BRIAR'S POV
He stood there with slightly shocked eyes. He didn't expect this. Hell even didn't expect this. His stilled lips curved upward into a half smile and smirk. I don't think I should stay anymore. I stepped backward while facing him. He watched my actions carefully. Then I turned around to reach the door.
" Briar? ...We haven't talked yet." he said hesitating a bit. What talk huh? I turned around facing him.
" What you want to say Cayden?" I asked him tired now. Actually, I was really hungry. I need to eat or else I might faint again. Ugh.
"Let's go to eat?" he asked. What?
" What?" I asked looking at him.
" You're hungry. Let's eat first? " he said choosing his words carefully. He looked nervous ...Wow. Cayden Donovan, the one and only is nervous right now. In front of me. I took my time.
I'm hungry...I really am. But this show isn't easily available.
" Okay." I answered. He wants to talk and I think I want to hear him. Let's see what he wants to say.
We made our way outside the room and out of the hotel. He was beside me. I could smell his cologne and I will be lying if I say I didn't miss it. I missed him... his presence made me feel safe. Like always. But I didn't know that he was the only one from whom I wasn't safe. I signed running a hand through my hair. He noticed my action but kept quiet.
" Why are we taking car?" I asked when I noticed us moving towards his car.
" Because we are going to eat outside." he answered simply.
" We could just walk towards the nearby café?" I asked irritated. He smiled. The same smile I always believed. Guess it hurts more now.
" No, not here. Many businessmen are around here." That does make sense. After all his reputation will be ruined if he's seen in a scandal with an ordinary secretary. His fiancée will know and obviously, he can't risk that. I wonder if he loves her? What about her? Who cares?
I do... maybe. But that'll be utterly dumb of me to actually have feelings for him now. I saw his true colors just some months ago. My thoughts were interrupted when he opened the car door for me. Yeah right... showing how much of a gentleman he is. I slipped into the car not looking at him. After closing the door he walked towards his side of the car. We drove in silence. This felt empty. I don't want to be with him.
God only knows how much I want to throw him out of his own car. That'll be funny. I couldn't help but laugh at my own though. And by the laugh, I meant really laughing out loud in front of him who looked at me with slight confusion. I faced the window embarrassed at my stunt. God.
After some ten minutes, we stopped on some ancient type of restaurant. It looked really good and the smell from inside was everywhere when I opened the door. When I stood outside the car completely after closing the door, a wave of dizziness washed over me. I shouldn't starve like this. I haven't eaten anything after the morning breakfast and it's evening right now. Without noticing a hand wrapped around my waist. I couldn't help but notice how my body reacted towards his touch. The dizziness went away but I didn't want him to move.
I looked upwards at him standing tall starring at me with concern. His concerned eyes looked intense like he's finding something. What's he finding? Wait... what if he finds out about my pregnancy? I don't know why I'm hiding this. He deserves to know, I know...but what if he takes my child away? What if he wants me to not deliver? Obviously, he won't want his marriage life to be ruined if I happen to have his child.
I pushed him away and walked forward. One part of me wanted to go back and let him hold me like he did just now. I can't find such comfort anywhere... in no one's arms but his. Why do I have to suffer in every phase of my life? Why can't any one thing go smoothly?
He caught up with me sooner. But I could still feel his eyes looking my way time to time with the same concern...I guess. The door was opened by a very cute guy who smiled with shining eyes and dimples on both sides. As soon as we entered I was hit with the same dizziness. What the actual fuck? I'm eating my child! Don't do this just yet. I silently begged when again I felt the same warm embrace from Cayden.
" Don't push this time." he said with concern but stern voice. I didn't object this time. We walked towards the last table which also showed the beautiful scenery from outside. Yeah, it was a window side. There was wood everywhere in this restaurant making it look traditional. The staff had a weird traditional dress which went well with the atmosphere. Cayden after pulling the chair out for me, helped me sit. Then he sat on his own chair. He watched me while I looked around. Why even I'm here?
A waitress came up soon asking for the order. Guess I was blank. Cayden ordered a full meal which was enough for the both of us. He chose lemon juice while I asked orange. After taking our orders the waitress went away promising us to bring our food soon.
