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Arima Kousei POV:
Seto Hiroko looked back at me while I am on my bed in her house. She also stared at the bread and milk that I haven't touched even for a bit.
I'm just on my bed.
Every morning when I wake up, I am riddled with lots of live nightmares that I can't help but scream for help.
I still keep on seeing the ghosts of my father and mother. They were both with me on my bed every night. I feel cold when their hands touch my cheeks and hands. At times, I feel like I am with them and I am in a big embrace of my mother.
Right now, it was just mom who's on the bed. She's holding me tight.
"Kousei, why aren't you touching your food?" she asked me.
I was about to answer when the ghost of my mother looked at me and closed my mouth. I can't speak.
She pinned me more in my bed. I couldn't move in any way. I tried to open my mouth to speak but I could feel that she's holding my wrists tight. I'm trying to release myself from her hold to talk to her. When I can't get out, I began screaming, "Let me go! Let me go, mom! Please leave me alone!"
"This is your punishment! It is I who killed your father! I won't let you out of the darkness! You refused me!!!" she shouted at me. "NOW KOUSEI, IT IS NOW YOUR TIME TO BE WITH ME FOREVER!!!"
I screamed again due to fear that she will drag me to death.
While I am screaming, I saw the ghost of my father as well.
He's standing at the edge of the balcony from my room.
He's asking me to come with him so I can escape mom's wrath.
I was able to release myself from my mother's hold, finally but I badly want to be with my father, too.
I know that Seto Hiroko was trying to talk to me but I can't hear her. I pushed her away from me.
I stood up from my bed and entered the balcony near my room.
I screamed to my father that I don't want him to leave me alone while I see my father's figure vanishing.
I tried to reach out to him.
I held on the edge of the balcony, stood on top of it and take his hand but I was stopped by someone I don't know.
I tried to get myself off them but someone injected something to me which calmed me down and made me stop moving at all. It also made me begin breathing heavily on the floor while tears fall on my eyes.
They brought me back on my bed and handcuffed me.
I could also see that someone I probably know before locked the door of the balcony.
I screamed at them, "My father is out there! Allow me to be with him! Please! Let me leave this dreadful place! He's calling me to come with him!"
Seto Hiroko held my clammy hands and spoke to me, "Kousei, forget them already. They're all gone! Release yourself from all of the illusion you have! I am sure that your parents won't want you suffering!"
She held on my hands tightly after that. I could feel the warmth in her hands.
"I saw him outside," I croaked. My tears left my eyes.
She spoke back to me as she caresses me, "It's an illusion, Kousei."
Is it truly an illusion?
Before I go to sleep, she injected some more of my medicines and after that, I fell asleep.
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The next day, she told me that she will have a busy schedule and she will be away for a bit long.
I was left behind by some people who claimed that they were my friends. They tried giving me solid food and soups but I always refuse them.
I'm not hungry.
I always cover myself with my blankets when the ghost of my parents is away and at night, I was used to feeling them already when I feel her cold hands hugging me.
Since I don't want to eat, I was given a dextrose and IV nutrients on my right hand.
Since I haven't seen my friends for so long, I have forgotten their names.
I might have forgotten them all, too.
They know me but I don't know them.
They all tried to talk to me but I never spoke a word.
I only talk to Seto Hiroko.
When she got back in her home, she always talks to me, chats with me, gives me my medicines, cleanse me and last of all, she fed me after I had a desire to eat food already.
I had also observed that the ghost of my mom and dad hadn't been appearing lately anymore due to her perseverance and patience to help me recover.
I could feel her love and it's pulling me out of the dark world where I went so deep after I saw my father dead.
Also, she reintroduced me to the piano.
It took me several months before I was able to play one whole musical piece again.
She was definitely delighted when I was able to play it but I know, my music is ghostly.
Even so, it helps me leave my dark world and made me go back to my monotone world.
I can't go back to the real world yet. I still am afraid to face the public.
My friends also reintroduced themselves to me after they knew that I am feeling much better after two years of my confinement in Seto Hiroko's house.
Just like what had happened to me when I was in a mental institution, they keep on giving me medicines.
If I can't eat, dextrose is struck on me.
Their love is breaking the gates I built for myself to hide inside my own mind.
I had more time alone than a time I am with her or with my friends, though.
I have no mood to get out yet.
It's fine for me that I'm watching the outside world by the windows where I can see vehicles and people moving about.
I had been using the piano to release my pain and it's preventing me from thinking about my past.
While I am looking at the windows, I heard my door open and at that time, I looked back who entered.
My eyes widened when I saw who entered my room.
I hugged her tight, "Kaori! You don't know how much I missed you!"
She released herself off me and smiled, "I'm not Kaori. I'm Kaori's twin sister. I'm Miyazono Aika. My sister gave me a letter too before she died. She told me that if she died, I have to find you and help you out. She feared that in her death, you will go back to your old world. She doesn't want you to stay in the darkness."
"Please, don't talk about my past," I begged her as bitter tears go out my eyes. "It hurts me. It makes me feel bad."
While I am crying, Seto Hiroko and a tall policeman went into my room. "I know that Kousei is recovering after the two years that I took him with me but I fear that asking him about what he saw five years ago will still be dangerous for his mental health, Superintendent Akito Ichiru," she told him.
"Seto Hiroko, he is a witness. As a witness, if he's feeling well now, can't he give us his statements to whatever he saw on the day his father was killed?" he asked her.
"No. He's not okay yet. Please leave. I'll call you if I see him ready to get out of this room," she said to them.
After she said that, Aika bowed at her and to the policeman in front of me.
"Seeing you suffer in a mental hospital makes me angry more to the man who killed my best friend. I can't even have enough evidence yet to one of the five suspects I believe killed your father. I know you understand me now," he told me. "Get out of your cage and be stronger. You've been in hiding long enough. Face your fears. Stop running away."
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