I actually don't think there will be smut in this unless someone else writes it because I can't write that kind of stuff idk
BUT HEY THEY'RE TOGETHER NOW YASS let the lashton begin >:D
Ok I'm being weird and I'm so awkward I want to cry seriously it gives me pain bye ~Hannah