" What you wanted to talk about?" I asked. He looked my way as if thinking deeply. Ugh, why man? Why look this way?
" How are you?" he asked again the same shit he asked me at that time in the meeting room. What the fuck?
" What even? You asked this before. If you wanted to ask this shit then you should've told me before." I answered irritated. His face held a weird kind of adoration? What's this acting he's pulling out this time? God help me.
" I want the answer." he said while putting his arms on the table and connecting his fingers while bringing them up to his chin looking like he was curious as fuck. Ha!
" And I gave you one." I answered copying his moments. As soon as I did it I couldn't help put regret because not only was we closer but this time I could just see him in front of me. He had his eyes connected with mine as if he knew every secret I have.
" But I want the truth." he said while softening his eyes. Fuck you. How can he even ask me this so casually? What he think I am? A doll? He'll break me and then come ask me if I was fine.
" I said the truth." I answered him while hardening my eyes. He was observing and I have to be careful.
" What's with the dizziness?" he asked removing his hands from under his chin and moving backward. Then I noticed the waitress with a try in her hand. Food. My life. I moved back as well and let her place our juices with the large plate of salad and grilled chicken. I couldn't hold back anymore. When the waitress went back after asking Cayden something I didn't hear I started to eat. I even forgot what Cayden asked me. What did he ask? I'll think later.
I was busy eating when I noticed eyes on me. I looked up carefully. And there he was watching me intensively. Uh? Life hates me big time. I straightened up and cleared my throat.
" What did you ask?" I asked him while chewing a large piece of chicken. He stared at me for a second before asking me.
" Your dizziness. Why did you faint that night? What's with the dizziness you had?" He asked me elaborating the question.
" I didn't eat anything because of what I was dizzy. And that day also we were expecting food but you came." I answered truthfully. Something flickered in his eyes.
" It wasn't like that before." He stated as if not buying my explanation. Yes, I wasn't pregnant and weak before. I didn't say that. I kept eating silently.
" Can we get to the point now?" I asked facing him after some minutes. He was still observing. What's his problem?
" How do I get to the point when you're not answering me truthfully?" he asked sipping his lemon juice.
" I wasn't lying. I was dizzy because I was hungry." I said pressing on each word. He smirked. Ugh. I know he knows there's something I'm missing out. Missing out the half-truth.
" Fine, I'll believe this. Now tell me who faints and stays in the hospital for a whole fucking day because of not eating anything? It's not that you're starving yourself. I can see that." I'm not really hungry anymore. Sipping on my juice I watched his intense stare. I'm not freaking out. I'm not.
" What's your motive Cayden?" I asked.
" I'm concerned." He answered. I wanted to cry now. I can't be emotional.
" And why the fuck is that?" I didn't shout. I said it rather painfully.
" I'll tell you later." what he thinks? I'm going to wait for him to tell me why he's concerned? He can go die with his concern.
" I don't have so much free time Cayden. If you want to say some shit, then say it already." I answered frustrated. I'm tired.
" I'm sorry." What?
" Sorry? For?" I asked trying to comfort my heart.
" For what I did. I had a reason... I did it because I had to do it. Do it for my sister." he said painfully. Don't talk about that Cayden. It took me courage... a lot of it to just push it down. I can't bring those times back. Whatever the reason he had. He did what he wanted. Forgiving isn't an option.
" I don't care." I said tiredly running a hand through my hair.
" I-"
" Please. Can we forget it? I don't care whatever reason you had. I want to be away... Away from you. I don't hate you... I can't do that. But I don't love you either." I said truth with a tint of a lie. I love him... I guess I do. I can't just tell him now. I can't even think anymore.
I just stood up carefully... don't know why even I care. Not making much noise I walked out of the restaurant. My eyes were blurred with tears. I pushed it down or tried to because one or two freely fell out of my eyes. The cute guy from outside who smiled at me looked puzzled. I just walked out to get myself a cab.
And after which felt like hours I got one. Without wasting much of my time I reached for the door. After sitting in I looked back at the restaurant where I saw a blue-eyed creature looking at me with pain. It looked like a breakup to me. It's funny... my life. Whatever it is... I think it's over now.
But little did I know that this isn't the end. We will meet again... maybe. Deep down I still wished to see his face again. Maybe again have his arms around me.
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